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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Umz.. I din really acheive much today.. shucks.. gotta make up for it during the next few weeks again.. I need motivation badly!! Yikes... and a study companion who is willing to be wif me.. or not I'll juz fall asleep on my lovely bed.. Sians.. Haix.. and I can't seem to stop myself from feeling stressed whenever I reach home and try to study.. Am I too overworked for term 2? Or am I juz thinking too much? I dunno.. Adrenaline seems to like rushing through my body even when I'm at home where its supposed to be more calm and relaxing..
Oh wells.. anyway.. had Bio SPA today.. Walked to sch juz to be on time.. Grrr.. stupid Daniel Ng started scolding even b4 we started SPA.. spoil the mood.. spoil the entire day.. grah... and Ms Yee really looked like a student when she wore the polo tee and jeans! Haha.. and geuss what? When a student of another class passed by and we were standing outside waiting to enter for make up tut.. He said that its a student (meaning Ms Yee) teaching students.. hahahahahaha...
But anyway.. I dun quite liek asexual repro.. coz of stupid J Chong.. Ok.. So I hafta start liking my lecturers or not my results will turn out otherwise.. -_-" The tut is totally no link to the notes *as usual (rolls eyes)* I hate it when questions are like that.. and its like out of the text.. sighs.. And anyway.. I think my mind wasn't working le..
The weather was so hot today and haha.. before bio make up.. since we had abt 45 mins free time.. had prata opp sch and went to the fitness corner cum playground! Haha... playing wif the gadgets there.. And we played hopscotch! Hehe.. The tong xin wei min us.. hehe.. No wonder we were all sweaty before the tut..
And I met up wif Joanne after sch.. had lunch and as usual.. her words made me reflect on myself again.. Umz.. she was sayign that I've changed coz I'm smiling less oft now than compared to teh 1st 3 mths.. To that.. I juz wanna say that indeed... things haf nvr been the same since I've stepped into TJ.. I noe everyone is worried abt the pace that I study.. so much that sometimes I think I juz wanna put a stop to studying.. Oh well.. the only consolation that I get is that this year is already more relaxed *to me* than last year and I really haf gerat frens arnd me.. Juz that I dun wanna keep troubling them esp when I'm stressed so I tend to keep it to myself so that I wun affect ppl's moods..
Guess that's what contribute to my "wai gang nei rou" characteR? Umz..
Anyway.. went out shopping wif Jo.. at Tampines! And saw Danz... LOL.. actually is she saw me lar.. my back view that recgonisable ar? HEhes.. 2pid danz.. say I nbr study hehe.. No lar.. jking lar hehe.. tot I shld gif myself a break after the bio SPA *which I finally found out which point I missed out for the procedure.. arghs* Coz I did attempt to study at Jo's hse but brain not working le.. so.... hehe.. unproductive.. and studying at home.. dunno why nong qiao fan zuo???
K lar.. long enuff entry.. sian.. and I juz got to know that July babies dun take the initiative to make frens hehe.. sounds like me.. coz i always wait for ppl to tok to me b4 I really can make a conver wif them hahas.. Such as in church.. LOL.. Better not let someone see this! =X
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9:54 PM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
What a nice day sia.. Been trying to calm myself down from the adrenaline rush that I keep experiencing! Darn.. As such.. I think I spent more time trying to relax than to study for Bio SPA... and since I can't take a proper nap.. here I am blogging..
Bro's gg NS soon.. Wish him all the best for his BMT =) Though I can't be wif him on the 10th.. WIll be there mentally for him! Yeah...
And I think I'm meeting Jo on Fri! Woots =) To study =( Hahas.. hopefully its good and as beneficial as last time hehe.. I wan a 24 hours study next time!! Hehes..
And the mentally and physically tired me is gg back to study now... grrr... so much for the hols when I can't even find some time for myself.. Cya!
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4:44 PM
Monday, May 29, 2006
Wah... I'm feeling drained and this is only the 1st day of the hols!! Yikes..
SO.. Had biochem lect in the morning.. woke up at 6 *yawns* Prob thats why I feel tired coz I slept at only 1 am the previous night.. Managed to pay attention w/o dozing off.. hahas.. Prob coz time flew by? LOL.. anyways.. after that queues at the ZAP shop for a while b4 giving up on the ppl in front.. grrr... can't they choose what papers they want first before queuing instead of clogging up the spacE? Irritating.. So Pekkie went opposite to photocopy the notes.. hahas.. And we went to eat at Long John! What a pity Pizza Hut wasn't open.. LOL.. had the craving for it.. but well... made do wif LJS hehe..
And after that... came home to change and rest for a while b4 I accompanied my toopid kor to the library to study.. woah can't tell you how comfy I was that I really feel like juz sleeping there.. Hehes.. So.. I'm still tired..
And I dun wanan study for Bio SPA.. sniffs.. so many things...
Juz can't help feeling stress sometimes.. haha.. but everyone is gg through the same thing I suppose so I wun be alone =)
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11:02 PM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Ok.. today's not v eventful actually.. BUT!
Wan Hua's in the top 28 of SIngapore Idol!!!
OMG... so happy for her.. great job girl! even though you prob wun read this hahas..
Anyways.. .went church wif KL!! Could finally tok to her afetr so long... Miss her.. haha.. hope she's doing fine now.. And I din really get a chance to tok to Ms Yee coz both of us were busy..
Actually.. I think thats all.. haha.. kk.. back to Bio SPA and zzz time!
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11:46 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Am back from the church camp! Or termed as "retreat" I guess.. Forgot to say that on Thurs saw Ashita at Woodlands... Miss that ger loads.. Anyways.. this is gg to be a long entry regarding the camp and happenings so if you dun haf the patience nor the time.. pls dun carry on.. thanks..
Been mood swinging for the past few days and sometimes.. I really feel so tired of everything.. Few hours before the camp.. I felt as though I was gg to leave home for the 1st time in my life.. when its not.. the feeling is juz not the same as that when u're gg to a sch camp.. coz this is the 1st time I'm spending it alone w/o any really close frens other than Ms Yee of coz.. but I can't stick to her 4eva lar.. she has her own life too.. and this time juz in order to get me to the camp and obtain permission from my mum.. she had to stay too even though I'm sure she din want to either.. so.. I guess I really owe her a big deal.. But juz dunno what to say to her sometimes.. More abt that later on in the entry...
Anyways.. woke up late and of coz turned up late for the 1st part of the retreat.. which was quite a gd thing coz... *drumroll* I met our dearest Kai Lin!! Yay!! Haven't seen that ger since LEP camp.. And so.. in order to catch up.. since I was running late.. brought her along to church! Hehe.. and chatted wif her even though it was juz a matter of minutes.. and she's coming down tomorrow.. yay!! More catching up to do.. hahas.. I miss her loads.. Sent her to the bus stop.. think I got a lil carried away that I actually brought a fren to church for the 1st time.. hahas.. and this one is a special fren whom I've held close to my heart always..
Coming back.. after the whole thing.. was so tired that went to the dorm.. played wif Lynn Ong's lappy for awhile while the YAs were immersed in their guitar.. a lil no link to me though coz I dunno how to play the guitar.. nor do I noe the lyrics of teh song that they're playing to.. So.. my conclusion? Hehe.. radio is the bez FM 93.3 rocks!!
Then lights out.. couldn't really sleep.. and when I finally did.. it was getting cold.. so din exactly ahf a good sleep and woke up wif super duper groggy eyes.. Lazy bum me even slept in when I was supposed to wake up by 7.30.. But I muz say that devotion was good.. Hehes.. I luv Psalms! Every part of it rocks =)
And had breakfast.. which was an over-boiled 1/2 boiled egg hahas.. and had another session wif Uncle *ehx.. not sure if that's what I'm supposed to call him* Duane.. before we had lunch.. which was pretty filling coz there was Almond Jelly and Longan!! Yums.. its good esp when u din haf a full dinner *ehs.. 1 slice of bread?* Hahas..
Had summore free time.. so went up to rez for awhile before I got drummed awake by Jaelle *is it the correct spelling??* and Lynn Yee.. hehes.. And the share and pray session begun.. and this is the part that I had lots of thoughts after that and when she came over to ask if I was alright.. I juz can't help but shed tears.. The session was on earthly and heavenly fathers.. and I juz felt of how much it applied to me.. But no matter how it was.. I juz can't bring myself to go up and be prayed over.. somehow I knew I shld go.. but I juz din haf the courage to..
I noe I seem a litle anti-social in church.. I juz dunno how to kick-start a conversation and when I do.. I dun really wanna juz stick to that person like a gen1 pi4 chong2.. I juz find it hard to put my trust so readily.. the insecurity and all.. because sometimes.. even though I may seem active in sch.. I juz dun feel like revealing all of myself totally even to my closest frens.. wif the exception of a few.. who know who they are.. And it juz brought me back bad and good memories of my own dad.. and I started tearing again when others shared their stories..
Sometimes I wonder how Ms Yee can read my mind.. but I can only tell that at that time.. I juz needed someone to be there for me.. But yet again.. I dun wanna trouble her too much.. afterall she has her own share of burdens and its not too good to keep ranting to her.. I mean.. she'll feel irritated too? I dunno how she feels abt that.. Perhaps I'm too sensitive.. *Phews.. luckily she doesn't read my blog.. hehes..* Coz everytime I haf some private time wif her.. I'll start fidgeting when I tok to her.. Kai bu liao kou? I dunno.. Maybe coz I'm moving out of my comfort zone w/o knowing it.. or rather, I've got no one else to turn to but her.. So even though after camp we had some time together.. I juz couldn't bring myself to tell her the whole story.. which I prob will forget by the time I reach 2mr haha.. or perhaps.. juz push it deep down into my heart w/o knowing it.. I dunno hahas.. Nevertherless.. she has already gone beyond her role already...
On the way home.. she kept toking to Queenie regarding hol trip! Arghs.. I need my hols desperately.. as in the dec hols.. But anyways.. since its btw the 2 of them.. kept quiet naturally.. and since I was tired and feeling all heavy from what was being preached over the past night.. juz went home w/o bidding a proper goodbye I guess...
Really appreciate her concern coz after that she still sent SMSes to me... encouraging me.. But somehow.. I feel as though I lack the energy and power that I used to haf... and the old me seem to haf disappeared..
Well.. that's it.. what a long entry! I'm juz venting out my frustrations and thoughts.. cya!
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10:44 PM
Friday, May 26, 2006
In a few hours time I'll be down at church for the retreat.. I wonder if its good or bad but suddenly.. I juz dun really feel like gg out.. I feel as though sometimes I juz wanna hide in my own empty space w/o doing anything.. Bro's gg NS soon.. And I can't be there for him coz I hf tuition in the morning and camp after that... I feel guilty over it but.. what can I do? SIgh..
Ting's sick.. hope she's feeling better now.. Take care ger.. Weather's not too good recently so drink more water and get loads of rest k? Hope to see the healthy and lame you again, if you're reading this hahas.. =)
Anyways... skipped sch today coz I juz dread the idea of having to rot in sch till 12 nn before I can go home.. might as well stay at home to rot.. And I din really rot.. was revising my work.. Yest's sports carnival.. sian.. Yoga wasn't exactly much of a help and wasn't exactly up to my expectation... -_-" Shld haf signed up for hip hop or pure funk hahas.. dancing..
And watched Yi wu liang jia san xing ren (A Handful of Love) again! Was quite nice and I shed tears at the part when Junior went back to her Aunt.. Awww... I juz luv that child actress and I luv the story plot.. so heart-warming... hahas..
4 weeks of hols officially start today.. think all of us need it badly to recharge our batteries as well as to study for the upcoming JCT.. Good luck peeps =) We def can do it!
And also watched the badminton match yest... our team put up a good fight but we still lost.. but well.. at least the VPs and P came down to support unlike the other matches.. hahas.. Or maybe juz coz I din see them hahas.. And I pulled my joint muscle.. yeeeouch! Hurt while I was climbing up and down the stairs and thanks Hui Xuan for waiting for me and helping me down the stairs.. thankfully its better now..
Been having mood swings alot recently.. so sorry for the peeps that were affected by me and also for those who put up wif me.. thanks... Juz wish that the A levelswill be over and done wif so that all of us will be back to our usual selves.. not the drained ppl that we keep seeing around nowadays..
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4:07 PM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Back to blogging like finally.. hahas.. which isn't exactly very long really..
Went to visit Siu Lun on Mon at Gleneagles.. Took a cab down wif Chung Ee, XH and Ms Tay.. Passed by lots of rich estates haha.. and of coz.. we were actually crapping the whole journey... And Xh and I were toking abt Xue Jing Xiong Xin.. hahas...
Once there.. left Ms Tay and Chung Ee to tok to SL while XH and I oogled at the HK mag.. ok lar.. more like I was the one coz of my Kenix.. till Ms Tay was like "Eh.. are you all here to visit SL or are you all here to read the mag?" Hahas.. But anyway.. they were tokin mar can't expect us to butt in right? Hahas..
Den left SL to rest while we sent Ms Tay out.. And she asked me abt my craze of HK.. haha... I think she knows all abt my craziness now.. And stayed wif XH at the "lounge" outside the wards.. Till the rest came.. Time really flew past fast and thankfully Ms Tay cancelled the chem test or not we wun be able to visit SL coz he was discharged one day early.. But I really thank God that SL can walk now.. Hope he's gg to recover fast..
I seriously dunno what prompted me to stay till 8.30 but memories flooded me as I was walking down the corridor for dinner at the hospital.. SOme memories juz refuse to leave you I guess.. Den on our way home.. shared a cab wif Ting and MX.. I hope Ting is able to get some sleep by the time I end this entry.. Quite worried abt her.. Hope she takes care of herself and dun think too much...
Heartbroken toopid kor called me at night... he was feeling very sad.. but at least he got a wan mei de jie ju le.. so toopid kor.. dun think too much oso k? Jiayou.. I'm sure you can do it de.. after all.. if u haf anything u can always call me de mar haha..
Nth much really happened on Tues.. except that I was really feeling quite tired and din really feel like doing anything.. I guess its coz of the hard beginning to the week.. Din study hard enuff for Bio test I admit.. Juz felt so drained except for Chem.. And Mrs Tag sort of chai chuan me when she said that I always smile when I dun understand.. I mean.. what do u expect me to do? Cry like what I did last year? Truth was.. I did feel demoralised and felt like crying.. but I seldom do that in front of my frens now.. so... I guess some things are best hidden at heart.. You juz wun want ppl to keep worrying abt you..
Went home wif Shan Jie after that.. was toking to her.. apparently.. alot of ppl haf noticed that I've been more slack in terms of Maths.. I dun do tutorials as often now and I'm not that stressed as before.. But yet I'm improving.. so she oso dunno whether to ask me to work hard or to cont slacking.. Sighs.. I think I'm jzu not used to the way I'm working now after 3 years of slogging it out.. I feel slack but yet I noe that if I cont this way.. Haix.. I dunno what to do abt myself too..
Today.. tormented by stomach cramps for literally the whole day even now.. Even though I had a full 7 hours of sleep.. I still dun understand trigo... haix.. succeeded in demoralising myself again.. Watched a vegetarian video during Civics.. woah.. really makes you think twice abt eating meat hahas.. Oh well..
Umz.. no use gloating over misery.. shall cont doing tutorials later.. cya!!
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3:20 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
Only haf time for this entry to summarise whatever feelings I had today *Sun*
Been in an irritated mood since the morning.. managed to curb it.. But got so irritated by my mum's call.. I dunno why too... But I can't help feeling stressed over the amt of workload I haf left accumulated over the week even though I did do a fair bit of studying on Sat.. I juz felt like screaming.. Then comforted my toopid kor over his broken heart.. and accompanied him at Pasir Ris for awhile before gg home for dinner... Hope he's alright now..
Church.. today has got to be the shortest session ever.. coz I zoomed home.. or rather.. zoomed to accompany that toopid kor right away after receiving his call.. And my nose was up to it again the minute the temperature of the sanctuary turned cold.. Din really get a chance to tok to her except that she came over willingly to pray for me.. I really appreciate the concern there.. Well.. Somehow I still feel weird toking to her as a student but I reckon that will all be over once I leave TJ though I'll be unwilling to haha..
Then at home.. called Ting initially to congratulate her over her piano exam but... Got to know that Siu Lun went for the op.. even though I knew this quite sometime ago.. can't help but feel affected by it.. It juz brings back the memories which shld not be there.. and to that I geuss that's why I din really haf a good sleep juz now.. I juz feel like breaking down.. Thankfully he's awake now.. But.. the memories are still there..
Alright.. shall not harp on that anymore.. its back to mugging.. need to get my maths tutorial done and I'm not even halfway through organic chem.. shucks..
I guess the only good thing that happened this week was that I passed my chem test.. But I'm still nto exactly satisfied wif it coz I knew I could haf done better..
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3:42 AM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
I'm feeling both physically and mentally drained.. dun ask me why coz I dunno why too myself.. And I din do anything much too.. Perhaps coz we're nearing the end of term.. Or maybe coz of the upcoming Bio and Chem tests again..
Anyways... yest was dance production! Reverie 2 was great! Went up on stage to hug fellow dancers like von, yumi.. michelle.. cheryl.. shun min.. sherilyn.. They were great! Splendid job peeps =) I nearly shed tears when hugging yumi.. I missed her and how we used to slog our guts out haha.. and ling and xuan were great too! OMG.. Reminds me of how much I miss dance and was made worse when Shan jie asked me the question of whether I regretted my decision.. I did feel a slight tinge of regret but I noe its worth it coz I haf so much more free time to study.. =)
But.. REVERIE 2 ROCKS! Haha.. congrats peeps.. for the good show put up by you gals and Nicholas hahas.. =) And the teachers' item wasn't exactly surprising coz they performed it at Mardi Gras already! Haha.. Emilie was like.. literally shouting Ms Yee.. haha.. and poor Ivan Lim can't dance wif his fractured toe LOL... Reached home at nearly 12 am and was soooo tired by then.. Dance rocks! I swear I shall go and learn ballet after the As.. haha..
And early fri morn.. had chem SPA.. which wasn't exactly like the usual one.. coz after everyone of us finished the report and tried out the experiment.. we kept toking hahas.. so it wasn't those usual hush hush conditions for the exams.. hehe.. Den waited for Ms Tay for 1 period before she said she couldn't make it.. oh wells.. I guess that juz the buisy life of a teacher hahas.. And waited for Ting.. den she came over to my hse to study while I took a small nap hahas.. And I did enjoy the conver I had wif her throughout.. and did I mention.. on thurs while we were all in the LEP room.. I was really made the "suaning" subject amongst all of them... HMPH!!! So bad..
As for today.. went to meet Joanne.. and studied in SMU's Kopitiam! Which was relatively conducive.. until the temperature turned too cold for us.. hahas.. I think the feeling of using a university's premises to study is quite cool ;)
While on our way home.. she popped a fa ren xing shi question... asking me if I was wai rou nei gang or wai gang nei rou.. and it really made me ponder.. but i guess if she asked me this question last year.. I would haf said both exterior and interior i'm vulnerable.. so I juz told her that I'm more towards wai gang nei rou now.. Guess its true coz often I find myself either wanting to cry but can't cry.. or juz dun cry in front of my frens anymore.. which isn't healthy I guess.. Oh wells..
I guess I'm quite affected by what she said juz now abt us being not the same anymore.. we're both drained and we aren't like the bubbly selves in the 1st 3 mths... Life is juz so... monotonous now.. so much that even studying or anything else is like a chore now...
I feel so tired that I really wan some time to myself tmr.. Dun feel like gg out..
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10:10 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
Its been a long week made up of studies... tissues.. stress and all... Glad the weekend's coming and that the dance production is later on..
Backtracking.. We went for the vball finals on Weds and it was a close fight even though we lost... was like literally screaming my throat out wif Cindy.. And thus explaining why yest our voices were a lil hoarse..Haha.. and I think our grp of ppl all haf dry throats.. thankfully PE was juz a slack one even though quite a fair bit of sweat was shed *duhs -_-"* And I saw Audrey! Sighs.. I miss those times wif her.. but.. bo bian.. diff sch now.. We both lead our own lives I guess so to that I was also quite happy that at least we got to meet each other.. Even though the feeling is now.. strangely different.. =(
And I still haf not completely recovered from my flu yet.. Eek.. And to that juz wanna ask ppl reading this to take care k? Flu season's here again...
Yest had the last meeting of CLC.. I guess I'll miss those times wif Fatima and Shona now.. Still rem last year how reluctant I was to join the PDP.. but yet now it has become one of my more regular PDP.. So much that i regret not joining earlier last year and running for the comm.. I wun miss the activity but I'll miss those interactions..
Prior to that.. I had a talk wif Ting.. Juz happened to pass by and was quite surprised she was alone.. But I was quite happy for the time that we had together.. no matter how little it was.. so that I can really play my part as a friend and listen to her.. rather than me juz ranting away...
SO Ting.. dun hafta thank me.. really =)
And to that aspect.. Juz wanna comment that its often very ironic how you oft hang out wif ur clique in sch but yet you find it hard to talk to them.. Unless its face to face.. even so.. the feeling is weird.. When June, Cindy and XZ all dropped Bio.. I felt so lost.. I felt as though I'm the only one left on the battleground.. Free periods>? I hang out wif Yi Shan.. who is from a diff CG.. weirD? I dunno... and it juz feels.. I dunno how to describe it.. but maybe its the JC's hectic life that all made us not exactly united.. not like in sec sch when we had loads of free time after sch..
Well.. I guess thats life..
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4:07 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
My stupid brother went to reformat the computer w/o telling anyone... Good lar.. Now all my Sexual Repro stuff I hafta redownload.. and the bloody slides took me at least 1/2 an hour to get everything done.. And the ebz part is all my chem stuff all gone.. DARN HIM... Music files gone.. But that one is alright.. BUT NOW ALL OF MY STUDY INFO FOR CHEM BIO AND MATHS ARE GONE.. all thanks to a stupid someone who reformatted the comp w/o telling anyone.. AND THAT STUPID SOMEONE keeps dling lime-wire which causes the comp to crash even though he noes it very well.. Feel like swearing man.. But I noe I can't now though.. BUT ITS SO FREAKINGLY IRRESPONSIBLE OF HIM TO DO IT.. the bloody comp is not his alone ok??!! Sometimes I juz wish he'll use his stupid brains to think for his family... DARN IT...
*****Back to Earth*****
ANyways.. was literally "crying" the whole day due to my nose which only acts up when I'm in air-con rooms.. and I happen to be in air-con rooms every single period.. except for PE.. hahas.. Cool.. And we were playing tennis under the scorching sun.. hahas.. No remedial thankfully since I could haf that free period off to myself for MAths.. hahas... can't seem to get it off my back..
Yeap.. and had photog duty after that.. Juz when I tot my nose was alright and back to norm again.. I went into the air-conned Scope to help out wif the exhibition till 6.40 and ta-da! I've got an itchy nose again.. haha.. But its better now =)
K lar.. thats it.. now I hafta re-dl EVERY SINGLE THING that I've dl-ed... DARN HIM... DUNNO HOW TO LEAVE A NOTE TO ASK EVERYONE TO BACK UP FILES IS IT??
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3:28 AM
Monday, May 15, 2006
I've used up like 3 packets of tissues today during lessons.. haha... My nose is doing excessive PE...
Yeap.. din see her during lunch afterall.. Turns out that I was the one who felt awkward seeing her outside sch in sch uniform.. Oh wells.. But sent her an SMS after that =) Juz wanna thank her for always being there for me here =) Haha.. Doubt she reads my blog though LOL...
Anyway.. Juz here to say Happy 21st Birthday Donna!! Hehes.. Ok. back to tutorials.. Why does our class always get chosen for lesson observation? Great.. And I dunno how to do electrochem...
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6:43 PM
Shucks... I'm sick now wif a nose thats doing PE... and a throat that doesn't want to admit defeat.. hehe..
ANyways... went for CO concert yest.. darn good =) great job Ting! Haha.. and no.. no one noes that you did screw up.. I din even notice that you were playing it solo, to be frank =P Hehes...
Made the last decision on Sat to go for her concert when she called me at 11.30 haha.. So.. felt obliged to go as a fren =) But it was Mothers' Day too.. So.. Next week I'll treat ya to dinner Mom! That's a promise =) Hehes.. Had dinner at Lau Pa Sat wif the rest.. Wasn't exactly hungry but had to eat porridge to pacify ppl hahas.. And was so tired by the time I reached home.. Wish that concerts aren't on Sun sometimes haha.. and yeah.. Ting I think you could haf done better wif a better emcee.. hahas..
Before that... went church.. Couldn't comprehend what he was toking abt but juz.. can't and dunno how to ask when one beside me was diligently taking down notes.. the other one was zzzing away.. Umz.. But anyway.. was a quiet one.. So I din get to tok to her.. or rather when I tried.. I juz couldn't get it out.. Umz.. She said I was walking too fast when it was my normal pacing.. Maybe that juz symbolises that I'm moving too fast in my own world? Oh well... WOnder how I'm gonna tell her exactly what's upsetting me later...
K lar.. Maths tutorial time.. can't go empty handed to Tag's lesson...
Btw.. I did enjoy the company of MX and co last night.. haha.. dessert! Thanks ppl =) Update when I haf more time regarding the dessert part LOL...
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4:25 AM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
I think I dun need the world to tell me how dehydrated I looked today after PE.. My body is protesting too..
Before PE: Zero drop of water drunk
After PE, before sch ended: 250 ml of Lemon Barley, 500 ml of water
At home: asnother 250 ml of water...
Woah.. I dun recall drinking so much water in a day before.. hahas.. so much for the 6 rounds wif interval.. I think it was more because we were under the short-tongued Mr Goh today.. Abit hiong and he wasn't so bad afterall.. But.. his PE sessions were indeed somewhat similar to the guys' style.. juz that its relatively easier.. haha.. so much that Kar Keat was even asking us how it felt to be finally doing PE for the 1st time. .hahas..
I prob wun mind doing it every week for the sake of shedding weight if not for the hot weather and amt of sweat after that.. hahas.. And I managed to do a 2.10 timing for each round! Yeah.. considering a person who always hated running.. umz... what a miracle LOL.. Think following Hui Xuan, Constance and June does help =) Hehes.. so when I do my 2.4 run I shall follow their pace.. yay!! Ok.. I sound sadistic..
Then immediately after PE.. literally ran up to change and look for Ms Tay.. who came out so fast that i din really haf time to wipe off my sweat and drink water.. LOL.. And she went "Are you ok? You're perspiring alot! Relax k? You're so kan cheong over the test ar?" Erms.. Then when I told her I juz completed PE.. hahas.. you can imagine her reaction.. I mean like.. haha I practically went "Erms..." I do take every test seriusly but not to the extent that I will run up and down and sweat like dunno what juz for 1 or 2 questions on NMR! Haha... But ya lar.. I mean that was out of concern lar hahaas... But.. still.. aiya dunno how to explain..
Chem test immediately after that.. haha.. quite ok lar juz that couldn't quite deduce question 2.. and there wasn't enuff time anyway after thinking over the questions.. haha... And went to find Yi Shan during my one free period.. to slack coz afetr that I had quite a no. of lessons.. GP.. boring haha.. Chem remedial.. Umz.. ok lar.. shortage of time though.. haha.. anyways Ms Tay has nvr managed to finish everything on time coz she'll always go laughing after she lists everything she needs to do for the day and say "As if I can!" Hahas..
Finally got another level 8 for Chem SPA.. lets hope this will pull up the double weighted skill A which I fumbled so horribly..
And I do hate it when you hafta climb 5 storeys after PE... Grrr... what a great time table.. summore the only evacuation route is to jump down.. hahas.. I think TJcians shld noe what I mean lar.. hehes..
Bio remedial.. din really feel like gg, esp after I juz vomitted out what I ate during lunch.. eek.. I think not only is my appetite growing from bad to worse.. my stomach too.. -_-"
And I do wanna go for CO concert.. juz that a major shortage of $$ now.. haha..
Sian.. And I forgot to blog abt college clean up yest! Umz.. sian.. mopped the floor.. haha..
I guess thats all.. Happy Vesak Day 2mr.. But.. I think for all of our cases.. it'll juz be pure mugging for the JCT since we've all gotten our timetables already.. -_-"
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9:49 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Umz.. quick recap abt these few days before I move back to my CMI chem.. Thank God there's a free period 2mr after the test for me to regain my energy agaiN!
Anyways.. Mon.. had the dreaded Bio Skill A mock SPA... haha.. sucks coz I couldn't rem hafl of the things I was supposed to write on and needless to say.. there was a severe shortage of time for me coz I simply spent too much time procastinating.. Grr... But anyway.. luckily it was juz a mock.. Oh and it was quite irritating to get to the lab only to find some IPs using it coz of the microscope.. Grrr... Ended up hafing BIO prac and a PHYSICS lab.. what the.. Qi Si le.. Oh well..
Then after prac.. stayed behind to talk to her.. Or rather.. she wanted to tok to me according to her SMS the previous night since I couldn't possibly reply her question w/n 1 SMS.. Expected her to ask why I din go church lar but din expect her to know.. or rather.. guess correctly that on my part.. I juz din feel like gg.. hahas.. Umz.. True.. time management I guess.. sighs.. And touched on alot of things w/n that half hr that we were toking.. Luckily during this period of time not much ppl passed by.. wun wanna get her into trouble! *Phews* Well.. In a way I juz wanna hide in the backgrnd w/o getting noticed I guess.. Or maybe I juz feel... weird? Juz like a fight of my own identity.. Umz.. I dunno..
SO... because of that.. I din exactly haf lunch *ehx.. 2 drumlets and 1 hot-dog counted?* And left my poor tummy growling and gastric setted in before dinner.. though I din eat much too.. hahas.. coz I stayed back to watch Lu Yuan! Cool performance though I can't quite decipher the meaning.. great job peeps!! Hahas.. So went home late then.. =)
Yest.. nth much too.. Was juz like a xiao ren wu.. Hehes.. Chem tutorial and lecture.. the Biochem lect was a lil atrcious coz even though we are Bio students.. doesn't mean that we've quick hands to copy and absorb everything that the lecturer says.. Hmmm... And went to look for YX to teach me maths.. which apparently wasn't very helpful in the test today coz I haf totally zero confidence in passing it.. Sighs.. Double sighs.. 2mr chem test and Mass PE!! Arghs..
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8:12 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Seeing me posting at this hour of the day can only mean one thing: I din go church LOL.. haha.. watched the whole of the elections last night and yay!! PAP won!! Hahas.. not unexpected though but I was quite happy for Aljunied GRC *which happens to be my old GRC hahas* Coz I kind of liek George Yeo.. and no it wasn't because of the encounters I had wif him hahas.. I seriously think he has done a great job as a MP.. hehes.. As for the rest.. Umz.. quite expected that Potong Pasir and Hougang will fall back into the opposition.. but den again.. felt a lil disappointed hahas..
And because of the GE.. I slept only at 3.. was so tired.. supposed to haf tuition this morning.. but then.. sighs.. Maybe its time for me to get a new tutor again =( Why is it so hard for me to do maths? And Weds there's a maths test =(
But anyways.. hehe.. woke up super duper late today.. haha... Lazy bum me.. haha.. Juz dun feel liek doing anything.. wish the hols will come fast.. but den again.. once it comes.. its gonna be a mugger month again as the JCT draws near.. Umz.. better start cutting down on commitments already.. -_-"
Was listening to JJ's Zhi Dui Ni Shuo and I started tearing again.. Sighs.. sentimental me.. hahas.. How wonderful..
K lar.. back to tutorials.. *yawns* Thank God next Fri is a hol again.. But.. it emans I'll lose another consultation wif Ms Tay.. OMG.. imagine the no. of questions I've piled up for her.. Wonder if it'll be me screaming or her screaming.. hahas..
And I do feel bad on not gg today.. but.. Well.. take it as a way to be a filial daughter today.. =)
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2:06 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Can't help feeling bored now.. din really do anything much today considering that I had the whole day of slacking to myself.. incredible uh? I've changed so much since last year.. Umzz... time to buck up I guess.. Somehow I juz dun feel easy not doing work I guess.. -_-"
Listening to Yang chen Lin's qing zhu now! Hahas.. and reminded me why I din sing that song yest!! haha.. perhaps coz I aws too tired to think of it.. Umz.. 2mr got loads of stuff to attend to.. Kai Lin's mum insisted that I go to her hse.. and I've tuition plus church.. Umz.. Suddenly tuition on a Sunday doesn't seem too good afterall.. Why on earth do I haf such a loser aptitude for MAths.. Sian.. I hope her mum dun get angry wif me if I dun go *ponders*
Oh! And I tried k-ing Evonne Hsu's Gu Dan Ba Lei yest!! Hehe.. gao nan du.. but I managed to do it!! Hard to huan qi lar.. hehe.. I realised that I'm hooked onto K-Box now... haha..
I need someplace to vent my thoughts.. badly.. sighs..
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7:59 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
Feeling soooooo tired now haha... Got a half day which isn't exactly a half day in my CG's case for sch today.. Had lessons all the way and chem mock SPA wasn't exactly successful hehe.. But well.. wasn't really taken seriously I guess? Coz all of us ended up toking while recrystallising the product.. hahas.. And I took one in one whiff on methonol! Omg.. nearly choked and kept coughing till the class was laughing at me LOL.. =X
Den had chem lect.. on biochem.. ok lar.. hehe.. since I din haf a lecture on proteins before during bio.. though its nth new.. its still something hehe.. And it does feel great to noe that you've an advantage over those who dun haf hehehe.. Jkjk.. since I've been in their shoes before too =P And bio lect.. couldn't follow through the last part already coz was too tired.. prob coz yest slept late ba? Was trying to settle wif YX over the maths thing.. shld thank her loads really... Juz wish I haf more aptitude for Maths.. sighs..
After everything.. went to look for Ms Tay.. who went home.. Umz.. guess everyone's falling sick due to the weather.. take good care k ppl? Not a good time to fall sick now... So since I was waiting for the rest of WRB.. sat at the scope to study a little.. before Ms Yee dropped by coincidentally *what high affinity.. hahahas* and started to di xiao me abt chem LOL.. jokingly lar of coz.. Oh well.. she can be so.. eh.. dunno what word to use to describe her lar! Hahas..
So.. since we had to clear sch by 1.. took 38 to tampines and had a nice k-box session! hehes.. Sang all the usual songs and of coz the famous duets!! How can we ever leave out Lian Ai Ping Lv and Zhi Zhao Lang Man etc? Hehes.. Cool.. And I luv their lemon honey hahas.. But I think was quite tiring though hehe..
Left early for cell.. felt abit bad to make Jing and YX to wait for me.. hehe.. Jing's making me jealous coz she completed her uni education le!! Awww.. haha.. But anyways... had a great workout juz walking arnd Fort Canning to find the rest of the ppl.. hehe... But had a wonderful picnic while the mosquitoes and ants feasted on us too hahas..
SIgh.. I wonder how it'll take mum to understand.. But well.. I juz luv Sundays.. they make me look forward to every week.. coz of church.. haha..
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10:55 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
I realise that I'm really hooked onto Yang Chen Lin's songs.. haha.. keep humming them in my head =P
Great.. elections are coming and our sch only has a half day off.. mans.. if only it was a full day... no chem mock SPA!! hehes.. evil and running-away-from-reality me.. But anyways.. today's lessons were plain boring.. and I skipped J Chong's lecture.. thank goodness I did coz he was obviously crapping as what I heard from Pekkie.. not that I gained anything much from the extra free time though.. but it was better spent at doing other things than to go for a lecture that is obviously a waste of time..
Oh and this morning at the bus stop.. Hui Xuan and Cindy and I were walking happily and chatting.. den Ms Tay suddenly popped out from behind us and went "Hey girls" hahas.. shld haf seen our expressions from there...
Then civics!! Haha.. what a laughing lesson it was.. truely perked me up.. wonder why I can feel tired even though I DID fulfil my promise of hafing a daily 6 hour sleep... Maybe coz got woken up by the SMS.. hehe..Civics was on the 4 letter word of LOVE hahas.. I think I spent more time laughing than listening.. and June went to the audi instead!! Hahas.. When I told Ms Tay she wa like laughing till dunno what hahas.. Mans.. the power of love hehe..
And the tok abt Biological Sci was boring.. much as I want the double deg in TCM and Biomed.. I dun really like the idea of gg to NTU.. Umz.. that can be decided later on I guess hahas.. And I doubt I'll become a chinese physician when I grow up.. but thats too early to be said though =)
And I skipped photog! Hehes.. Ended up oversleeping on the bus -_-"
K lar.. done wif my crap.. back to Chem.. Thurs and Fri always Chem.. Umz..
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6:56 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
I hate thermochem. Period. And Bio's getting bad too.. Arghs.. And I gif up on my maths
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8:31 PM
Monday, May 01, 2006
Can't believe how interested in the recent GE 2006 when others around me are not interested at all hahas... yest went wif my mum to listen to the WP's speech... Too many ppl there though.. ended up reading my notes on sexual reproduction instead LOL... And I shook George Yeo's hand!! Haha.. when he asked me what I was working as... I was like... "eh.. I'm still a student" =P Hahas.. did I dress that maturely? Hahas..
Went for lunch wif YX and her... split up the burger haha.. wasn't feeling hungry anyways.. den they kept toking abt teachign and realised how much her experience relates to mine sia.. haha.. perhaps I got influenced by her to start teaching too.. Umx.. but that is still too far away for me LOL.. after As ba.. So kept quiet throughout until we reached church haha.. so much for fellowship hahas.. luckily she doesn't visit my blog! =P Ar but well.. had alot of thoughts and overwhelming feelings after sermon which was indeed beneficial coz it made me think through my actions for the past week..
After everything.. she and Li Cheng prayed.. yeap... nearly shed a tear there I guess.. Last few weeks were really a test of my limits.. Well.. Den I finally told her why I looked for Ms Tay.. haha.. initially din wan to tell her but.. haha.. guess something juz prompted me to do so.. =) Den went to eat and took some pix haha.. Lynn was so cute =P ANd went off home.. LOL..
I luv Sunday afternns =)
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