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Saturday, December 31, 2005
Yay!!! Abt half an hour more to 2006~! Haha... how come I always feel so high during festive seasons? Haha.. But anyway.. I am hafign fun switching channels to and fro coz practiaclly everywhere is airing the live countdwn.. wish I can be in Taiwan to enjoy the weather there... I juz can't stand Sg's weather!! Hahaha... Wonder what the new year holds for me?? Haha.. hopefully its a gd start! =)
yeah... went out to orchard to celebrate Xuan Yun aka Puppy's bday jzu now but only got me, cindy and her.. haha.. so we ended up watching Narnia.. haha.. its a nice movie wif great effects.. but every time there was a sudden movement or action it nearly scared us out of our wits! Haha.. Our hearts were beating wif the movie.. Hahaha... Ate BK before that.. Aww... really gonna be putting on alot of weight this year.. but let it be the past!! I shall lose weight in 2006~! Hahaa... then we started taking photos all abt Orchard... and even on the train!! Haha.. shall upload them soon...
Yay!! And I'm gg to countdown now~!
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11:16 PM
Ok... here we go... My new year resolutions for 2006:
1>
To lose weight! Haha.. I wanna be standing at 45kg! I feel so darn heavy now lar.. haha.. esp after the festive season when I keep feasting on chocs.. Gosh I muz haf gained lots of weight.. hahaha...
2>
Be happy with myself no matter what happens Yeah.. This might be abit hard though coz apparently I stil haven gotten over my current misery haha... But well.. I hope to acheive this over 2006!~ Gradually is better than not acheiving~! =) And so... to counter the effect of me not beiong happy this year.. I have to try and attain this resolution~~
3>
Take care of my health Yeap... I have been down wif flu for alot of times this year and everytime it lasts for abt one week or even longer... So I really muz take care of myself and not to kill myself wif all the stress and everything!! Haha... Only then will I let otehrs not worry abt me...
4>
Be clear-headed and not wishy washy when decision making Uh huh... made a few major decisions this year so I muz be strong and not falter much less to look back and think if I made the wrong decision...
5>
To try not to shed so much tears in 2006 and too sensitive Yeah.. I have always come across to others as a sensitive gal.. So.. I must really try not be vulnerable this year.. haha.. as for the shedding tears part.... I'll try lar... but its quite hard haha.. coz I juz broke down the other day in front of Mr Lim mar.. haha... well.. I'll try over the year though =)
6>
To learn ballet and also piano! Haha.. ok this might seem a lil hard coz I am abit overage for this.. haha.. but liek the old sayign goes "huo dao lao, xue dao lao" and i am not that lao yet!! Haha.. I am not even in my 20s lo.. hahaha... Means I hafta part wif my lovely nails and also start tying my hair up into a bun le.. hahaha...
7>
To learn or at least pick up basic cantonese Haha.. at least now I can understand abit of cantonese... So I wanna learn this lang after the big As!! Haha.. Or at least... try and correct my weird prononuciation for it.. hahaha... And I wanna catch up on the HK dramas that I have missed out on!! HH3, LMS.. haha.. everything!!
8>
TO LISTEN TO OTHERS AND NOT JUST RANT TO THEM Yeap... this was what I mentioned? Haha.. I muz learn to be a good fren indeed... Lol.. Ppl do have their fair share of problems...
9>
To learn how to relax Yup.. this is something which shld haf been done this year.. haha... I need to acheive this desperately to counter Stress man hahaha...
10>
To follow my heart and not just falter to others persuasion .
Yup.. shld have done this this year too.. hahaha...
That's all I guess? If there are anymore I will update again... muahaha... And.. uh oh... sch's gonan reopen le...
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12:03 AM
Friday, December 30, 2005
I was so inspired to blog in chi.. But I'm too lazy to type it out lar.. coz I spent 1.5 hours writing in chi for my diary juz now.. Lol.. I miss Chinese!!
Anyways... year's coming to a close now.. and 2mr though I wun be going anywhere for countdown.. I'll be celebrating Puppy's bday!! Haha... Take it as a way to end the year on a happy note? Haha.. I dunno.. all I can say was that yeah I din manage to do anything today again coz I really wasn't up to it.. was juz staring at ONE chem equilibrium question and the next min my tears were ready to flow out of their ducts.. How nice... It seems juz like a reflex action that i can't control...
2nd entry shall be on my new year resolutions.. haha.. stay tuned!!
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11:24 PM
Thursday, December 29, 2005
What a failure I have been as a friend... I always seem to be ranting out my frustrations to them... And yet nvr try to listen to theirs.. Sighs... I swear that this shall be one of my new year resolutions for 2006 and I DEF WILL FULFIL IT BY THE END OF THE YEAR... den at least can give me a chance to share their burden too and not just take them for granted... Well... everyone does haf their fair share of problems mar... So... I shall try to listen to others more nextt year =)
Anyways... Today was quite a sianned day.. hahaha... yeap coz I was giving tuition in the morning.. Kimmy was soooo cute lo can? Hahaha.. Den she said she like me but she dun like studying... can't blame her too.. that poor ger has at least one tuition class per day.... and she is only 6 years old!! Well... I personally dun approve of kids takign up too many classes coz even as a teenager I can't stand having too many tuition classes esp when it comes to exams... Hahaha... Unless they are interested in it lar.. But well.. that's a different matter altogether mar...
Den after that proceeded to sch to discuss CLC stuffs and also how to attract ppl.. Funny I'm not in the EXCO but yet I'm planning all these.. haha... CLC is really darn short of manpower.. and I think I shld be joining photog next year... haha... No other PDP le.. haha... Yeap.. I will be quite packed up for the 1st few days of sch... sadded... hahaha... haven even come to new year and I noe of what my schedule for the 1st week will be liek le.. hahaha....
Umx.. Din do anything today as predicted... but I really can't concentrate oso even though I did attempt to read my benzene notes for the nth time.. I think I need more time to recover this time round coz I din really cry it all out yest... Its all hidden in my heart I guesS? Well.. whatever it is.. I noe I should not be thinking too much now.. haha... Yeah.. Think i do need some time to recharge.. but then again.. I'll feel guilty if I dun touch work for a day... Haix...
Can't even believe that in a few more days sch is gonna reopen.. I feel as though i din even rest a single bit... I've been working n working n studying n studying... What a waste.. haha..
And ya!! I received Ting's card le.. like finally? Hahaha... still thinking if I'm gg out on Sunday nots.. coz I gg out on sat... hahaha... to celebrate Puppy's bday!! =) Woots!! Hahaha... Ppl.. rem her bday is 5th Jan hor.. haha...
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11:41 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Well... I am NOT gg to continue doing anymore work today because I have spent alot of time in sch today ... 9- 12 asking Mr Lim maths... 12-3.45 break... 3.45- 6.10 maths with him again... Thats like more than enough for today... Overloaded lar...
Yeah... den I woke up at like 6.15 juz to dig out more questions to ask him lo... But in the end oso nbr finish asking him all the questions lar.. Was movin at a super slow pace in the morning coz I really was taking time to understand.. haix... And it was liek super cold outside the 3rd floor lar coz of the breeze!! Nbr bring jacket lar.. Was joking wif Mr Lim saying that if lidat zao liang no need to go school better still hahaha... Thats what everyone wants anyway.. LOL.. Den went to develop photos and went for lunch... As usual.. I din manage to complete my meal coz I really wasn't that hungry ya? Hahaha... Den went to Bedok library... Was sooo cosy there that I actually fell asleep!! OMG... can't believe that.. and I overslept lar.. woke up only at 3.25!!! Hahaha...
Yeap... den came the 2nd half.. haha.. but before that.. passed him and Ms yee the developed photos... And continued wif AP, GP and Sigma.. And was really dying coz the pace was worse than that of the morning coz I simply can't understand.. Sighs.. Ended up asking him only 1/2 of the intended no. of questions before moving onto 3D trig.. Which really was horrid coz by the time he staretd on 3D trig.. my energy level was really low le...
Ended up crying when he ended the session n was toking to me... *gosh... how come everytime I tok to him I will end up crying??!!* He offered sweets again!! Lol... Yeah... he was trying to say jin li jiu hao... Well.. We'll see how then? But all I can say was that I shed a tear or 2 in front of him but I really wanted to cry badly outside... perhaps coz I've no more tears left to sheD?
Anyway.. den stood at the bus stop... staring onto the ground.. dun even noe what I was thinking... only noe that I dun wanna go home so early yet.. And woah.. Ms Yee came over n chatted for awhile.. den we went to the coffeeshop... She bought me a drink w/o asking me ok? Hahaha... One bad habit of her is that she seems to enjoy feeding me wif food and drinks... -_-" Well... anyway she went thru the photos n chatted for awhile... den off we go...
Haix... SOmetimes.. I really wonder how I can move on... all I can say is that I am and I must learn how to take things in my stride and to move on like what Puppy said... But at timeS... I really am at a loss... I can't figure out what and why I am studying? In particular... study so hard for what? What's the purpose? What am I learning from the process other than the fact that friendships are really impt?? Ya noe.. it can really be disappointing when u feel that u really haf used up all forms of methods... change of study methods.. whatever it is... but u still cannot acheive what u r supposed to acheive..
I feel as though ya.. I can confidently tell others that I can ad will eventually get over it but it seems to have been proven wrong.. and really... I dun wish to think so much too! Just can't help it wif sch starting next week n chem lect test on the following week I guess... I have a premonition that I wun be able to do anything this week... other than to complete the hol hw that seems nvr-ending...
Change of topic: I dreamt of Kenix again! Weeee... Can only rem that we were at a gathering.. den when she left I jzu kept crying.. and she came back n chatted wif me!! Hahaha... Umx... but it seems related to what I experienced today? How Deja-vu can this be.. but anyway... fact remains that I dreamt of Kenix again!! Hahaha...
I gotta learn how to be positive n forward looking... BEFORE SCH REOPENS...
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10:31 PM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Geee... SOmetimes kids really are.. I dunno what u wanna call them.. naive? Or too knowledgable for their own age? Hahaha... Wanan noe why I say this? Coz yest while on my way to AMK MRT station.. was on the bus n there was this little kid who kept toking to his grandma *I think* abt Jesus... God.. and alot alot of things!! I was like... wow... and he's at most 6 years old? OMG...
Anyway... coming back to today... Went to the dental... Was quite fast unexpectedly *proves that my teeth are clean? hehehe... * Den went Chinatown for food and oso bought some CDs.. haha... actally... other than that I din do anything else other than academic related stuffs le lar.. hahaha...
And.. in case I forget... HAPPY BDAY TING!! Hahaha...
Umx... Why is June so tall? Haiyo... now I put display pic oso feel that I am soshort.. haha... Stand beside puppy oso.. haha... alamak... whole of wu ren bang only me n Xiu Zhen shortest.. Lol... And Ducky din receive my xmas card!! well.. nvm lar.. even if she din receive it... whatever I wrote inside there... I'll explain to her sometime.. So hard to communicate and keep in touch wif her sometiems.. haix.. missed her as my confidante lo... BUDDEN... now I have Xin hui n Yuan Ting!!! Muahaha.. and my beloved Wu Ren Bang lo... hahaha... And TJ 127.. and the list goes on... hahaha... I guess without seperations.. there wun be reunions? haha...
Ya... Sometimes I really wonder if I'm the one who can't get over matters as fast as I can think of them... Ppl who understand me shld noe what this sentence means...
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11:57 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Wow... I've never been so tired before other than academic related days.. haha... I was soooo hyper yesterday but paid for it by being soooo tired now after spending the whole day outside..
Haha.. And liek what i said... too reluctant and can't sleep yest coz I was over excited I guess wahahaha.... So ended up only slept for abt 2 or 3 hours.. and it was a bad one too coz I woke up wif shoulders aching and curled up hair.. hahaha... Woke up 15 mins late too!! Hahaha.. but luckily I was not later than someone.. Lol.. Din see her sms until I was panting when I reached the bus stop -_-" hahaha... But anyway... yeap went to church this morning *woah... had to wake up a like 7 on a weekend!!??* Umx... was quite ok lar.. haha... But din quite get a clear view.. And I'm not shy ok?? Just... dunno what to tok lar.. haha... ren shen di bu shu lar.. haha... I can be very open only when I noe the person.. haha.. and in sch its diff coz everyday I see my classmates mar!!! Hahaha... Dun think she'll read this though ;) Hehehe...
Anyway... saw her sister! Only the eyes are somewhat similar... hahaha... thats what I feel lar.. haha... Argh.. and someone actually said we look more like sisters?? Hahaha... Well much as I crave for an elder sis to share my JC probs wif.. hahaha... dun wanna say here lar... shall write it in my diary instead...
But anyway... on the whole it was qute erm fun.. and I got stuffed by food again... For those peeps who noe me well enuuf shld noe that I haf an extremely small appetite.. hahaha... And it has been like this since promos lar... Good... stay that way den can cut fat like what Jillian and I planning to do... muahaha... that ger din keep her promise of gg to the gym wif me!!!!
Well.. it was fun only coz half the time I was suaning her.. which was something that i cannot do in sch hehehe.... jkjk... I'm not that shy afterall!! Hahaha...
Umx.. den after she left.. I shopped around aimlessly for a while.. Well take it as my break from studying I guess? Or maybe... just to sort out my thoughts.. and emotions... Was toking to her before that... Well... I dun think she noes what really happened coz I din exactly tell her... But... I dunno.. i think at that point of time I was juz quite confused... And I still am now... Coz I tend to hu si luan xiang at home... esp when I dun feel liek doing anything...
Well... change of topic... I was watching "Healing Spirit" juz now and alamak!! I cried for the 3rd time I wastched it lar!! I am juz so emotional...
So much for today... Well... MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPS!! =)
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9:56 PM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Xmas eve already!! Hahaha... so fast... I'm really immersed in the joys of this festive season and am feeling exceptionally into the mood this year.. Lol.. dunno why... all along I have always not been thast enthusiastic abt xmas.. but maybe coz its the influence of my frens I guess.. Lol.. Plus I'm feeling all up and hyped up! Haha... Gonna have alot of activities lined up next week... and the most exciting being that 26th is ting's xmas party and also 31st we're celebrating puppy's bday!! A pity we wun be attending any countdown... Lol...
Wonder how will 2006 be like? Wahaha... on the other hand.. I'm panicking coz I haven finish my hol hw yet!! Argh... Hahaha... watever... I'm still gonna enjoy this christmas and slack it off!! take it as a reward for my hard work.. hahaha...
Counting down to christmas... hahaha... I wan a white christmas someday.. Lol...
And ya! Mr Lim's gonna faint if he sees the number of questions I have for him on weds... hahaha....
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10:13 PM
Friday, December 23, 2005
And I received my 1st Christmas prezzie... From Cassandra!! Haha... that cute little girl who is umx... 9 years younger than me actually gave me a box of Ferrero Rochers! Haha.. n also gave one box for my mum n another box for my dad.. I'm gg to be sick of chocs after this festive season man.. hahaha... But anyway... that lil girl is soooooo ke ai!! Haha.. Adorable... But dun be mistaken.. she is not my student.. juz that everyday I go down to the childcare centre will see her.. hahaha... Kids are so adorable ;) If I ever haf a kiddy bro or sis I'll hug and luv him/her to bits!! Haha...
Anyway... was watching the TV documentary on the tsunami... doesn't time fly? One year has passed... Haix... Xin Suan.. so many lives lost.. and we're toking abt 6 figure lives here.. Lives of young... innocent children.. and those of adults trying to cling onto theirs and their children's lives... Sigh... Mother Nature sure does wonders to make ppl realise that they shld treasure what they haf currently...
Umx.. another thing abt time flying is that... I saw all kinds of pri sch uniforms today... apparently today they were to report to their sec sch lol.. 5 years ago I did that too.. haha... time really flies...
New year is coming in.. hopefully it's gonna be one smooth one.. even though the As are in view.. Lol...
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11:15 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
With Christmas being 3 days away.. I'm getting immersed in the festive mood again!! Hahaha... Yup.. I luv receiving cards and SMSes during this period man.. Haha.. those personalised messages etc.. haha... But today's card was one of surprise though.. haha.. those who are close enuff to me shld noe who sent it.. dun wanna say here lar.. hahaha...
And ya!! Did I mention that Cruz's blog is so funny? Hahaha... Really.. I was juz reading it and I was luffing like dunno what.. sort of brightened up my boring day hahaha.. and the card received today brought warmth to my heart..
Umx.. den was also watching Zong Ai Yi Shen and realised that all kind of occupations raelly does have its hazards eh? Hahaha... And to think that my dream job has that much hazards lol...
This Christmas.. I think most prob I'll be snuggling up in my bed.. And enjoying those Xmas special that SCV and Mediacorp has in line for me... haha.. Line up is that Fish's TV special at 12.15 pm, Kenix's show at channel 48 at 7.30, and followed by that "Healing Spirit" (or something like that.. starring Kenix!!!) Will be on channel 55 at 8 pm!!! I feel so xing fu suddenly.. muahahaha...
As for those troubles.. I'll put them at the back of my head first... I wanna enjoy my Christmas!!! Hahaha... And also.. I need to plan for Puppy's present.. and yay!! She's going for the party at Ting's house!! And Ting seems to be doing a disappearing act lately... ?? hahaha... whatever.. thign is Puppy has recovered le...
And here is my Christmas Wishlist (doubt it'll be of much deviation from my current wishlist though Lol...):
1> Samsung HP.. Not sure which model it is though Lol..
2> A new mp3 wif 4GB storage.. haha Wun mind 5GB oso..
3> Disney's baby plushies!! And I only wan HK de.. So Cindy.. you noe what to do =P
4> A happy Christmas without any worries
5> A new digicam anyone? Lol.. Memory card oso can.. haha..
6> Kenix, Kenix and more Kenix!! Evonne jie.. where is that autographed card? haha..
7> Umx... maybe a personalised prezzie but not card? Haha.. den it will be sincere?
Umx.. can't think of anything else lehx.. haha.. I seem quite materialistic here haha... Like what I said.. I'm into the Xmas mood le.. haha...
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10:06 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
I noe I haven been replying the tags on my tagboard so much so that it seems so over flooded now.. haha.. Ok Thanks anyway to peeps who expressed their concern.. And XIN HUI: Thanks.. read ur blog le... so sorry to trouble u after thanking you yest.. Feel so paiseh... Like I thank you le den the next min I let you worry abt me again.. I'll see how it goes.. really...
Well.. again I din do much today.. I was juz blankly staring into my chem stuff.. I wish I can be strong to tide over this.. Juz din feel like doing anything today.. But dun worry.. I'm feeling guilty now so I'll most prob go and do maths later on... Sometimes.. it really is the thoughts that hinderr me from doing what I ought to be doing.. but for now.... I'll try not to think abt it... Pray hard that I can just like get it over and done with it and maybe find the courage to face the problem and look for the counsellor... Even though i dun really trust that it'll be of much help...
Yeap.. and I still hope that Puppy will recover ASAP... Sometimes I wish I can be much more stronger than I am now...
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11:18 PM
I think I've been too stressed up this week... coz stomach cramps are hitting in le! Darn... Anyways.. Hope Ting heard the radio broadcast jzu now.. haha.. Xin Hui heard it and called me immediately after that.. hahaha.. she was so touched that she was at a loss of words? LOL.. luckily only ask them to tune in lo.. coz I think my voice sounded horrid...
Yeap.. den after that chatted at length wif her.. U noe sometimes I think ppl only understand things on the surface.. Shall not elaborate on the conversation here.. But yeah... Toking wif her made me realise what was behind the source of my stress.. She nvr fails to make me realise what was stressing me up.. haha.. Thanks again gal!! And pls dun try to say u are at a loss again for juz now.. haha.. it really was a small gesture on my part... Actually that day while I was doing the recording myself I was at a loss of words suddenly too.. hahah..
K ar. I think that's all.. hope puppy gets better these few days...
And jie.. dunw orry abt me. I'll be fine.. really..
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12:16 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
You noe... its really hurts to be so sensitive to everything... I dunno why I'm like that too... I'm juz overly emotional I guess...
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2:30 PM
Monday, December 19, 2005
Wells... I had maths in the morning.. was like bitterly struggling to get out of bed since I was so snuggly cosy wrapped up in my blanket.. But had to go can't delay le so had to go in my semi-concious state... and... I'm sick.. yet again... Den was in the horribly cold classroom for arnd 3+ hours... Asking maths.. until really cannot tahan le.. went for lunch...
Haha.. and speaking of lunch.. I only had mine (in conjunction wif breakfast n dinner) at 4 pm yest... Kind of surprised how come I din kena gastric yest lo.. hahaha...
Ya.. den me and Puppy went for lunch... and Puppy started crying non-stop.. You noe.. actually I was really very scared... coz she calmed down a while le.. den when we sit outside audi down there.. outside staffroom.. she really really started to cry non stop... I mean.. I noe I got lidat b4.. but... not to that extent.. so I tried to distract her from the -Ve thoughts... But then again... when I was alone.. I started thinking... Why is it that I can forever be the comforter for another but yet.. I can't seem to say so for myself? Probaby that explains why I have been crying for no reason these days and possibly oso insomnia? I dunno.. it seems juz like a mystery that I cannot n dun haf a clue on how to unravel it...
I mean.. I really felt like crying too.. I could feel my inner self "breaking down".. but somehow.. I noe that I can't do that because... hey.. you have a fren who is crying in front of you now n needs you... you cannot break down too right??
Then after one hour of crying.. snivelling.. and finally getting puppy to calm down... Puppy came over to my hse to get the CCHS skirt.. dunno if she can fit in after altering not.. she stayed on for quite long.. Coz we were looking at the new syllabus... and also at the bio textbook that's gaining dust in my hse... the super duper thick one...
At times.. I noe that I am stronger than puppy in the sense that I wun juz paralyse myself if I'm depressed.. On the contrary.. after trying to calm down.. I'll continue to use work to numb myself.. Like what I have been doing these few days when I was feeling down.. But I felt kind of bad juz now coz I have nvr seen her cry torrents before.. as in.. really... and as I'm typing this.. I myself am shedding tears.. For no reason... I want to help her.. but I am really clueless too.. How can I help her if I can't even help myself? Its no use trying to console someone when you urself noe that you cannot do it...
Then again.. I will start asking myself.. what and why.. what and why exactly am I working like that? Why? Why am I such a pessimistic person? Why? I dunno.. I have alot of questions on my mind now.. and I'm really very confused after juz now...
I am just at a loss of direction...
And I realise that I really do haf a gold fish memory like what Mr Lim said... coz I think I haf forgotten what I have been reading these hols.. and I'm left wif 2 more weeks...
But anyway.. the goood side that i can think of was that I gave the card that we bought to Mr Lim le... And he was actually luffing n said that it muz haf been v ex.. Shall not elaborate here...
Hope I din make the wrong decision... Heavens above... please bless that I dun make wrong decisions and regret it at the last moment...
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11:20 PM
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Umx.. let me first blog abt yest... Yeah in the early afternoon while I was doing Mendelian (strangely.. I actually find myself enjoying it.. coz its all repetitive hehe..) Was considering if I relly wanted to go for the Ling Ting Zhi Yin's gathering.. Afterall.. I was kind of afraid of Ling Zhi's reaction when she see's the cake... hahaha...
Eventually.. after Evonne jie de quan gao... went... and successfully pulled Jiamin along!! Hahaha... was actually qute surprised that she agreed lar.. but I spent quite alot of smses oso hahaha... So... rushed down to Heereen at 5 to meet her.. LOL... Den she kena saboeed by Cruz and Ling Zhi (her mummy) !!! Haha.. who ask her try to sabo me lor.. LOL... But anyway.. the prizes offered were quite attractive lar.. I WAN THE MINI CONVERSE SHOE!! *sniffs*
Yeah... den turns out that got some miscommunication... Ling Zhi did not receive my mail~~!!! ARGHS... luckily she wasn't in a rush and we went to Spinelli to celebrate the gathering.. Hahaha... Yeah... Heng her reaction was more of a happy one when she saw the cake.. Den we erm.. actually sang a bday song?? Hahahaha...
On the whole... even though alot of leng chang... it was a good gathering.. haha.. I kept quiet the whole time lar actually.. haha.. Ling Zhi was like toking mainly to the guys... haha den I'm quite surprised that she actually rem that I said I was looking for a tutor for maths and chem.. LOL.. Yeap.. Stayed for abt 1+ hours.. HAhaha...
Then... b4 LZ left.. Jin told her that I will be erm..well.. I wun exactly say take over lar.. but I'll juz take it that I'm bao guaning the website and forum for Ling Zhi.. Jin really was a good webmistress lo... I'm not sure if I'm really up to the mark or not.. But really.. if in future... she wans to continue to take charge.. I will gladly give her back the bang zi...
Well... I guess many things in life are unpredictable eh? I nbr expected to haf this kind of erm... leadership position? Well.. come what may.. Hope it'll be a smooth journey...
As for today... Got a morning call from Shi Ying to go to her candlelight service.. and I din manage to catch my dong du shen tan!! Was quite reluctant to go.. but bo bian.. morning call given le.. must give face... Sighs... But anyway.. I din really tok much again.. Think i'm kind of rendered shy at these kind of erm... religious stuff ya? Bleahx.. what am I toking? Hahaha.. But anyway... I felt that today's word... shuo zong le wo de xin sheng... I kind of feel doubtful... distressed... discouraged... and depressed... esp at this point of time.. where I feel that I keep lacking the strength n motivation to move on...
Whatever...
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10:33 PM
Friday, December 16, 2005
And once again.. I pigged out.. hehe.. I keep eating at home lar!! Mans.. din really do much today except to finish up alkenes, benzenes and also did abit of mendelian.. Lol.. Wanted to go gym de but someone din reply.. hahaha...Guess I'll hafta wait till I go swimming wif Kai Lin next week to shed those calories that piled up as well as to get tanned!!! Hopefully it wun rain that day.. hahaha...
Umx.. not really looking forward to 2mr.. Am still thinking if I shld go 2mr.. for the gathering... Thing is I hafing sore throat now.. Jialat... Please dun make me fall sick now!! Wan fall sick oso fall sick on day of lecture test mar.. LOL..
Jie... you better dun read this entry...
SHOO~! JIE.. SHOO!
DUN READ THIS WOR... Jie.. hahaha...
Think jie will be worried after seeing this entry coz I promised her to zzz before 12.. but.. I wanna complete mendelian!~ Hahaha... You shld take care of urself first lar! Hahaha.. and also.. rest more!! Dun let me noe that u are overworking wor.. or else... hehe..
And I think I might be trying to study overnight today... Hehes...
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11:36 PM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Hahaha.. So happy of myself.. managed to survive till abt 4.30 am before I called it a day and went to bed... haha well.. not exactly.. was abt to zzz on the floor coz dun wan to disturb yu xuan... but ended up sharing the bed too... LOL... Din really do much yest coz I was frustrated over the stupid trigo questions.. sigh.. took like 1 hour to do 2 questions... 2 hours to comprehend the notes.. but still dun understand and cannot apply.. argh... I can predict how many questions I'm gonna ask Mr Lim on mon man.. Darn...
Haha well.. I paid for it well enuff though.. was so tired to do anything today and only managed to cover alkanes... and a lil bit of alkenes again..
And I'm stressed again! I realised that I haben completed hol hw.. haben completed reading my maths notes... Haix... why does work always seem never ending? Sianned... Heng no more stuff upcoming den I can totally devote time for my studies..
K lar.. whatever.. And I'm still worried for Evonne jie... Hope she gets well soon... Jie.. if cannot sat nvm lar.. maybe when I break down it'll be a leash of emotions.. it'll be better I suppose.. haha... dun worry too much abt me.. take care of ur health first!
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10:29 PM
Ok.. Now I am worried abt Evonne jie le.. Roles swopped... Jie.. dun worry too much now k? You need to take care of urself before u can take care of others... reallly!!
Yeah.. went to study today.. had gastric b4 I went out so was delayed by that.. took a bit of milk to settle it and rested for a while b4 meeting Ting.. Was more of a heart to heart chat session again.. I dun wanna elaborate here.. Juz wanna say that jia jia you ben nan nain jing... Yeah.. Den got chased out of the library so went to TM to buy tako pachi.. was so nice but we were still hungry so bought pastries.. Oh how I miss Hong Kong's Mango pudding and Po Luo Bao!!
Den we shopped for Mr Lim's card... Saw Jin Yu.. Nth to say ba.. juz went to get the card and she wrote greetings on it b4 I brought it home to write my part..
Now.. studing Overnight wif Yu Xuan.. Hope I can last.. I need to preserve my energy to help Von Jie..
Jie.. dun too worrried k? Take care of urself!
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2:10 AM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
I think... I am on the verge of a breakdown again... Am feeling so stressed up over stuff... such as that of the upcoming Ling Zhi gathering.. been trying to coordinate everything.. and I am finding it very tough.. Dunno what to say.. Juz noe that I am trying to relax but I juz dunno how to! Now is already dec.. and I really am very scared that I cannot finish my revision.. I'm getting paranoid...
On the other hand.. been writing christmas cards.. Bought a special one for ms yee and maybe mr lim.. haha.. half of my pay for a day is gone juz like that... but anyway.. I think its worth it lar.. coz need to gan ji them mar...
K lar.. enuff of my crap...
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10:49 PM
Monday, December 12, 2005
Darn... comp's at it again.. haha.. got some sort of virus that keeps giving pop ups.. But well.. Year's coming to an end.. so guess I'll juz make a round up of the year.. haha... Yeap.. juz like what Cruz (www.cruzteng.com) did..
At the beginning of the year... I was posted to MJ.. could rem that I was quite sad upon knowing this piece of news but what to do? scored badly for prelims mar.. haha.. den all of my frens are at better JCs.. I was so lonely at MJ... Every morning can see CCHS ppl teher but dun dare to join them coz feel outcast.. haha.. But had alot of fun wif my CG, 05S402.. And also the pre-u sem peeps! COuld still rem the various interview process Lol... I miss being in MJ's pre u sem!!!
Then LZ last day of night prog.. still rem was actively going to her events during the 1st 3 mths... den came the O level results.. posted to TJ surprisingly.. Sadly I had to leave all of the pre u sem stuff and peeps I knew in MJ... And I din really haf much fun in the orientation.. haha.. coz I wasn't OGL! I could haf been one in MJ... but.. haha..
Yup! Then... LZ's bday celebrations!! Kena sabo-ed by Jin Yu.. haha.. Umx.. What elsE? Oh ya... den started to make frens wif teh 2nd intakers of my newly posted SCG.. could still rem that I was so confused btw SCG, CG and OG! Lol.. Keep getting mixed up... First frens that I knew were Xin Hui and Vera.. haha.. den later on Shan Jie came into the picture.. could still rem that I was late for sch for the 1st time *darn the bloody bus.. * wif her.. den Ms Lim v cute ask us if we were lost in sch.. Lol... Those were the slightly more fun times... And also how I brought the whole stack of notes in front of Ms Yee and started askign her questions.. Lol... Think I left a deep impression on her then...
Then came JCT.. could still rem that I predicted that I wun pass it.. and sure enuff it came true.. haha.. Coz of dummy stomach cramps.. couldn't conc on my Maths paper.. and flunked it to the core.. Lol.. Den got Mr Lim!!! Haha.. ok lar.. I wun exactly say he's my saviour.. but he's really a good teacher.. because of him.. I started to clarify my maths concepts.. haha.. coz prior to that I din like Mr kwek.. Lol.. even though I din really like Mr Lim initially.. hahaha.. And how I scored my first ever "1 mark" for bio.. Lol..
Yeah.. then came the period of breakdowns... Was quite stressed up.. and broke down in front of the class and my tutors.. woah... Den before promos was worse.. practically yi lei xi lian and dark eye bags took over... And to this I really muz thank my tutors, esp Mr Lim and Ms yee for being there for me when I was feeling down.. Hahaha... And not to mention.. I stil can rem that tub of Cadbury eclairs!! Hahahaha... And also.. the church trip and all that talk..
On the whole.. It has been a very stressful year... But I could not haf tide over it without the help of these ppl esp: My tutors, Friends such as Xin Hui, Yuan Ting.. who were always there for me whenever I needed a listening ear... Wu Ren bang.. haha.. they rock to the skies man... I luv hanging out wif them! And also my PW grp! Of which only Wei Ling not from Wu Ren Bang lar.. Lol... Coz of that time when I was feeling down... hahaha... I think they noe what I mean =)
Right now.. I only hope to promote officially... STRESS AR!!!
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10:40 PM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Woah.. I think I am fully stretched out these few days... Been busy trying to see if I can come up with Lz's gathering next sat and oso trying to see how I can arrange Puppy's bday celebrations... Ting wans to celebrate it on 26th.. budden Cindy wun be back den.. So... haix.. I'm bummed out trying to organise and keep in track wif these stuffs lately...
But anyway... Went to Bukit Panjang Plaza to support Lz and oso to celebrate Ma Li's bday.. haha.. a pity din get a chance to tok to ling zhi.. and to tell her abt the gathering stuff... hahaha.... Yeap.. den went to buy cake (a logcake coz... xmas is near and it was the cheapest.. lol).. and waited at Mac for Jiamin and the bday gal to come down... Den sang bday song!! Haha.. Ma Li blushed wor!! Den she cut cake and posed for the cams.. alamak.. bei suan le even though Mr A wasn't there... coz I was sayign "1, 2, 3 wait ar..." den ma li and queen imitated me!! -_-" Luckily not that Mr A man.. or not.. you will nbr hear my sms on 933 again le...
Yup.. den took pics wif her in front of the xmas tree... haha.. den she laughed at me again!!! ... Mei hua ke shuo... Den she went off le!! Hahaha.. she was sooo funny today lar.. hahaha...
Umx.. before gg out.. i was jzu gg through the CCHMS yearbooks over the years... Time really flies! I actually bought 4 years worth of yearbooks... LOL.. Yeah.. but anyway.. they brought back diff memories for me.. and I can't help but shed a few tears after going through all of them.. though I dun really feel quite attached to CCHS as much as TJ now.. there are still many memories that I haf of that sch.. and my graffitied table!! Lol.. it was full of Kenix ok? Hahaha...
And also.. remembered my 4 years of guiding.. even though I wasn't a very good guide.. Lol.. and that no one can tell I am a guide now oso coz I'm simply too fair and.. er hem.. gentle * =P * And my fellow guides.. such as ee hiang.. ducky etc.. these are the 2 peeps that I oft approach when I haf probs.. but not now though.. I guess we really are drifting apart.. haha.. doubt that they noe that I even haf a blog Lol... I do miss the times when we were camping and also teh torturous times we went through.. haha.. juz imagine the no. of times I nearly fainted during guides activity and you'll noe why I say that... So much so that I even became the first aider of teh company hahaha...
On the whole.. I guess that I juz haf to accept that li bie is a natural way of life? All of us haf to go through this stage eh? I think Evonne jie will noe what I mean by saying this... Li bie may be sad and you may feel that you can't bear to part.. budden.. tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi.. bo bian... eventually.. after 2 years, I'll also leave college, after 3 years I'll leave uni and so on.. Its a never ending cycle... So much so that I really wanna break out of it....
K lar.. I think enough of my rantings le.. I better go and do more revision...
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11:36 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Hehe.. had a so called eventful day today? Lol.. Went to ngee ann city civic plaza to support ling zhi.. Yeah then was walking around aimlessly coz dunno where ling zhi is.. so took a look at the HPs and I think I wanna get the samsung de ba? Lol..
Yeap.. then after walking around aimlessly for like 1.5 hours.. haha.. saw Jiamin they all so we hanged around and went into taka... to see ling zhi wif shopping bags!! Hahaha.. apparently.. she jia zhua... Haha den we asked if she knew we were there nots.. well.. of coz not hahaha... Yeap.. den started toking for awhile.. she was asking abt the 3 duckies and I din really noe how to answer.. den summore ask me how come I was there?? -_-" Told her go support her and also to relax lor.. haha.. she also ask me relax mar.. ask me go shop around.. we asked her to gif us the stuff in the shopping bags... hahaha...
Ya... Den Lz wans gathering on next sat.. duckies can reply me ASAP? I need to get back to her... Thanks =) Oh ya.. Jiamin also wants to know where we got the big big light sticks for Jing Ru on SHA!! Hahaha...
Ok.. I think I've become a chao ji messenger trying to attain everyone's goals le.. Lol.. jkjk...
Yeap.. and Yuan Ting wans me to advertise this: on 26th dec, she's going to haf a boxing day cum xmas cum (her bday celebration?) party at her house!! Only applicable for SCG 25 peeps!!! Pls reply to her or tag me if you can make it!! Its going to be another SCG gathering =)
See? What did I say abt me becoming a messenger?? Lol...
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10:34 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
Umx.. went to Queensway today... means I din go for Maths coz I wasn't feeling well.. hahaha... stupid right? Haha... last min Jillian asked me out.. so juz go lor.. But anyway.. I bought a Disney Mickey de ring!! Oh man.. I'm so obsessed wif rings nowadays.. haha.. its really darn nice lar.. haha...
yeah and I actually saw Chia Mein!! My Pri sch classmate.. hahaha.. how small can the world be... Turns out that the Chia Mein that Jillian was toking abt was actually her.. wahaha.. Yeap.. I need to work extra hard on fri to get those calories that I've obtained today lar!! Kao.. I'm feeling more and more like a pig..
Well.. looks like I'll be attending Maths on the 19th le.. haha... felt quite bad when I smsed Mr Lim yest.. hahaha... Umx.. whatever lar.. my maths like s**t lidat.. Can't imagine how much depression i can derive from there... but hey!! The good thing is that other than Organic Chem, I've completed reading Chem and Bio notes!! Weee!!! Now concentrating on Maths and also alot and alot of practises on the other two... Hopefully can ji ren tian xiang...
Haha.. and I did the recording for the prog today.. Jia Hui sounded like she was in a rush of time.. haha... so I was like ok.. get to the point.. Diaos..
Oh yes.. and its time to start sending xmas cards again!! This's the season to be jolly... fa la la la la... fa la la la!! Collating addresses now...
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10:02 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Well... Sometimes I do find it hard to explain my source of stress lehx.. dunno if its academic or whatever.. can't be dance now.. last time used to haf quite alot of stress coming from dance... esp when its ur first time on stage.. budden now.. I dunno... I can juz... erm.. feel stressed? I am still seeking for a soruce to let me de stress effectively... And I need to find it before next year starts!!!
Anyways... went to school most unwillingly today coz I din haf enough sleep from last night... Was so darn tired that I fell asleep on the bus.. MRT haha... den Ms Yee said she'll be late so I happily read my I-weekly on Chris's and Fann's erm.. "marriage" hahaha.. Wanted to take a short nap there.. but it was so quiet that.. I dun dare to zzz.. haha.. So instead of startng at 10... we started at 10.30 wif her apologising most of the time.. lol..
Yeah den was a short session coz both of us needed to rush off.. haha.. suan le.. anyway I was juz gg to ask her O level stuff whats.. at present I am more concerned abt next year's LT test...
Yeap.. then routine le lor... took a cab down to gif kiddy tuition and back to books and bed I go.. haha..
At times I really wish to have my own private space whereby my family members wun interfere... there are just some things that you dun feel like toking to them yeha? Whatever.. they just can't seem to understand anyways...
Darn... I think I'm addicted to Ada's profile at adacache.. Lol.. I keep reading it coz it gives me alot of inspiration... though it does need a lot of patience to go through the whole passage.. But really.. after reading it you will feel much better abt ur own encounters... umzz.. i guess some ppl will noe what I mean...
Meeting MJ peeps 2mr!! =)
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10:24 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Wah... bei ren fang ge zi is not a gd feeling.. haha... twice summore... but suan le ba.. hahaha... not their fault... Maybe God doesn't want me to study that hard... Lol...
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5:23 PM
Monday, December 05, 2005
I have a si li tao sheng de gan jue... The Escape incident reminded me of how pale I went after taking the Alpha 8 and now this unfortunate accident.. hope the 2 girls are alright... Sians.. gotta go sch this week.. I doubt I'll miss it owing to my routine... Been suffering from insomnia these few days and having fatigue man!! Must be due to the darn revision.. hahaha... Really I can juz break down at any moment if I realise that I have alot of revision left undone... hahaha...
Line up for this week.. Tomorrow: Study marathon after giving tuition.. afternn go look for Xin Hui at Marine Parade Library.. After that Yu Xuan is coming over to study overnight... Then Weds.. go school for bio consultation.. diaos... I dunno if I'll have enough energy for that not... got to preserve alot of energy tonight and also buy coffee then I guess... Thurs... same routine.. Fri.. morning maths remedial.. Man.. I wish I can postpone it.. haven been doing much maths lately...
But the good thing is.. I've completed Bio le!! Yay!!! Hehe.. thats a big consolation to me...
Yeah.. I din mention that she reminded me of how much I miss dance yest? Haix.. I noe there was no malice intended.. but well.. she juz reminded me that after the hard times I been through with Zaki and Ms Wee.. I wun be performing next year ='( ='( Kind of sad... but anyway I have this to say to my fellow dancers... So Yu Min.. Hope YOu are seeing this =)
Hey.. going may be tough on you I noe.. jia you k!!! I noe you wun gif up de.. and I will ting ni dao di de ok? Comments will help you to improve de.. so jia you k!! I can't wait to see you on stage!! Maybe I can even go backstage to look for you and congratulate you on dance night!! I noe you can make it and become a gerat dancer de!! And dun compare yourself with others... You are who you are... Enjoy the process!! Haha.. and the orh ceh is bigger than mine ar? Hahaha... Jia you k? Whatever it is... I will always be supporting you!! Jia you jia you jia you!!!
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2:20 PM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Umx... haen been blogging for 2 days.. Lol.. Yeap.. Went to watch Chicken Little today!~ Hahaha... Someone's treat =) Yeap.. Woke up quite late this morning den was watching Dong Du Shen Tan (To Catch the Uncatchable.. Nice show!! Hehehe..) Den got a call from Ms Yee... Lol... SO went out to look for her at Victoria Street there.. woah quite a long walk from Bugis... Uh huh.. den I think Xin Hui noes what happened... shall not elaborate here...
Yeap.. so went out to eat... wasn't hungry so no matter hwo much she tried to erm.. force me? hahaha.. juz refused to eat... until after Chicken Little lor.. The movie was nice.. And I think I learnt something from it too.. Haha.. after some explanation from her lar.. and also... I like the alien !! So cute.. hahaha... the fishie was quite too... hehehe...
Most imptly... I think I learnt quite a few things today.. to noe what is call relax yourself at appropiate times... and well.. maybe I think I'm a lil wee bit shy today... din dare to talk much coz most of her frens are young adults... I was there juz to empty my thoughts for the time being.. and told her what exactly happened... Guess I'm juz thinking or reading too much into it ba? But seriously.. I did feel out of place just now...
Haha.. but anyway... Chicken Little is so cute!! They din do the Looma dance!! ='( *sniffs* Hahaha.. I think I would have danced along if they did... hahaha...
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10:47 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Hehe.. will be doing the recording on Fri 8pm.. Shall not leak out the details here though.. the people concerned will noe what's going on =)
Dunno why I feel super lethargic these few days... As in I can't even sit down and study for like 1 or 2 hours without falling asleep or getting very tired~! So.. Din do anything much today other than to learn some Korean words from my dear Korean lil gal hahaha... chasing her is not an easy task.. haha.. darn I think half of my energy was gone there le.. haha.. Despite taking a nap.. still feel lethargic..
Have the sudden urge to go overseas and study.. I can't stand Sg any longer... Haix..
Oh wells.. Guess I'll have to mi bu for today's loss 2mr... Gambatte!! Studying is suddenly such a bore even for Bio now...
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11:14 PM