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Monday, May 31, 2004
Umx... today is Mrs Kee, Mdm Tan and Melissa *my pri sch fren*s' bdays~! so happy bday to all of u guys.. or ratehr teachers too... But the best part is.. .I'm gonna receive the call pretty soon again sia... coz i noe i did damn badly in my exams... Its really horrible and i had nightmares abt it.. .can't even believe it coz today i actually dreamt that i sank into depression b4 my dear mum saw the report book and i did not even dare tyo look at it..... haix...
Sometimes i really feel like slacking.. but i keep asking myself... can i? On the other hand, ppl keep thinking that i give too much stress to myself... is that true?? I seriously dunno but i certainly dun want to live and indulge in tjis kinda feeling.. coz i hate it to the core... not like that stupid Duke Orsino in Twelfth Night.. .and I dun evn noe what happened to mY lit sia~!!! I got so darn low this time round lor.... k lar i admit that i devoted most of my time hat day to a maths mar... who ask them to clash???? But... I've nvr gotten so low for lit b4 lor... and then its not as if my a maths is so good either that i feel,as if its not worth my efforts at all~!!!! I find it hard to noe what is going on sometimes.... In fact, i feel as if i'm at a loss... a horrible loss...
Yeah... first day of hols le..... but i think its gonna suck coz besides attending countless remedials, and of ourse... i have to meeet my own targets of copying at least my chem and ss textbook cum notes out... nice arrangement i noe that but what to do?? i gotta buck up... and my a maths and physics still suck thoroughly to the core sia... haix... I'm starting to doubt how much more of it i can take b4 i really collaspe one day... which i really hope it'll be soon to put an end to all this....whatever...
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11:29 PM
Friday, May 28, 2004
haix... .just calculated my L1R5.. it way exceeded 20... to 25... or maybe worse... worse than last year....*sniffs* I hate this kinda life i really do.... why must i be in the special stream??? I hate it lor... now i'll probably end up the last in class among those ppl... I hate it i hate it i hate it... And i hate my brains too... why must i be so stupid??? Work so hard le den still cannot attain my results??? Even my teachers oso say that... what is going on??? I wish I have an answer.... looking at my L1R5... i can't even get into a dcent JC lor... and i dun wanna get uinto a lan course in poly either... *sniffs* I dread next sat.... definitely...
Anyway tomorrow we are celebrating Mrs Kee's bday so I'm going.... gotta put on a happy front... cya
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10:54 PM
Sian.... I supposedly failed my a maths but i go and plead with mdm tan for marks lor... i did until so damn pek chek and i cried twice sia... can't evn believe myself... haha... den even mdm tan oso na wo mei ban fa coz she noes i am really hardworking one lor so when i ask for it she gave me lar... so i ended up standing there for half an hour sia... how nice... .the paper that i was expecting to fail (e maths) I passed and the paper i expected to pass... i failed... Umx... whateva lar anyway i overall oso fail lor so it does not make a big diff....
Den my physics ar... i go add mark add until i pass... but overall... of coz is still fail lar coz of my Ca... haix... and i did not study for it lor... so right now i end up in all the remedials possible... all that has been planned for my June... haix... gone were the days... And my lit really suckx to the core ok... wanna ask dava what exactly went wrong... Umx... den maybe i can try and improve on it... I have to brush up on my grades to attain my goals...
And Then ar... I am so angry wif GH~!! Hope she doesn't sees this... but u noe it can be bad enuff that I am in a bda mood and i supposedly failed by 3 marks and she by 2, so she was in a better off position what... den she keep on complaining to Pei Zhi and when i ask her to keep quiet for a moment she says she's not complainiong to me... true lar but its like i did worse than her lor did she ever think of my feelings? I mean i noe she is in a bad mood lor but she don't have to take it out on others lidat.. .and then later coz dava in class le i still asking for marks she say wad ask ghot mark no mark still fail... even Alina oso got a bit pissed off lor.. . I mean i asked for marks asked until i pass ok?? then summore one or two marks will make a great big diff lehx~!!! I really wanted to shout it straight at her face but i took it in lor....
Haix.. den on Weds i had a big quarell wif my DAD... he is so overbearing lor... and if he sees this (i hope) he better get it into his head that teenagers nowadays are not like what they are in the past ok??? We have a lot of stress and other troubles that you ADULTS dunno and take it easy... THESE ADULTS HAD BETTER GET A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF THEIR OWN TEENAGERS... AND FOR GOD'S SAKE PLEASE ASK CLAERLY THE FACTS FIRST BEFORE YOU TRY TO DO ANYTHING... my anger has not subsided ok??!!! I am a human being... can anybody please note that i have my own limits too?? This applies to the top paragraph too... I just hate being a teenager... as in sec 4 life... Isn't sec 4 supposed to be sweet 16?? No lor.. its hell that i am going thru now...
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10:28 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Oh man... .exams are over finally and i can tell you that today's paper I'm dead lor~!!!! I nbr study ok?? coz i was supposed to wake up at twelve plus and thewn i woke up at 430 and i have to leave my house at 530??? Haix... .confirm fail le lar.. .summore after first paper i broke down le lor... first two questions wrong already den all my frens all scared of me even Mrs Yeo oso cua daio and say cannot be emotional haha....
Whatever lar... .anyway can celebrate until tuesday when i get back my results lar and of course I'm gonna watch Harry potter be4 report book day on sat... dun wanna let it spoil my feelings.... haha.... heck le lar i noe i wun do well this time round just hope that i can get at least a pass then i happy le... anyway today i'm in a super slacking mood lor... could not really concentrate during a maths tuition den i go and borrow the TVB telemovie "The Healing Spirit" Oh man.... watch already i nearly wanted to cry sia... .it is sooooooo touching haha but coz i noe the storyline le so i can still hold back the tears lor....
Haix... i'm still thinking if i shld go to a JC or go to poly.... alot of ppl say JC life is super tough and i'm just thinking that if i am sooo stresse4d up now.... what abt the future? Umx... dunno lar anyway... hope 4EP HAVE A CHALET SOON HAHA.... have fun guys~!
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9:25 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004
Yeah.... 2molo last paper le... budden its physics... hai... chem was horrible and so was e maths... think i'll fail that... anyway i just joined to hi5 network and haha.... i think i found my ex senior woan ting lehx... not sure if its really her but she seems to noe my brother haha... dunno lar... But anyway... think i shld be able to pass my a maths if nth goes wrong coz i dun have time to go back and check and got leave some blanks... *cross fingers* hope next week de debrief wun spoil the day....
Anyway.... does all ppl hate friendster nowadays? haha seems that everyone that i noe all go join hi5 or zorpia le... i dunno how to use zorpia sia haha... so i nbr join lor... sian.... been working damn hard this few days hope the hard work pays off... Umx... anyway today's lit paper i write until my hand wanna break le lehx sia... haha hope its ok lar... dunno why but during the exam period alot of teachers kept looking at my paper... haha.... its stressful ok???
Vigilante Force yesterday last episode le haha... its quite nice and touching wor... hehe go www.tvb.com to find out urself lar... the chi name is zhi4 yong2 xin 1 jing2 jie4 haha.... tataz~!
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3:49 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Life sucks life suck life sucks..... why must there be exams? I'm slogging my damn guts out for this mid year sia... got suanned by penguin when she says she noes alot of ppl work very hard till they get sick... obviously its me right?? Been getting up damn early to study lor.... need a breather desperately....
Anyway... wanted to slip off during chinese coz i was really feeling so damn sick... cough badly, running nose... den she stepped in almost immediately after the bell ring... shuay... But luckily i have just discovered that what i need was just ample rest coz i slept for one whole period when Mrs Pereira did not come... starting to miss her lessons le... but anyway she has one more lesson today and i'm gonna tell her me not feeling well so i can skip tutorial... but its really true lor...
K lar... gotta go back and cram for my damn exams coming out le... how many times have iused the word *damn*? Sorry... me very confused and not in the best of moods... Anyway must thank hui xin for the encouragement and motivation haha... But i'm still going to school... Anyway, thankx gal for the help you offered *frens 4eva* =)its sicko to get sick now....
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4:26 AM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Yeah... I'm sick again... was down with slight fever and been trying to sneeze the whole day but it just cannot come out~!! argh.... next week exams le now then sick... what fun.... But anyway, i'm studying my social studies...
Umx... nth much to say lar....still wanna say good luck to all who are gonna have their exams soon... and must take good care of urselves =)
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4:26 AM
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
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Woah... the last time i did this test i was not that much of an extrovert and not that emotional~! haha... but quite accurate lar
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4:28 AM
wOah.... blogger have new uplook le haha.... anyway i'm here just to say that I wun be online for quite abit this two weeks coz i'll be cramming in for my mid years.... looks like i need lotsa mocha to keep me perked up and awake~! Haha... Not very used to this new outlook lehx... coz now lidat cannot see all of my entries at one go le... haha
Sian... Just hate the exams... esp A maths and Physics... they "ROCK"... anyway, can't wait for 2molo when there is Mrs Pereira's lesson.... hehe... Dunno why lehx... budden all myf rens dun really seem to like Mrs Kee... maybe coz they got influenced by one another haha...I think she's ok lar... but she marks very strictly lehx... under ms choa i can get my A but under her i have not even gotten an A before... Umx... maybe coz i slacked too much le? Oh wells... dun really have to worry much abt Chem though... My only biggggggggg headache is a maths and lit... that day the papers are so long... and of course.... physics is horrible too ;)
Anyway... .all the best to the rest of teh ppl who are still having exams and congrats to the esplanade ppl~! You guys did a very good job =)
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4:01 AM
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Sian lor.... all the pics i try to post all canot come out one... haiz.... anyway... this week is sian... except that yesterday's performance was quite a success i would say.... but abit waste of the choir and the band lar coz they only came out in the last part... maybe net time the sch wants to do this they can try more new stories and oso prepare it earlier? Oh wells.... mid year is only one week away.... haiz.... time really flies sia..... wanna change my blog de background but dunno how to lehx.... haix.... haha
Ok.... very sian now.... nth to write abt.... this is great.... sianning away here.... got back my progress report.... sucks horribly.... haha but mrs kee's comments all are the same.... prob coz she just did it in a rush of time ba... dunno why lehx but alot of ppl in my class dun really seem to like her... i think she's nice and just like mrs choo.... but of course, mrs choo still ranks top haha.... coz the two of them nbr ever blow their tops off.... Umx... Kenix won the Motivational Flying Gals award~! *dunno if i got the name correct.... just loose translation hahhaa* Feel so happy for her,.... maybe i shld follow in her footsteps and oso improve my EQ * ok.... that's sometyhing which i have to do coz i've been throwing my temper bt this few days and oso losing contol of my tears.... * whatever... K lar... hafta go do my everflowing physics worksheets le.... Btw, Jillian is back~~!!! Woohoo.... budden i scared i kena distracted haha.... Oh wells...
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8:14 PM
Friday, May 07, 2004
Lala.... due to popular demand for donna lim li ying and i dunno what mei yin....*no offence* i shall talk abt my a maths tests..... the differentiation part was quite tough... but at least i was not the only one who cannot handle it.... but on teh whole... if i did not make some stupid mistakes... shld be able to just make it... *crossing of fingers* haha.... but on the other hand... sigh.... nvm ahha.... i bought coffee on that day *mocha rox~!* to keep myself awake and boy was the caffeine effect strong haha.....
Yeah.... today is the damn boring mock exam.... i managed to scrape thru my a maths... wahaha miracle wor... considering that i did not really study much for it... its quite an acheivement le... ;) K.... den as for ss.... did not even manage to go thru finish the whole paper wor.. .hehe u shld noe lar.... i always dilly dally one and then summore dunno how to do that source based questions....
Ok... back to this week.... anyway had mrs pereira's lesson on weds~ so fun =) she went thru oral lor hahha.... and she was like hinting that i have become very mature since sec one? haha.... she still remembers me.... looks like in her heart i'm still the little gal who created a deep impression on her.... haha... .buit anyway when she said it in class i was so darn paiseh lor.... hahha whatever lar.... seems as if all the teachers suddenly all very good to the sec 4s... dunno why lehx ;) But anyway.... pereira's lesson rox sia~!! can't wait to the next weds... the 3 period lessons.... And when she said she was not sure if it would be satisfactory for our class our class suddenly very united all say yes we are satisfied with the arrangement.... haha.... all of us are abit ant-mrs ho ya?
Umx... 2molo's schedule is oso quite tight again as usual for me coz mornign have physics tution *extra lesson at tampines*, den after that have one and a half hours to get back to sch for the esplanade thingy to help the old folks and then after that i might be taking a taxi down to tuition with gui hao... hahha.... and then at night... think i'll be hogging the tv again coz the jin qu jiang is on the asia plus channel~! woohoo~! budden.... it starts at six and i get home at abt seven thirty.... sadx sadx.... haha
K.... gonna watch my show on tv... *vigilante force and it does have kenix (ken-nix) acting in it =p* den after that need to pia for my physics.... hahha... buai~!
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11:27 PM
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Zzzzz.... slept only 2 hours today.... yup slept at 10 thirty... woke up at one thirty... umx.... this is my lifestyle for the past few days in the past two weeks.... and i reckon today will be the same again..... all coz of a maths test 2molo.... or shld i say.... today.... *yawn* had to get donna to go thru my review prob 14... the most dreaded topic before i could force myself to get it thru coz some ppl when they get into the mood they juz can't stop and they persuade ppl to do oso... right donna? hahha.... jkjk.... must thank her lar if not i have no strength to continue.... but right now... what i think i need b4 the test is two cans of ice cold mocha... one for the morning and teh other one for after recess....
Umx.... think i'm too vulnerable le... can cry at any little thing one.... nearly wanted to cry in the afternoon when i realised that i could nto do the questions and i was on my own.... but luckily teh tears were hald back in time... haha.... sat and sun i was too tired to update le... hehe coz went out studyign the whole day? i guess you could put it that way considering that i had tuition for the first half of teh day and 'tutorial' for the second part.......
zzzz.... donna can't sleep.... i cannot sleep le either..... wish i could juz fall sick soon haha.... best is on friday when there is the mock exams.... *sux*.... i think i'm gonna faint one of these days due to fatique... haix.....kx.... gtg le... hafta start cramming some of my ss in... buai~! btw, i shall change my bottom name to kenix rox~! hahaha.... buai~!
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