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Sunday, October 31, 2004
Hey peeps... hehes.... juz wanna say happy bday to my jasmine jiex hehe... Ya lar den say that Ling Zhi read out my sms on fri and said she will miss me~! Haha.... okok den dangx tot I going crazy over her le juz like my kenix... haha... but she will nbr replace kenix haha... Basically coz that day I was smsing her saying that it mite be the last time I listening to her prog coz monday exams start le.. haha.... den she say when I need a break can sms lor lol... haha
Yeahs... nth much to update le... bbuai.... and thansk alot to Rina for the testi~! hehes...
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
Wow~! My blog is finally back to normal haha.... Ok lar today or shld I say yesterday I went back to sch to look for Mdm Tan lar coz have alot and alot of questioons for her lor den guess who I saw? Cai Lao Shi~! Haha... juz realised that I missed her alot lar and she still can recgonise me~! Haha... looks like I haben changed at all huh? Lol...
Okok... mdm tan darn cute mans called samantha instead or samartha when she wanted us to llok for her after the lunch break... haha... mY name is juz sooooo unique... Ok basically I am here juz to tell u guys that I wun be updating my blog for the whole of next week kies? And Yes... Chris finally got out~!! Haha.. so happy coz he kicked out my Maia =( Anyways I juz joined Maia fan club in frenster haha... amazing? Lol... Ok.. i'm not gonna come online frequently so to the juniors.... pls do not flood my mailbox thank you....
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12:13 AM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
Ok... i guess i still cannot deal wif the fact that i have graduated from CCHMS.... I will realli miss dang dang... esp if she goes to TJC which i reckon she will snce her sis came from there.... *sighs* Btw last week's Sg idol have Flora Chan~!!! Oh wows.... haha her accent was quite strong lar btu i liked her show.... Yeaps.... Hope I can fulfil the promise wif dang within 7 years? We promised to go to HK together =) Wonder if i'll still like Kenix den?? Haha...
Sg Idol.... juz watched Daphne's performance... not bad sia... awaiting sylvester~!!! Haha... OMG... i'm falling sick.... I dun wan~!!!!! At least not during the crucial exams period... Haix... I'm leadin a routine life now... wake up. study. watch tv at 1. study. nap. study. watch tv. study. listen to radio. This sucks.... O levels... I shall really conquer it.... SOON~!!!!!! haix...
Okie okie... So sian now.... nth much to blog blog lehx... hehe.... Ling Zhi nbr readout my sms last night... haha think i'll give her a break till after my Os ba =P Haha.... dao shi cai neng gou gao su ta hao xiao xi mar.... and that hao xiao xi is that kao shi zhong yu wan le~!!!! Haha.... But anyways... i still try to call in every night lar =P
Kenix's new show Su shi qing zhen is showing soon in Nov~!!! Weeee.... hope it doesn'ty clash wif thy Os... coz I wanna watch!!!!! And after the Os I will oso go and rent Shine On You~!!! KENIX YOU GO GER =P
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8:21 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Yest was sooooo damn sickening..... My toopid bro keep switching on the light of my room forcing me to wake up... idiot lar.... but anyways.... yest Ling Zhi read out da sms hehe... ok I noe i going crazy oer her le... coz i told her i wasn't v happy wif my physics prac and it makes it worse when ppl keep toking abt it lor so..... *shrugs* so she said prob it wasn't that bad lar haha.... wadeva lar.... but she v nice and cute oso =)
Ks... I am certainly not in the mood to study ss coz everything juz cannot register in my head.... sickos.... i only could manage to get da S3 stuff into my head.... haix... Thinking of gg TJC but will it come true??? I dunno... If canot then I aiming for some sci courses or mass com in poly bas?? Hehe... taking up mass com will be the key to my future dreams.... And back i go to my books... bbuai haha....
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11:02 AM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
I shall not tok abt physics prac here ks? Coz I didn't do as well.... Those experiments were tuff... Ok and yup I had loads of fun wif dang dang on monday and dear Ling Zhi read out the sms I sent her yest le haha and she said i'm ke ai wahahahaha.... okok I'm bhb oer here.... Heard her Fish Liang interview yest.... Liang Jing Ru is so great =)
K lar... dun wanna elaborate le muz go hit da books again.... *groans and moans* gg back to sch on fri to look for mdm tan.... anyone coming>? Doubt so... K I noe i toking crap... shal not do a countdown here..... O levels, I shall conquer it..... *crossing of fingers*
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10:28 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Ok today was a fun filled and darn exciting day ok??? hahaha.... I'm gonna make Gui Hao and dear Turtle jealous in this entry ok.... so sit tite =)
Yeah then met dang dang at twelve ten at my hse bus stop... haha when i read the sms i was in the lift going down le den i had to take it back up to take my cam... which was quite lucky that I did or not I wouldn't have taken a photo wif Ling Zhi and dang dang~!!! Hehe... ok actualli we had a long bus trip down there lar basically then go shop arnd b4 queuing up to get the free fruit juice while enjoying the octopus balls that we bought.... and before that I actualli wanted to get their autographs lar but was so paiseh.... Den the 93.3 staff very nice noe I very shy so he helped me get from them... so nice of him =) hehe... I wun ever throw away my autograph book de neh....
So after that.... They had some games on stage which unfortunately me and dang dang cannot join coz we were in the queue but we went to take a photo wif ling zhi~!! Haha... Den that staff came and help us take again although it was quite blur but... many thanks to him~!! Hehe.... den after the photo I asked Ling Zhi if she remembered me and she was blur at first and wanted me to describe further until I told her I was Sam hehe den she gave me a big smile and she remembers!~ Haha... coz I sms her every night mar... =P Den we chatted for quite a while coz she received my previous sms *which she nbr read out* that I was sad over my chem prac den she was liek ur prac not good? haha... She even said i shld be studying so I told her I went down to Bugis specially to support her and she ask me jiayou for the O levels~!!!Weeeeeee.....
Oh ya den later during the break me and dang dang came out and watched the two DJs on stage again... Ling Zhi was like saying... oh this lil ger *which is me* bought 2 bottles of fruit juice haha when it was actualli free haha... but at least she keeps on giving me and dang dang the smile... hehe... den during the third timeslot she and chong qing started giving out souvenirs from yes 93.3 and she gave me the privilege for the first answer~! Even though she keeps calling me xiao mei mei... diaos... yeah soooooo...... duhx... haha... den dang dang oso got this yes 93.3 tumbler while I got this sling bag hehe.... And Ling Zhi asked her if carrying those two bottles of fruit juices *one litre each* was heavy or not.... of coz it is lar~!! Haha... And when it was 4 she said bye to me and dang dang~!!!! Weeeeee.....
Oh ya forgot to say me and dang dang oso got go take photo cards hehe.... yeah babe.... hehe... muz thank her alot for accompanying me down today ;)
So.... did I make alot of ppl jealous??? Hehe.... *gives an innocent grin*
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10:52 PM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Hai.... yest v sad day for me mans... Maia got out =( But go for it ok? thats meant for Sylvester and Daphne.... And Ling Zhi nbr read out my sms =( Haha... ok I stayed up till 2am for her programme la even though i was super tired... Dummy Angel brought us abt circles in Boon Keng but haha... we eventually found our way to Novena... Den after that went to Hougang Mall to do abit of studying before heading for tkd.... basically I've nbr been that tired b4 lar coz once my head hit the pillow I went conk to dreamland... The blue tip pattern is so chim... looks more like taichi and karate combined together....
Yeah so haha... 2molo gonna go support Ling Zhi at Bugis and gonna try and get her autograph and thank her personally for her advice... and that I finally called in~! Haha... Turtle muz be thinking that I'm going crazy over her but is Ling Zhi herself say that can go get her autograph or go get fruit juice for free hehe...
Toopid dang dang keep making me jealous~!!!! ARGH~!!!!!!!! Ok lar she v nice liao accompanying me 2molo hehe... OOI>>>> STOP MAKING ME JEALOUS LAR~!!!! Haha..... I'll go crazy smsing her one of these days... Kena interrupted while doing chem k? haha... She still complaining she haben started revision but she so clever can make it one lar... Or not later pull her over to my hse and haf a taste of my studying... hehe.... jkjk....
Lalala... later going for tuition so sian man... Have a feeling that gh is more hardworking den me nowadays... been slacking in the area of maths so 2molo night... I SHALL CAtCH UP~!!!! Haha... Den maybe can take a break from chem le and muz oso do that stupid Ah Wong's papers... ok lar basically tehy are all supplied by me... I now den noe that our sch is famous for getting many schs prelim papers coz Mr Chin oso asking for it... haha... sian bo??? Anyway maybe goign to look for Mdm Tan on Weds b4 looking for Mrs Kee oso... haha... den I'll have to divide myself into 3 parts coz I have lit, chem and A maths... wah....
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2:15 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Haha.... driving hui xin nuts wif my smses and online stuff like "Sylvester! Daphne! Maia! Kenix! jessica! Flora!" and "MAIA~!!!!!!!!!" haha... Lurve the dots she put... hehe ok i'm sarcastic... Yeah... lalallala....
Dun tok to me abt the chem prac... its totally sucked... and I was totally unsure of what I was doing and my titration was off.... felt like crying out but I held back my tears.... Yeah.... Anyway when I reached sch the first thing mrs Kee did was to ask me where Kai Lin was haha.... she's too used to seeing me wif KL bugging her and Mdm Tan wif questions le lar... And ya muz thank her for trying to soothe my nerves lar though I still fumbled wif my prac =(
Ok... den yest turtle complained to me that Ling Zhi nbr read her smses~! Haha... den I sms her once she read... hehe... she is so nice to me =P Den Gladys called in haha... Ok... think Ling Zhi muz be wondering how many Chung Cheng ppl are tuning in to her and trying to call in.... Haha... But she is very nice... starting to make her my fav DJ le haha... She's inspiring me to become aDJ ba... maybe haha... the future is undecided....
Haha... Flora Chan's show is on later... will be watching it... hehe... Haix... I feel so sad leaving the school.... I dun wanna leave... today when the sec 3s took over our classroom... Dunno why but I feel so overwhelmed by it even though I didn't show it.... Haix.... I dun wanna be a sec 4~~~~ ='( The dates are drawing nearer and I'm feeling the overwhelming stress on my back... =(
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8:51 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Listening to Bowie and kenix's duet now... although it is not that fantastic it still rawks~! Ok lar... I confess.... its not exactly my type coz I prefer those faster songs like Ren Wo Ao You!~~~~~~~ Haha... Okok... I'm biased coz I juz wanna listen to Kenix de voice hehehe.... Die liao my gastric still not gone...
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10:36 PM
Listening to Bowie and kenix's duet now... although it is not that fantastic it still rawks~! Ok lar... I confess.... its not exactly my type coz I prefer those faster songs like Ren Wo Ao You!~~~~~~~ Haha... Okok... I'm biased coz I juz wanna listen to Kenix de voice hehehe.... Die liao my gastric still now gone...
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10:36 PM
Watching Ren wo ao you now.... like the song alot.... Cool man.... Haix... 2molo practical le.... I'm afraid that I hurt her indirectly wif my words... I'm sorry k>? I think she noes who she is... I'm very very very very sorry...
Ok back to today... Dunno what happened today lehx after coming home from tuition keep on having stomach probs and gastric.... didn't help after food.... Gosh.... Anyway to clarify wif the ppl to stop them from asking again.... I did call in to the radio station on monday k? Dedicated song for u guys... shall dedicate again 2day so tune in ks? But it'll be quite late lar so guys, dun stay up hehe... went to sch for a while today,... V cute huh Mrs P... Keep on saying she'll see me everyday haha... Luv her alot and still have alot of other teachers.... Shall miss them alot after the big Os...
K the entry's short but I have to go... feeling very lethargic now... and to answer turtle's question... I did call in and am gonna try and call in again tonight... to wish u guys good luck for 2molo's Chem prac... I jus lurve 93.3 esp Ling Zhi and Pei Fen's time slot haha....
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9:52 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
"Zhen shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao"--- Jay's song.... Yeah..... She's still not happy... I dunno what and how to cheer her up.... And I oso dun like losing my temper suddenly in front of my frens juz like the other day I did at XR and today I did at GH... I'm sorry guys... Can I juz say that I'm not in a good mood... call it the studying blues or whatever... I dun give a da** lor...
She's not online le... Not happy still.... I doubt I'm happy too when she is not... It just adds on....
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11:03 PM
Umx... dunno if today I go sch is for what la haha... at first is go liao den look for mrs kee but she has too many ppl looking for her le so we went on with our work first... den in the end waited for abt 2++ hours den go for lunch... we were actually all complaining that she forgot abt us lar haha... which is actualli quite true because after that when she finally messaged hui xin we went in and she was like giving us that kind of sorry smile ya? haha... den after that the Mrs *or Mdm* Ong bought lunch for her so we let her eat lo... haha then went back wif her smiling at us... haha
Yeah then throughout the 'Q and A' session it was like we were joking? Haha... and Gui Hao showed Mrs Kee the foto of her beloved Mr Pek and she was like.... haha I dunno how to describe her reaction lar... lol.... then the time realli flies man coz we were there for quite long and... haha... so we were asking like a choo train... den Ren Yuan very cute.... at five Ren Yuan kept toking den suddenly Mrs Kee de fone ring and it was like... haha actualli Ren Yuan call Mrs Kee to remind her of the time??? Lame s**t haha.... It went something like this :
MK==> hello?
RY===> Halo?
MK===> Who are you?
RY====> The person behind you
Stupid lar... he waste his HP money lol.... den after that we booked another appointment with her so that she wun forget abt us again.... Den went to Angel's class to wait till 6.30 for Yue's tok haha.... So darn sian and tiring lor....
Oh ya... forgot to mention that yesterday night I finally managed to call into 93.3 at Ling Zhi's time slot within one try!~!~!! What a miracle... but before that I already sms her to tell that person that i am sorry for teh pain that I had caused her.... I mean... what to do? One has to give in what... so I forgave her.... Den coz normally cannot call in so I left my hp to auto redial and when Ling Zhi was like wei wei I den realised that I actually called in~!!! Oh wow... Ya then she asked if I was O level pupil.... haha... we chatted for quite awhile lar so basically she was like sort of cheering mye up ba? Haha... She wanted to noe what happened btw me and her so I told her after I wasn't on air.... And she gave me lotsa tips and encouragement.... Thanks alot Ling Zhi~!! So happy that I finally called in....
K lar k lar... think today's entry oso quite long le... Dunno when going TTSH lehx.... but hai... better dun say le or not I'll feel sad again.... Not only sad for her.... but oso myself... think she noes who she is.... I only can tell her to concentrate on the Os now ok? I'll always be there for her when she needs it.... can still feel her sadness lingering.... and she of coz still can detect my sadness too, even though I said I forgave her... Part of the burden is released le... but I still can't forget how much pain I caused her and how I am indirectly the cause of the unhappiness btw them...
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10:36 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
"I was born to make you happy"--- Britney Spear's song.... Am I born to do so? I really dunno... to that person: I dunno what to say and how to explain... And I am at a total loss now... "Lord, I'm doing... all I can.. to be a better man" But when can I be one? Am I the cause of their unhappiness? I dunno... I juz feel as if I cannot carry on... I told her to take care but it seems as though I can't do it myself.. I dun exactly noe if that was me that she was tokign abt in her blog... but whatever it is... I juz dun wanna think abt it...
Can someone juz offer me some advice? *My heart bleeds on the inside whenever I think of this* I dun mean to do it... I dun wan them to break up coz of me...
2molo my study break officially starts... I dunno if i will ever be back to CCHMS again other than tues... I'll miss everything... I juz am at a loss for everything
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10:22 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
My third entry for the day.... Nearly cried when they played the powerpoint slides.... Haix... "As we go on.... we remember.... all the times we.... had together....we will still be.... friends forever" ---- Vitamin C's graduation..... Although I can't remember part of the lyrics, I still feel sad when I look at the song.... But anyway.... today's ceremony was quite cheapskate on the whole... but come to think of it.... in the past I keep harassing my frens on when the graduation ceremony will end but.... now.... I only want time to stop there and then....
Coming back.... took quite alot of photos in sch today... and I seriously mean alot..... And i'll have alot of ppl to send to after it too.... well... but it'll have to wait lar haha... not much time now.... Today... as I went back to class, I finally had a full photo of mahjong family taken.... I'm so delighted abt that =) and yeah.... I'll mis them lots... Mrs Kee did my L1R4 wrongly!~!~! Haha....gotta go back and change it.... yeaps... and can anyone tell me how to upload my photos to this blog? Hahs.... And ya... forgot to say that Dom got the xiao cao, our class got the learning conducive and zhong zheng jing shen awards~!!! Yes yes yes yes yes~!! Feel so happy man... Our whole class was shouting so happily over it =)
Suddenly feel more sad than ever..... All my friends' are going good JCs... but as for me? Haix...
I wanna cry again... I dun wan to graduate~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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9:03 PM
Ok... to crap abt my previous entry... In a few hours' time, I'll be graduating from Chung Cheng... dunno why but sudenly I feel more emotional then juz emotional... And ya... Yue Yue gonna be VJC's principal???!!!! Good luck to them... but anyway... I'll misss alot of stuff... ='( Esp Mrs Kee *lurve di xiaoing her wif chem questions =P*, Mrs Choo*miss her lots since last year and she still remembers me!!!*, Mdm Tan *miss her questioning of why am I so hardworking and still have this kinda results and me replying her if I noe I wun be standing in front of her asking her questions*, Mr Yazeed and his sarcastic comments, Ai Jia Ah min and ZZ wif their chats in front of my table, disturbing turtle by calling her turtle =P, and alot alot alot alot more....
Forgot to add on that on thurs when i went back to chung cheng during recess, only left 10 ppl and we had to psycho Mrs Kee up to answer our questions.... haha den we saw another Mdm Tan in her when she said that she need to eat her lunch but in the end we asked her questions till quite late coz we waited for a lot of ppl haha... but..... hai... I'll miss her so..... still can remember last year's graduation when she cried in front of the audience.... Its still so vividly etched in my mind..... Wonder what she'll do later? Hai.... Gan chu liang duo ar.... zhen shi gan chu liang duo....
The other day I sms in to dedicate song again and I said that I was sad for leaving my class after graduation... den Ling Zhi very nice said some words to encourage me... ok even though I do noe tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi.... but I'm still sad....
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10:42 AM
Yest was quite fun.. Went to MJC's open house which was really to be honest quite boring coz nth much in there *no offence* and the facilites are quite cramp together.... but had quite a great time in TJC hehe... or maybe coz I wanna go there so I biased lar... we spent quite alot of time there oso lar... but dunno why I step into there I feel so moody.... But anyway went for the LEP tok which was quit elaright lar but got warned byu my bro that if I ever take it, my GP grades will definitely drop...
Den after that went ZZ's chalet while successfully skipping tkd for it.... Played mahjong again and.... Pei fen nbr read out my sms~!!! *cries* ya.... but on the whole it was quite fun... tried persuading my mum to let me stay overnight but she juz wun oblige... but anyway it was still quite fun in the small lil air con room.... took a lift out in her sis's car and her sis was v frenly hehe.... felt so paiseh when I dun recgonise the road home... Btw, JERRY ONG IS OUT OF SINGAPORE IDOL~! when it was announced, the whole chalet was like going yeah hahaha.... we were all so happy...
This morning KL called me... I dun really noe what I can do to help her I feel sooooo useless sudenly... she told me she dun wan to go for it today but I managed to persuade her... the rest is up to her.... the only thing I can advise her is to calm down and to tell a teacher abt it.. she made me realise what a great family I have compared to hers.... I really dunno what to say... I juz felt sooooo help less at this time... i noe that her burden is too big for her to handle thats why she comes looking for me..... but somehow this is not the way to resolve it... she has to tel someone... but... haix.... who? I suggested Mrs Kee.... but... haix.... I feel so sad for her...
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10:42 AM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Hope dang dang dun mind if I do a similar entry to her haha...
Yeah.... she reminded me of alot of things.... Sec One... I transfered in from Cedar... Well of coz ppl still think that I made the wrong choice but then again... Its been four years and if I had been in there... god noes what my L1R5 would be now haha.... Well... still can recall orientation that time I clashed wif Siyun, who was the guides CL that year lar haha... Den went for the guides orientation day... woah alot of food nehs haha... den did the frenship dance and siyun was like I look like LIn Xin RU? *rolling of eyes* No way... I'm too far away from that haha...
Yeap... den still recall that the first POP we actually had to pump 700??!! Wow... I still can recall those days when we had to do 100 every week and nearly every week oso have ppl cry lar... and as for me, me stamina was not that good at that time hehe *not v good now either* and I always had to switch to sit ups... haha... It was very very tiring... and there was another activity where I nearly fainted while during PT coz I was sick... my and how afraid I was of Geraldine then... haha... yeah.. she really gave me a scare on my first bday in Chung Cheng... When she shouted horribly... hahas....
Den in sec 2... nth much over here just that I spent most of the time wif my guides friends... yeap.... And in sec 3, was in this strange class of Empathy... Joanne was quite frenly and invited me to sit wif her... then came the 'terrorist' teacher ---- Ms Choa.... Could still remember her PMSes haha as it can be seen from my blog's archives.... Nobody dun dare not to do her hw and even if we dunno how to do, we will frequently copy from others... and the first question when we step into class will be: Chem have hw?? Haha... Those were the days... But I guess that was why our class produced results generally for our Chem lar.. hehe.... Den also recall that I always fall sick before or after exams... majorly I mean..... And that the schools bazaar by the lake was on my bday~!! Haha... but enjoyed it thoroughly though coz received alot of greetings, presents and can pull customers to my class' booth hehe....
Den this year.... We were all surprised that Mrs Choo wun be teaching us e maths anymore... I still miss her.... Mrs Kee came along as our form teacher.... and I can still recall being the technical rep~! Oh my... the numerous no of duties.... and I even had to endure Mdm Tan's lashings of the tongue.... hehe... It seems as though Renyuan always help me jie wei oso... hehe... many thanks to him =) And then came the POP this year... The sec 3s realli put in alot of effort for us... can still remember that before that I had chem lessons and was toking to Mrs Kee... Left poor me alone in the classroom doing A maths... haha... Den I had tuition after that... haha...
Haix... Juz realised that chung cheng left wif me alot of memories... I'll miss everything abt it.... Esp my friends.... My majong family.... I'll definitely not give the chalet a miss... And yes... I'll repeat myself again... 4EP ppl... if u are reading this, I have dedicated a song for u guys on yes 93.3's xian ge ji yi... the programme will start at 8.45Pm so I'll go ZZ's chalet to listen... hehe... Hope Pei Fen will read it out mans.... ='(
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Umx... thankx wor ah min... read her xanga le hehe.... yeah maybe lotsa ppl got see this but they juz dun leave messages ='( Haha... yeah... ponned ss mock today... 2molo sure kena scolding from soon kueh one so... hehe... I going to sch during recess... hehe... smart right? Actualli I go only for the sake of Chemistry and A Maths... Hehe.... Best right? Want to pon whole day one budden.... 2molo last day so wanna take photos of the class... juz wanna take for fun lar coz 2molo sure have alot of ppl pon one.... and ppl like Xin rou today pon haha...
Yeah.... dunno what happen to my bloggy.... think I must go and change my addy le.... haha... But heck to it..... Still slacking now.... decided to go for ZZ's chalet hehe... I'm gonna get killed my Miss Park for not going tkd... sunday grading nor..... hehe...
And to 4EP ppl... if u are reading this, I have dedicated a song to be read on Friday night during xian ge ji yi at 8.45 PM approxiamtely... *crossing of fingers* Lets hope she reads it out...
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3:22 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
Sooooo sian.... stupid lar blogger have problem I cannot see my previous colours.... lame sh** haha.... What is the use of a blog when u cannot see all of ur stuff? Oh wells...
Dang dang is sick agian... die lar muz be coz she caught my germs haha... Anyway I got tomolo off... went to see the doc again... wonders and thrills... But anyway i'm still going to sch... I'll miss it ='( Can u believe it??!?!! Haha... Anyway... Its so boring doing all those prelim papers... Yeah yeah... Sicko... But anyway... I hope I can go MJC for first 3... more like me and Jillian planned it thoroughly le... But anyway... yest went to buy graduation presents for mahjong... haha.... I v good ok? Spent so much of my hard earned money on it haha... So sads... Well... last time I'm gonna do that *sniffs*
Yeah... ponned physics mock today... haha... only to spend the 3 hours sleeping... go on...say I'm slacking for the Os... Sickos.... Yeah... few more days to graduation... gan chu liang duo.. haix... And we're receiving report books too... *god save me* Life lidat... sian sian sian... and yeahs... I'm gonna cry... *da emotional lil gal at work again* Gonna take Donna's cam to take photos of my class.... Lets hope I dun die so fast wif my never ending moans and groans haha...
ZZ having chalet on friday... my how come I have so many committments? So many open houses on fri and sat... I'll definitely go MJ if i can make it... so... what ever... I'll skip sch on fri if there is... serious... It'll be the first time I didthat... maybe I'll coem after recess on thurs haha... Lets hope I can go back to church after my Os... But then again... my parents.. haix... But I'll go occasionally... I noe it...
Oh... dunno if she read my blog le... but haix... whatever....
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8:48 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
I dunno what to say now.... Read Ah Min's xanga... I feel so sad.... Real depressed... Wah whatever u call it... maybe this are the feelings due to those gloomy days... But anyway if what she says is true and that the sch is gonna moderate again... I'll delightfully say that i can make it to MJC.... but... until next sat then I'll noe the truth... but seriously... I noe the sch's been moderating a lil too much... Dunno what to say....
And I still dunno if i shld forgive her... actualli.. I noe I have forgiven her deep in heart but... its juz hard to say it out and I noe she truely is sorry..... and I noe I am repeating my previous entry... sorry guys... but anyway... I doubt *crossing of fingers* that it'll affect the upcoming O levels... all i can say is that I only noe it'll affect and interfere wif my graduation mood....
"Wo yao fei" Umx... maybe I shld dedicate this song to 4EP ppl... coz we are graduating le... and that the song can I hope motivate them to fly and soar as high as they can to reach their dreams... Yeap...but doubt they'll listen oso lar... haix... graduation.... I dun wan it to come... nonononononononooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....... I'm gonna cry.. I'm very certain.... I am crying now.... Although I do noe that "tian xia wu bu shan zhi yan xi" but.... its still very hard to part wif..... esp my mahjong family!!!! Esp Hui Xin... I'm sad.....
Hey.. maybe we can set up a 4EP blog together~! After the Os I mean...
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11:47 AM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Bloggy Blog.... can u please tell me if I shld forgive her? I read her blog... I noe she is truely sorry.... and I noe she herself has been betrayed before... and I noe she wun be reading this.... but blog.... can u tell me if I shld forgive her ???!!!! She is after all... one of my best confidantes.... really... I dunno....Mind's in a whirl... Blog.... I noe I shldn't be saying this *yeah I'm sick mentally and physically* I dun wanna continue this way.... I wanna say I forgive her but I can't bring it out of my mouth... Serious....
If only someone could reply..... Haix.... how? how? how??? I admit I was jealous... and I admit I am juz plain looking.... But... haix....
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9:25 PM
Got inspired while reading JR's blog so.... sorry Jon if u think its copyrighted... I just had the inspiration from u... but of coz... I'll nbr beat u in terms of english and literature... I'm far from that....
Lanky and funky
We all know her best
mahjong and chinese
is her best forte
When in need
She's always there
Rain or shine
She's always behind you
Shiny like a lil' star
As humble as anything
She doesn't claim credit
We all noe she's the greatest
Studies or cheering ppl up
she'll always be with you
Dang is her favourite
and we all love her best
Emotional but pure
Her laughter fills the house
Quiet in her little corner
We all noe her feelings
I'm sure by now you noe who's that
And yes u're right
She is lil' miss 19
the star I'll never forget
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9:01 PM
Ums... wana zzz.... having headache le... anyway... went out wif Shi Ying to Compass to buy souvenirs for her graduation ceremony... which.... unfortunately reminds me of sad stuff of leaving the sch again..... But anyway... supposed to meet her 2molo to continue the shopping... den realised that I have E maths at Bishan 2molo... haix... so many commitments lehx.... But anyway.. .I'm gonna try and drag her there den we can do our shopping there too....
Couldn't pay attention during A maths tuition... and didn't pay attention during lessons too... on one hand I was writing autograph books and on the other... I didn't do the cedar paper coz I got too demoralised by it so I figured that I would juz move on? But that doesn't gimme the excuse to stop my revision though... sighs....
yeah then today.... nth much oso It was juz mainly doing maths maths and more maths... next week I'll begin on my sciences after the mock exam... yeah... It's time for me to buck up... so I wun be updating my blog most likely for probably a few weeks ba... no promises though haha... The juniors are having their exams.... good luck to them sia... hope they can do well... Just got to noe that Friday dun have to go to sch... so most likely I'll pon sch on weds or thurs... Have more time to do more stuff... But haix... have chem lehx... or maybe come after recess haha....
Dang de mahjong family haben finish setting up yet haha... But most of us are in liao lol... and speaking of that... I still can't bear graduating~! Dun think photos can make up much of the lovely memories I had during these two years of being in Empathy.... esp the few ppl who reallt lighted up my life... They noe who they are... yeah? haha... Mahjong ppl... haha.... apparently we still can't decide who shall be who =P Oh wells... *cough cough* haha....
Decided where we going le... haha.... As in the order we are going to the open houses.... man... so fast... ARGH~!!! I dun wanna graduate.... I wanna stay in Chung Cheng's 4 EP'04.... wif teh exception of some ppl *er hem* and of coz... how can I forget my guides frens?? They made up the pillars of my lives... haha... they noe who they are oso.... but doubt they'll read this oso... But more thanks to Dang who keeps cheering me on... And of coz.. *er hem* I oso make up an impt part of her life ok? Hahaahahaha.... Shall miss them alot *sniffs*
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8:31 PM
Friday, October 08, 2004
In a week's time we'll all be graduating.... I'll miss alot of things:
Going home wif hui xin, Gh, Ali and my "MAhjong family"
Studying wif Gui Hao
Disturbing them wif my Kenix =P
Asking chem and A maths questions wif Kai Lin
Crying during debriefs =P
Smsing in class
Slacking during PEnguin's lesson
Chatting and gossiping wif Alina
Going to the LT
Di xiaoing Mdm Tan and Mrs Kee =D
I'm very sure the list will go on and on and on and on.... haha abt the mahjong family... its somethign taht Hui Xin tot up of... haha.... shall miss her... alot ='( Die liao I sure cry during graduation one... I hope i can take lots and lots of pics... ='( ='( Ok this is going crazy....
Cough Cough Cough... when will it go away? everytime I sick is for very long one... haix.... Not going for tkd today... gonna watch Sg idol~! haha.... Toking to hui xin online now... juz realise I shall miss her lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots.... Ok.. i'm moping liao... haha
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8:01 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Bleh.... Been coughing like siao and feeling nausea the whole day.... juz can't vomit it out... die... hurry up lar weekend please come... Oh my....
Things aren't the same as before.... and I jolly well noe it even though I dun wana admit it... yes... I'm runing away from reality.... I noe she is still upset over the matter and no matter what I say I still can't cheer her up.... If the lord is listenin up there... please help me and her tide over this crisis... its driving both of us nuts....
I dun like it... I esp regret reding esther's blog coz I see all of the JC stuff that I dun want to see... I noe... Its hard to get over it too... but i noe its a minor matter compared to hers.... But I still can't find that smile I used to see in her... and neither can I find my smile until I can help her find hers...
Watching Sg Idol was my slackign time... oh boy Maia and Sylvester totally rocks~! But sumhow I can't bring myself to enjoy it... "On the surface nth seems to be wrong, but on the contrary everything is so so so wrong" Dunno where I heard this from...
Slept for 3 hrs groggily in the afternn.... was juz so tired out... and so am I now while updating bloggy... I juz can't find my smile.... Its not as easy when u noe they are not happy... If the person is reading this now, I juz wanna tell him/her that... I love him/her *as a fren of coz *er hem** and dun mean to irritate her wif everything... ya....
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11:33 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
This is craziness.... why are so many of the JC open houses on the same days? den caqnnot go all in same day man... crazy.... My cough and sore throat is getting worse....
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10:44 PM
Mans.... I'm sick again... been coughing the whole day wif sore throat now... and was having this horrible stomach cramp thruout until xinrou was liek askign if i wanted to go sick bay.... cannot lar... first 5 lessons all v impt and judging by my lit results... i can't imagine what will happen if i go home... so eventually I went home wif Gui Hao who is having a flu after chinese before mock.... Penguin very bad suan her until she cry... and that scores her more marks in my black book....
Haix.... I hope i did not affect too many ppl regarding my results.... god please dun let me depress others too... If so I would rather not tell anyone abt my feelings.... keeping it deep inside me and not let others be too affected will be better for me... at least they wun be so... ar....haix...
Dedicated song to dang yesterday... she was still awake... actualli wanted to ask her cheer up one but tot that she wouldn't want to hear it over air probably so I juz thanked her for everything... esp for being my fren... muz also thank her for her sms today oso... she noes i not feeling well... but ger.. not enuff time to rest lar... haix... well.... cheer up kies? think i shall dedicate one more song to keep her happy tonight... even if she will be sleeping *i hope.... she better*
Juz now in the morning.... walked alone to FRC.... felt so ever lonely... but also coz of the stupid cramp and my legs were like jelly.... Nearly fainted nia but i noe I can't coz 1st lesson is chem... ya its that bad.... haix....
Ok... nth much to blog... Dang its not coz i dun wan to cheer up but its juz that when everyone keeps toking abt it, i'll feel moody... thats all.... nth....
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10:19 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Believe it or not... I'm gonna cry again if I read one more sad blog...
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10:00 PM
"Wo xiang ku, bu gan ku" I dunno this came from which singer's song but its exactly what I'm feeling now.... checked my results yest.... i dunno what to say... Wo zhen de hen xiang ku... Ah wong asked me abt my results yest and I really broke down... GH really noes me best too and noes how to cheer me up... But.... I still cried in front of him and Jillian.... Jillian even promised me she'll go to work wif me if i really cannot go JC... many thankx to her and GH...
Recently its as if I'm drifting apart from my closest fren... and I have to agree wif her... why does things always have to happen in a cluster and not one at a time when u can take it? Its seems as if I'm only good at cheering her up but I can't do anything much too... reading her blog makes me feel so sad ya? I dunno if she noes this but... i juz wanna tell her that things can be the same as before... juz dun worry too much abt it...
I can understand why she is feeling that way... I really do.... But its very sad to see her in that manner... And I noe she is juz acting as per normal.... But she really is not feeling happy.... I can feel that.... But.... I dun wan to say le.... I'm feeling depressed too.... I only wan to tell her that I'll always be there for her no matter what... Therei told u.... I'm good only at cheering her up and nth else.... Perhaps God created me to lift others' burdens away?
Muz thank Jasmin for cheering me up today.... and for her studying tips of coz... if she is reading this... thankx alot ger~! u made my day :)
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9:10 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Sian.... was juz asking all of the seniors if I could get into a JC wif my points or not and YES~!! I can make it.... esp into MJC sci stream... i can't tell u how delighted I am to hear it.... coz MJ is the nearest to my hse and I can go there wif Shi Ying... hehe... den dun have to wake up so early liek now... but.... hehe... in a super good mood now... But now is scared I cannot get 4 bonus only but heck lar... can go MJ good enuff....
DAng... dun boast abt ur nasi lemak... hehe... my mum's homemade porridge is better hehe....
Umx... been comign online quite frequently sia.. die liao startign to neglect my hw... heck lar... hehe... yest watch teh ghost show so scary.... shall not elaborate here... Kk... the entry's short but gotta go back and hit my books again.. .sian
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11:23 AM
Weee.... my fav character....
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11:16 AM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Its ironic to noe how much I can comfort others and how much I can try to ease their pain while hiding all of my troubles underneath... Nobody seems to understand the reason why I cried so much for my prelims.... and no one seems to noe that I do care for them... and that I am not as happy on the interior as that I am on the exterior.... who ever understands???
Yest I nearly forgot to take my medicine... still considering if i shld go for tkd grading or not.... was chatting happily wif shiying until I realised she did quite well... while in contrary.... Was playing bball wif her too... but I suck at it... I suck in everything... yes I noe ppl are gonna say that I have a low self confidence but what do u expect? I can't find my own talents anywhere.. .I suck in studies, I suck in sports and I suck in practically everything.... And recently my body resistance is going down.... been feeling sick.... haix... I hate this kinda lifestyle why can't I juz fade off from the world??? This life sucks... everything suck.... I am not what I am...
Nobody seems to be listenign to my internal cries... I am a human too... I can't take in too much at one time oso... I feel as if I'm so helpless... can't do anything to help my frens, help others nor can I even help myself.... Esp when I got to noe that u cannot use bonus points for JC entry for 1st three months... what can be better?? I noe this is horrible.... It doesn't work out for me... I'm feeling in the pits... I dun love myself anymore.... I hate doing things esp when I can't even help others and I feel so useless in this world....
I've been telling ppl that I wanna go to HK and be an actress there... but how many of them really noes that its true? How many of them takes is seriously? I even find it hard to believe in myself.... They keep thinking that actresses have no future ahead of them.... but why?why?why? Is it wrong for a person to haev dreams???
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1:06 PM
I am 12% evil.
I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.
Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
Wee... I am only 12% evil hahaha.... got this from my jie's blog
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11:32 AM
Friday, October 01, 2004
@&*#(%^**() &*^&* type le den tell me have error wwhile publishing.... make me forget what i write le... anyway.... dang I AM SOOOOOOOO JEALOUS..... haha.... she noes why... and ya.. today v cute coz mrs kee gave us a v cute clip for children's day prezzie! haha... ok lar.... i noe i'm biased.... anyway HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY to all.... I still haben forgive dava coz he nbr give me 3 lollipop to make up for my tears ok... dummy teacher....
K anyway I juz love Sg idol yest!~~~~~ haha.... makign esther jealous... I noe... yeah... forgot what i wrote juz now le... anyway today's lesson was v sian... mdm tan came in shouting her lungs out.... stupid lar... den later still can joke wif us... haha... lame.... den mrs ho's period pass by v slowly.... sian.... penguin's one worse.... den was not paying attetion to Kwekky Kwek coz was writing Cui Wen's autograph book.... Ah wong owe me gui hao and Jillian pizza~!! haha... he's gonna die le...
Haix... having second thoughts abt goign to CJ... but its liek I cannot go SR oso lor... haix.... sucks... dunno how now...
Btw dang I am not juz sad abt results but oso something else... u shld noe....
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3:45 PM
ZZZzzzzz..... updating this specially for dang dang.... haha... ok... its stupid.... but... juz update for fun haha... Anyway, yest we v cute lor... its like we both update blog den we both leave comments and had a long chat on MSN... haha.... HAPPY CHILDREN"S DAY to all~! haha.... Mrs Kee v good still gif us a cute prezzie :P anyway.... i stil haben forgiven dava even though i happily sucked his lil lollipop... he oughta gimme 3 for my marks.... stupid....
Anyway.... today was generally quite ok lar.. but i didn't listen to kwekky's lesson.... coz was writing Cui Wen's autograph book so was slacking.... my physics got a C5 le~!!! weeeee..... Ah Wong owe me and Gui Hao a pizza le.... and oso Jillian de nehx... hehe.... YA....
And to Dang.... ya I noe u still haben got over it but neither have I because after hearing what GH said abt CJ.... I'm havibng second thoughts.... and I doubt can go SR oso.... *dreams shattered* *shattering of my glassy heart.... can anyone hear it??*
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