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Monday, October 31, 2005
Guess what?!?!! I got promoted!!! YAY!!! But it comes with a condition though... I muz pass all of my lecture tests in term one next year or not i'll get kicked back to either year one or poly.. Lol.. but the big thing is... I GOT PROMOTED!!! YAY!!!
Anyway.. today went to se my tutee.. she's quite cute but she does nto really noe how to communicate in english.. haha.. I'll try to coach her ba.. Den after that went to college le... Darn cute.. saw Mr Lim at the traffic light then greeted him.. the next thing Inoe was that at the GO he called my HP and asked me not to worry too much... and ask me to take care.. like i'll zuo sha shi lidat.. k lar.. prior to that I did tell him that I wun be able to predict my reaction if I dun get promoted lar.. so maybe he took it that ... haha.. i think i dun hafta say further.. at least.. ting shld noe right? haha...
Yeah.. broke down again in front of the 2 VPs *one of these days.. other than academic.. i really have to work on my vulnerability too (rolls eyes)* had a chat with them... Then after that called up Mr Lim to "bao xi" Haha.. he could actually tell that I was crying? Haha.. den he was liek saying.. "promote le still cry?" Haha.. But anyway.. this time round I also owe him a BIG thank you!! Haha...
Yeap.. then called up Miss Yee oso.. she was quite happy for me.. I'm very happy too coz I think I din let her down in going all out for a promotion... and I shall really try my best and work hard this hols... I owe her a BIG BIG BIG thanks... and everything.. haha... K i think words can't express my gratitude towards her anyway... So... THANK YOU MISS YEE!! For everything.. providing an listening ear, providing advice, trying to cheer a lil troubled gal up!! Hahaha... Maybe I should treat her to lunch hahaha...
Then went for dance... so anti-climax... ended up wif more blisters... and I juz kept making mistakes in front of him lar... GRRR... stupid Zaki.. but on the contrary... Got the dance jacket le!! Yay!!! It rocks =) Even though the quality not very good haha... Den I started to bao xi to everyone.. really wanna thank all those who helped to console me when I was down... or rather, helped me in one way or another... Wo zhen de hen gan ji ni men!! Yay!!
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You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish |
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible. |
Umx... very accurate uh? Hahaha... I really am very feminine nowadays.. haha... =)
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Sunday, October 30, 2005
Well.. another few more hours to doom? Rejoice? Or sadness? I dunno yet.. but anyways... watched 6 epi of RDOV at one go today.. haha... I'm darn good at distracting myself huh? Actually wanted to go over to Xin Rou's house for mahjong session de... haha.. budden =P bu xiang shuo lar.. haha
DIF 3 is showing in TVBJ~!!! Yay!! Another show for me to lament and critic over le.. or should I say.. drool over Kenix's acting? Hahaha... I'm turning into a potato couch man.. Juz today I was soooo bored that I kept watching tv and playing gameboy? Haha.. Oh man.. suddenly feel so like.. empty w/o homework... Although there is lar.. but I juz cannot motivate myself to do it as of yet lar until PW is over and the results are known...
Umx.. nth much lar actually.. Awaiting 2mr.. luckily hafta give tuition in the morning so at least something to keep me away from thinking again... And oso.. Maplestory!! Hehe.. I think i'm going crazy =P
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
Umx.. apparently Xin Hui has gotten the pics le wahaha.. thats good =) But I seem to be so zi lian in those pics.. oops.. =X
Anyways... today was super happening coz I went to support Ling Zhi at the Wisma event!! Haha.. finally had the time to "chase stars" again... She was quite surprised to see the 3 duckies and me lar.. haha.. Could tell that she was happy too =) So long nbr see her le.. miss her mans!! So.. after the event spent quite a long time chatting with her lor.. As expected.. she asked abt my results *gosh.. how many more tiems do I have to relive the fact that I might not get promoted??!!* But she was quite nice.. kept encouraging me.. haha.. yeap.. then got the 933 mousepad le!! Yay.. like finally? Haha.. saw Evonne there too and muz really thank her in advance if she really manages to find my VCDs in HK.. wahaha...
Then actually wanted to go home de.. duckies men brought me to k ge alogn wif them.. haha.. which was quite good also because I have been feeling down these few days too and can just forget abt the meeting on mon temporarily... then went to rent RDOV...
Sometimes.. I realise the purpose of going out with frens.. because with company around, you'll tend to forget abt the unhappy stuff that has been occuring.. but when you are alone, u'll tend to hu si luan xiang.. juz like me.. I noe whatever the outcome, i still haf to accept it.. But I really can't predict my reaction if I dun get promoted.. really.. I'm more afraid I'll fall into depression more than anything else...
Anyways.. I really wish that everything would juz revert itself back to normal soon...
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10:54 PM
Friday, October 28, 2005
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11:52 PM
More pictures.. Haha.. I've become official photographer of the week...

Shan jie.. umx.. that bag looks familiar.. hahaha...

The 3 of us!!! Dun we look liek statues? hahaha...

Oh XIn Hui looks so jovial here!! =)

Wu Ren bang w/o puppy and Xu Lao shi!! Haha... will def miss her... ='(

Wu ren bang!~ Dun you juz love the statues in teh college? Hahaha...

TJ 127 and Msis wong!! Will miss our dearest PW tutor who can spend liek dunno how long juz to explain to us how to write a citation properly over her HP.. lol...

Mr Lim and a few of us!! Haha... Mr lim looks weird w/o his specs... n his new haircut... erm.. haha.. i think our comments did a reverse effect on him hahaha...

Candid shot!! Haha.. he was trying to siam from Xiu Zhen's cam but he can't escape from mine!! Hahaha...

Chun dan aka danz aka June presenting wahaha...

Xu lao shi and us at the cha guan today!! Hahaha...
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11:39 PM
More photos~~! =)

Sometimes.. acting dao is not an easy job esp when your are too short!! Hahaha... And I still look fair =X

Candles on the cake...

Juz a snapshot of our class =)

Seems that bday gal dun like the cam.. haha...

Cutting the cake...

Me, Shan Jie and Xin Hui~! Hahaha...
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10:57 PM
As Promised.. photos!! Haha...

Wu ren bang and Ms yee 1

Wu ren bang and miss yee 2

Wu ren bang and ms yee 3

Wu ren bang and miss yee 4

Wu ren bang rocks!! Hahaha... And I look super fair here... Looks like I need to get a tan.. =P

Shan Jie, Bday gal and Xin Hui~! Haha..

Vera's present

Us at Swensens!!

Ronald Macdonalds?? Haha..

Piggy back!!

Danz, Pekkie and Puppy!!

PB dino at work.. hahaha

Miss Lim and SCG 25~!

Vera and me.. oh man I looks so... urgh in the photo...

Windy effect hahaha... my poor hair needs a cut again...

Ling and Xuan.. hahaha... they are juz so amusing ;)

Me n Ke Si.. was not feeling happy that day so... din really smile...

3 musketeers? Hahaha...

Ice cream fiesta!!

Dummy danz at work.. hahaha
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10:54 PM
Umx.. am blogging while I'm sending photos again.. hahaha.. clever strategy ;) But anyway.. today was a super slacking day coz 1st 2 periods was the farewell concert for Mrs Lim.. Man.. If I were her.. I would really cry to bits.. hahaha... But nevertheless.. It was a great and touching concert =)
Yeap.. then it was GP.. another slack lesson.. hahaha.. Was juz doing the GP survey.. Then jiu LEP le!! I'll miss Xu Si Wei alot.. esp when I leave LEP next year ='( Uh oh.. I feel tears brimming in eyes le.. =P Din really listen to Jiang Hui's lesson.. Her lesson automatically acts as a sandman for me and Cindy hahaha..
Den Ms Yee's lesson.. din do tutorial =X But was not in the mood to really pay much attention seriously =P Juz took down additional notes *when I haven even read finish the lecture notes!! Argh...* Yeap.. last lesson of the day, term and year le.. Was quite sad.. coz after this.. SCG 25/05 wun be the same anymore... And I wun noe what is the outcome.. I noe I haf to get prepared.. but then again.. Umx.. I really dunno how i'll take it...
Went for Cha Guan instead of dance.. coz of the supreme back ache.. thanks to gymnastics man.. Next time, I shall juz attempt somethings that my bones are able to handle.. *eeeeouch!!* Learnt the art of tea *loose translation* and took photos wif Xu Xuan Zhen lao shi!! She's so nice =) Reading her comments on my shou ji will really give u the heartwarming feeling lar.. haha.. I feel so yi yi bu she to LEP suddenly ='(
Went to Chinatown wif Cindy, Xiu Zhen and June.. haha.. we were like what? Shopping aimlessly? Chinatown also got nth much to shop lar =D Ate chwee kueh hehehe... Den went home.. for the first time I felt so darn happy coz finally I dun hafta transfer to the different modes of transport le haha... =)
Results of the appeal are said to be out next week.. I really hope to stay wif my SCG... Mon still have to see VP =( Sighs.. why am I always so stressed up? I swear that once after the As I shall juz slack and relax like nobody's business man!!! Qi si wo le.. I gotta learn stress managemnt these days...
And I think I have caught the flu virus again.. Sore throats on.. ARGH!!!
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
Wah... My 500th post le ar? Haha... Anyway.. my poor upper body is aching from the gymnastics PE elective.. darn.. how am I gonna dance lidat with Zaki 2mr? I'll be a goner man.. Grr... Maybe I should just quit dance even though I like it.. haha...
And anyways.. I din have a good start for today... this morning went to LT2 for the briefing.. as expected, VP was toking abt the promos stuff.. its kinda rubbing salt into the wound lar.. and once again.. it made my heart waver as to whether I made the right decision nots... After the briefing.. curbed the urge to cry le.. until outside the classroom, siu lun and hui xuan was asking me how was it.. gosh and I juz broke down again... It seems as though I juz can't walk out of the shadow? I dunno... I really admire Xuan Yun.. She's taking things in her stride while I juz kan bu kai??
Oh.. and it was quite bad coz I cried before my OP.. but anyway.. juz wanna thank my PW mates who even asked me if I wanna push back the OP date to 2mr nots and kept consoling me.. thanks gals!! Oh and Thanks to Angel n Jesslyn who helped me take note of civics stuff... and consoling again.. Haha... and as expected.. I din really do well today for OP coz was crying b4 that.. Cool.. Ting actually read my mind haha.. wasn't in my best condition anyway.. but luckily.. I was "professional" enough to not let my feelings show.. haha... thankfully =) Coz the comments by Ms yee was still quite alright.. haha.. yay.. din cry in front of her again.. haha..
Umx... Then Ms Lim's last tutorial *sniffs* Very relaxing today.. for the first time I felt quite confident over benzene.. haha.. and Ms Lim sounded so happy today =) I'll definitely miss her alot...
Then Mr Lim's lesson.. haha.. PW OP lor.. kao so small details he even can notice lar.. was so surprised by that and our whole class was like "Wah!" Proves that both June and my analogy of ppl having high foreheads being clever is correct.. haha... Yeap.. then after that we kept taking photos wif him until he was like saying he felt like a star? haha.. he's juz so funny =) I'll miss him too.. If I promote that is... He's one of the bez tutors i've ever seen lar... =D
PW lesson.. yet another presentation.. became the timer again.. Shan Jie aka Ling SHan's presentation was so hilarious that even Ms Wong burst out laughing!! Haha.. she's always been the kai xin guo of our class anyway.. haha.. =) Den we (PW grp)took photo with Ms Wong.. Last PW tutorial le.. ='( Will miss her too...
Den after the PE elective.. went for dinner wif Pekkie, Mimi and Ting.. Was toking to Ting thruout.. we both haf our fair share of problems that can't be exactly solved.. or rather.. we dunno how to solve them... Umx.. Den on the bus we recalled the fun times we had wif Mr Lim!! Like how yest when Kar Keat wasn't here, he asked Shan jie where he was!! Haha.. then Ting added that Shan jie's face went red.. hahaha... And oso the time when we heard Yi Qian Nian Yi hou in the opp classroom then we went like JJ... then Mr Lim was like "LIn Jun Jie?" Haha.. he nearly caught us there and we were like mu deng kou dai lar.. haha.. then he said he does listen to music and that he's not that old de.. hahaha...
On the whole.. SCG 25 really had fun this year and with the tutors.. special thanks to Mr Lim, Miss Lim and Miss Yee.. haha.. but... it wun be the same next year le =( It'll seem weird with one person missing and diff tutors...
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Zzz... sending pics to like half the world now.. haha.. Uploaded them to photobucket le lar ppl.. if u really need, please get the password and username from me then save it into ur own comp k? Coz the files if sent are gonna be quite big.. and if u are contemplating of using those uploaded in photobucket to use it to go and develop.. better not.. hehe.. coz resolution is horrid after being hosted k? =)
Anyway.. have decided to appeal le after much consideration yest and today.. thanks ppl for the advice you've offered and the help that you all haf rendered.. you all haf been great man!! =) Watch out for me next year.. I promise I'll be much more hardworking than I am next year to prove that I CAN AND I SHOULD BE PROMOTED AND THAT THEY DID NOT MAKE THE WRONG CHOICE...
Today's bio prac was fun!! Even though the situation was super lame.. haha.. Yeap.. then after that took photos wif Ms Yee.. haha.. bu kui shi photog de teacher in charge haha.. chose the nice location.. =) Yeap and if u did notice.. wu ren bang haf one less person there coz we all took turns wif the cam =)
Civics.. dropped LEP le.. now awaiting for the results if i can get promoted.. was quite men men bu le juz now coz the wait was driving me nuts and i aws very anxious ya? Haha.. but anyway.. afetr gg to Swensens to celebrate Vera's bday by downing a huge huge ice-cream.. Felt much more better.. haha..
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10:33 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Upon hearing what Mr Lim has to say again today.. I am holding back my decision yet again.. Indecisive I am.. but this concerns quite a number of things.. To me, its not juz a case of promotion or not.. its also another thing called the stress factor... Am listing out the pros and cons now...
Think i'll go to bio tutorial 2mr empty-handed.. sorry ms yee!!
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10:03 PM
Monday, October 24, 2005
Umx.. quite sad upon hearing that mr Lim not following us up and that Ms Lim wun follow us up too.. seems that most of our tutors wun be following us up.. the message that Mr Lim put up on the yahoo grp was so.. I juz cant find the correct word to describe it.. touching? I dun really noe.. but he say until like.. so sad like that.. make me feel more sadded... But which ever tutor I get.. I'll nvr forget him de =) So.. THANKS ALOT MR LIM, FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO THE SCG AND SO ON.. Haha.. he wun see this anyway... Juz doing it =) Nvr seen such a dedicated tutor like him before...
For Miss Lim.. I have lesser things to say since at the beginning of the year she din seem that frendly until recently when she was pregnant.. However, I muz admit that she has been a superb tutor in successfully passing on the neccessary info to us and she can be quite patient in explaining concepts at times.. Even though our SCG is super quiet.. haha.. Thanks Ms Lim, for all that you have done this year and I'll nvr forget that time when you gave us advice after teaching us chem bonding...
Umx.. dunno if Miss Yee following up nots though.. Lofthouse.. hopefully not ba?? Haha.. I dunno.. and speaking of Yee.. had a "chat" with her today regarding whether I should appeal or not.. umx.. and I haf come to the conclusion that I will appeal.. seriously if I really do get another chance, I'll thank her alot.. she has done alot for me even though the others are not aware.. Seriously, she's not a bad person lar.. And when you tok to her u can really feel at ease de.. haha.. personal opinion k?? No offence wor.. Haha.. den was liek toking to her abt idols? I think she was quite shocked to noe that I do join fan clubs.. but hey.. I'm juz a normal teenager who also have idols de mar!! Haha.. though I'm not too active in them coz currently studies are my utmost priority...
Umx.. and speaking of that.. I'm having OP rehersal in front of her on thurs again!! Argh.. good luck to me.. Hope I wun be too nervous...
K lar.. back to my tutorials.. night peeps!!
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
Oh man.. I din noe that Miriam Yeung can do ballet so well lar!! Her pointed toes is sooooo powerful!! Haha.. Speechless man.. Umx.. I'm contemplating of taking up adult ballet haha.. as an outside hobby lar.. but might not haf time though.. haha.. umx.. wanna learn both piano, ballet and cont wif my tkd at the same time.. haha
Today.. watched RDOV the whole day!! Haha... Then PW group came over to do the OP.. had pizza haha.. yummy.. Then suddenly tok abt promotion criteria and stuff.. umx.. I dun care abt it that much le alr.. its already a ding ju.. so might as well try and fight for it? Awaiting advice from the tutors...
Gotta cont wif my shou ji le.. haha tata...
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9:33 PM
Umx.. juz came back from dang's house after playing poker the night away.. haha.. met up wif gui hao they all.. quite a nice feeling there to see part of the mahjong family together again.. haha.. a good thing that we live close to each other isn't it? HAhaha.. hope they had fun too =) haha..
Yeap.. Fri's dance wif Zaki was really tiring.. He seemed to be encouraging us but yet his dance moves are always so hard and weird lor.. haha but I mzu admit that they look super nice lar.. haha.. But then again.. I suffered numerous aches on my body juz coz of him.. grrr...
Anyways... I am enjoying my kind of lifestyle now (other than the darn PW..) by choining all of the HK drama series haha.. yeah man.. or shld I say I am very very tired of JC lifE? Haha.. the workload and everything is taking its toll on me.. my health.. my energy.. my normal self.. haha.. I do agree that JC life is suddenly.. much more stressful? It keeps pumping adrenaline through my body lar even though I myself dunno it until sometiems I feel breathless and breakdown.. or when someone tells me that.. haha.. specifically.. my tutors.. haha.. even more specifically Mr Lim and Ms Yee haha.. So much so that I dun even noe that they are joking sometimes.. haha.. juz like that day the bio ans sheet thing.. haha.. zhen shi de.. I take things too seriously le? Haha..
Bleahs.. I am slacking.. haha like never before..
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Friday, October 21, 2005
Ok.. 2nd entry today... for the ppl that I tagged right.. refer to the 1st entry =)
Anyway.. I wanna make use of this entry to thank a few ppl.. Firstly.. wanna thank Yuan Ting.. for being there for me when I needed it.. and understanding me.. and what I was going thru for the past few days as well as the constant encouragements that kept me ongoing these days.. haha..
Secondly.. I wanna thank Xin Hui.. She was the one who was there for me during my breakdown.. She accompanied me to and fro TM juz to make sure that I was feeling better and that I wun cry anymore.. Really need to thank her for being there when I most needed it too.. esp when I cried in front of her and how she kept asking me to look on the brighter side.. thanks!!
Thridly, I wanna thank my whole PW group.. Esp Cindy though she wun be seeing this coz her comp broke down haha.. She knew I wasn't feeling happy at all times and seem to be able to detct my feelings and read my mind? Haha.. Anyway.. thanks alot gal.. for listening to me vent my frustrations...
Umx.. I also wanna thank En Ci!! Haha.. was quite surprised when he suddenly asked if i was alright today.. haha.. he's a great and nice guy =) Thanks for cheering me up and giving me hope for gettig promoted =)
Haha.. actually I wanna thanks alot of ppl.. for being there for me when I was feeling down.. seriously.. ppl like Ms Yee and so on.. wu ren bang and alot alot more!! The frenship bonds will always be forged there man.. thanks alot peeps!!!
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9:45 PM
Umx.. Thanks Ting huh.. for teaching me a... erm... new game? Haha...
Instructions of the tag:
Given a topic, you are to write down your answers in your blog, and then send the same topic to 5 other people. Write down the names of these 5 people and link to them on your blog. Go visit their blogs to notify them that they are tagged. The 5 people who are tagged should, in their own blogs, write down the name and the link of the person who tagged them, answer the same topic, and send it to another 5 people, etc.
And so, the "really fun" topic is, Your Top 5 Quirks.(Not in order of merit.)
music: need it to do work. its part of my life that can't be removed
charmed: like the storybooks but no time to read and watch the show
movies: Cool man!! Pity no time and money to watch em' all...
energy: dance needs it.. no wonder I keep feeling so tired after dance practises haha...
haha so the nxt 5 ppl r..... drumroll pls....
Yu Min, Jin Yu, Xiao Ying, Xin Hui and Hui Xin!!! Have fun!!! =)
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
Am getting freakingly sick from PW... And the stupid comp of my hse dun wanna cooperate wif me.. wth..
Anyways... I might get promoted by tutor's comments but if so.. I would rather not get promoted seriously.. wanna noe why? Firstly.. Mr Lim and MS LIm wun be following us up to year 2.. 2ndly.. I dread to noe how much on my foundation do I haf to catch up with... 3rdly.. I hafta choose a subject wihich I really need to drop despite all subjects being impt for the courses that I want to enter...
After speaking wif the rest.. I noe my results aren't that bad off as other ppl.. budden again.. it can be quite sad to see others getting promoted yeah? Umx.. some ppl... or should I say most ppl.. are so much stronger and not as bulnerable as me..
Kk.. gotta go back to PW le.. sian bo...
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11:39 PM
Apparently.. you win some you lose some.. LEP was quite a disappointment coz I got another AO for it.. gosh.. Most of my results went up only by a little and only Chem was the one that went totally downhill.. haha.. well.. I'm used to crying over results le so am kinda numb now.. awaiting tutors' comments le.. looks like I might be retained... Haha.. But then again.. My one really all also borderline cases lar.. so might get promoted.. we'll see how lor.. haha.. If can't... Shall find more abt the syllabus next year? Than decide if its poly or JC le...
Anyway.. If I do stay in TJ.. I'll say that I'll miss CG 22/05 (even though there wun be a CG system for us next year le) and also SCG 25/05!! They totally rock man... gal power!! Haha..
Yeap... waiting for next week? Haha.. I dunno what is in to come for me as of yet but.. I'll look for things in a +ve light... hopefully hehe.. I'm pessimistic by nature anyway...
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Umx.. 2nd entry of the day.. I had a nervous breakdown.. Cried 3 times today in front of diff ppl.. Coz of my results... yeah.. haha... But i'll be fine soon k ppl? Thanks to Xin Hui who tried means to cheer me up.. thanks lots gal =) Yeah.. then Ting.. Cindy and so on.. but sorry to ling and li xuan coz I had to skip dance.. I juz was not up to it after crying for 3 times in a row ya? Really sorry...
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9:21 PM
Part of the results are out le.. Am kind of disappointed with it... but more of horrified and petrified by it... True enoigh, I did improve for my Maths and Bio by 6 and 7 marks respectively.. bUt its still not up to my own expectations.. I still failed Maths and at this point of time I still can't tell if i even will get promoted or not coz it seems that I did badly for my LEP oso...
More importantly.. I've discovered how it is a great thing to realise that you haf a lot of ppl beside you to give you the support when you need it... Esp my frens.. many thanks to wu ren bang, shan jie, Ting.. and many many more... Yu Min too.. for giving me the neccessary encouragements for dance... academic results.. and everything.. I noe that I am very vulnerable and stressed up at many points of time this year, I'm glad that our frenship was sustained and that you guys were able to tolerate with my rants, complaints, cries, moans and groans...
Today was the graduation concert for the year 2s... Gan Chu Liang Duo... Dance was quite alright.. but I broke down again upon hearing my results.. May fate decree it.. Hopefully... I dunno how to express myself well enuff... And yeah... I enjoyed my time in TJ... thanks to CG 22/05 and SCG 25/05... You guys rock!!
And much as the suspense is... this are the results so far...
MathS: 29 (up 6 marks)
Bio: 39 (quite alright.. up 7 marks)
Chem: 32 (a disappointement.. but had no complaints coz I really hu lue it)
Left with LEP and GP... best of luck ppl~~
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3:29 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Xin Li Jiao Cui.. thats what I can use to describe myself these few days.. I feel so stretched out.. and bummed out.. Although I look normal and bouncy on the exterior *coz I kept playing abt wif Cindy's hp bear hehe* and I can still "play" around wif the teachers and my fellow SCG mates.. I'm worried abt the results next week..
Much as I can encourage everyone not to think abt it.. I can't really convince myself.. Every night before I zzz I'll start to think abt it.. Can't help it.. And much as prepared I am to go to a poly next year.. I can't bear the thought of leaving my frens.. Ppl like my wu ren bang.. Xin Hui and Ling Shan and gang.. Ke Si and Yu Min.. and lots of things that I juz can't put it down..
I realise that I can be a good listening ear.. I can do my best as a fren to cheer ppl up when they're down and everything.. but I can't seem to do that to myself..
Anyways.. throwing the promos aside.. I rented RDOV le!! So xing fen.. but my excitement was brushed aside by PW coz went to Wei Ling's house after that.. Draining... And my whole body's aching now.. haha.. Yest open house dance too much le.. Den saw alot of my juniors.. haha
Btw.. yest's art exhibition was marvellous lar!! Haha.. I wun even haf known it until Miss Yee dropped by for a chat and I was like.. "Woah!" Haha.. anyway.. she din noe or rather did not want to drop much hints regarding the bio paper.. making me more nervous.. zhen shi de.. haha.. Den tried to pull her to watch our performance.. haha.. Zhen shi de.. she din come eventually anyway.. haha..
K lar.. nth much to blog abt le.. juz that I kept dancing and dancing and dancing!! haha.. and the contact lens part ;)
And Xin Hui.. Ur welcome =) Was juz doing my bit as a fren.. haha...
TJC rocks... SCG 25/05 rocks!!
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9:56 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Umx.. managed to get the contacts into my eyes!! Haha.. I noe I should not wear contacts lar.. but bo bian.. performance purposes...
Haha.. today.. dance prac.. Keep forgetting to come out.. then Li Xuan was like luffing at me.. and I keep luffing at myself coz I always am slower by 1/2 a beat for the chorus!! Haha.. not I dunno the steps k? Haha.. den Aprine said that I obviously noe my steps but I'm not confident of myself!! Argh... Confidence is really one thing that is gonna get me down ya noe...
K lar... mei shi le...
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9:58 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Yay!! Xin Hui is finally disgcharged from hospital le.. Am glad for her.. and ya.. the entry below states my lil piece of advice for her lar.. so Xin Hui.. if you happen to read this.. read below!! Haha... impt for u wor!! =) Get well soon!! Miss ya in sch soooo much mans!!
Today.. super slack lar.. haha... clean up.. den me and Ke Si go get pail of water.. halfway saw CG 25.. oh my that CG is sooo diam lar.. until I dun even dare to say hi to Ms Yee until she waved lar.. woah.. Must be because our CG clean air con classroom den very small so very noisy... haha... Then went LEP room to slack and watched Constantine with Xiao Yin, Ke Si and gang haha... Then jiu borrow labtop for 2molo.. haha... Did abit on Written Report.. den totally slack le.. I was juz so tired anyway...
Went to buy waffle b4 dance prac.. Was feeling so sleepy there den I forgot part of my dance steps!! Alamak...Mind block lar.. dunno why lehx.. yest got 7 hours of sleep still felt so sleepy... Den cont dancing all the way...
On the way home was feeling horrible... guess its fatigue... So.. gg off to rest now.. sayos!! Happy PWing ppl...
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9:27 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
Umx.. Promos finally over le.. But somehow.. i dun feel quite happy.. In fact.. I feel as though I have not rested for years.. and I just feel like hibernating.. it suddenly seems weird to not study at night and mug with friends...
Anyway.. was juz chatting wif Xin Hui again.. Well not exactly chat.. more like trying to hong her to sleep.. and trying to get her not to worry abt so much things when she should take care of her health first.. Xin Hui: If u happen to read this: Jian4 Kang1 Jiu4 Shi4 Cai2 Fu4... Bu4 yao4 wei4 le4 bu4 bi4 yao4 de4 shi4 qing2 er2 fan2 nao3 k?
Was juz wondering.. Am I right or wrong to learn how to let go? How come it seems like its a harder process then to just bury it all in the heart and not to dig it up again? Does it really mean that letting go is an eventual process even though I dun wan it to happen? I noe that burying ur deepest secrets inside your heart is not good for the mental well-being.. but sometimes.. reality is really very hard to be dealt with face to face..
In the event of so many recent things that happened, I cam to realise that I have really not even let go of a single bit of thing that I am supposed to have done it long ago.. I do admit that I have to face it much as I dun liek it.. But it seems like its not easy.. to face it alone..
I'm juz a typical girl who falters under stress. yes I admit that Eunice was right. Only that this time round. I'm not facing the normal type of stress.Academics is now the last thing on my mind.
Awaiting Xin Hui's recovery... missing her and Ling Shan's bubbly voices...
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10:16 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
And my prediction came right!! Darn the cramps... Luckily 2mr last paper le..
Praying hard for Xin Hui.. Hope to see her in sch soon!!
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10:09 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Umx.. I feel as though the promos are like over even though I still haf one last impt paper that is the crux towards my promotion to year 2.. but seriously.. I dun think it matters anymore.. As in.. not that i'm giving up on myself.. more of I noe I need a period of time to destress.. haha... Yeah.. xiu xi shi wei le zou geng chang yuan de lu mar? Haha..
Yeahs.. Of course.. If i can get promoted...the first thing i'll do is to thank all of my tutors.. esp Mr Lim *who keeps tolerating my rants and cries abt maths =P* and Ms Yee.. haha.. Den after promos.. 1st thing I'll do is to rent Revolving Doors of Venegance!! haha.. I wanna watch my Kenix act in it.. den maybe find out still haf what other HK shows I've missed out.. such as Fantasy Hotel and lots more!! Haha.. And well.. if I dun get promoted... my next step will most prob be looking for a poly le ba? Ok.. specifically Ngee Ann Poly.. coz I wanna take mass comm.. but if I dun get mass comm.. I'll see how then.. haha..
Hope Xin Hui is feeling better now.. I noe sometimes worrying nor thinking too much can help things.. but well.. its juz a natural reaction of mine again.. and thanks Cindy.. for offering to share my thoughts and burden and trying to cheer me up =)
Watched last epi of TITS yest.. cried like dunno what when Belle tried to commit suicide... den when she got over her grief.. yi bo wei ting yi bo you qi.. Zoe's heart failure turned for the worse.. haha..
Conclusion? I'm too emotional nowadays.. with so many things going on.. wonder how much more I can take it.. I have a premonition that I'm gonna fall very sick after the darn promos...
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10:19 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
2nd entry of the day.. today's chem paper was cmi lor.. I'm dead.. tot could rely on chem but now.. hopeless case le lar.. peeps.. see me in orientation next year...
Gan chu liang duo... Take care k Xin hui?
Sometimes.. I really dunno why I can comfort others but yet not comfort myself.. I really long for someone to tok to... someone to share...
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10:32 PM
I know I shouldn't be here blogging when in a few hours' time I'm gonna haf a chem paper.. But I juz wanna vent out my frustrations ya??
Juz gotta know that Xin Hui kena dengue.. I was quite shocked.. And quite affected by it too.. Ppl around me keep falling sick.. and.. it happens at the wrong time you see? My uncle.. *I think some of you might know what happened* and recently.. Cindy juz told me that her CG mate got cancer.. I know that this is an unevitable and unavoidable phase that all humans must go through but in particular.. Xin Hui being sick now reminded me of alot of things.. alot of things which I have been trying very hard to forget.. and alot of things which should not even be in my mind now...
It juz makes me realise that no human is infallible.. and how sometimes we really do take ourselves for granted.. Da ji shi ren sheng zhong zui chang jing guo de.. but why does it always happen at the wrong time?? Furthermore.. mum went to M'sia again.. triggered some of the flashbacks which should not even have been there...
Ok perhaps.. some of the people reading this wun understand.. But I'm sure those whom I'm close to.. my frens... should know why I'm writing this...
Back to topic anyway.. yest's maths and bio paper was sucky... How nice.. hopefully can get AO pass for bio?? *cross fingers* Dummy maths... made careless mistakes.. think my 30++ is abit ke wang bu ke ji le...
K lar.. back to my chem... Happy mugging..
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9:06 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I really need all the strength I have now... Be it God or whoever.. I need it for tomorrow's two papers.. which are currently my weaker subjects and I have been staking in a lot of time for them.. the least reward that I ask for is that I at least get 30+ for maths and hopefully an AO for bio... Yest took temp... mum was sleeping so din disturb her... got slight fever... luckily now better le.. *sigh of relief*.. I admit I'm over exhausted...
Jiayou.. I can do it... *cross fingers*
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7:08 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
I beg to change my view abt conquering promos confidently now... gosh I juz realised that I'm really too tired out le..
This morning.. 8-9.30 I was in college to ask Ms LIm questions.. den the dummy security guard dun wan to let me out lar!! Darn.. in the end got Yuan Ting to come down.. help me intercede... ended up taking a cab down to tuition... which ended at 12.30 and by then I was already very very tired out le.. really.. I had no breaks in between and I got so pissed off by the security guard too..
So.. reached school at 1+ went toilet b4 gg out to grab a sandwich as lunch... Looked very tired there and then so before Ms Yee came down I really needed to nap for a while.. but sadly.. she came down very fast lar.. haha.. so by the end of the 1st paper that we went thru.. I was really very tired le.. subsequently can't really concentrate.. So ended up when Xin Hui was asking her the concepts.. I took the chance to bi mu yang shen.. Eyelids were really too heavy for me le...
Yeap.. after a while... if Xin Hui din tok abt essays I would really haf forgotten to ask her abt that... But eventually asked her that... Ended up feeling more demoralised myself by my horrific grammar... Haha.. she spotted it anyway.. and she reminded me abt what she said on fri.. ok.. not i dun wanna follow yeah? Juz that I can get so tired out that once my head hits the bed.. off to see Zhou gong I go... Haha... so... ya eventually I will do that lar.. As usual she was toking abt the effort being evident there...
K lar... den jiu went home.. walked together wif Xu Lao shi.. she's so nice =)
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10:01 PM
Monday, October 03, 2005
Umx.. today.. GP paper was still ok.. did a question on education again!! haha.. K lar.. only bad side was that I din haf much time to do my AQ AS USUAL *rolls eyes* Den write until my poor right hand went limp right after the exam...
Umx.. shortly after that began the round of consultations.. haha started off wif chem lar.. den 12.30 ms lim had to go off lor.. miss yee darn cute.. 1/2way into my session wif miss lim she suddenly pop up and ask what time i want to look for her.. Then she and miss lim suddenly tok abt how we start to become smart and do past year papers.. lol.. like real... haha...
Yeah.. so.. after the session wif miss lim.. went to look for miss yee.. spent another 1.5 hours there.. juz on past year papers again haha.. dunno how come i suddenly haf the kick to keep doing it.. And.. oops.. I think I was at it again lar.. suddenly burst out in quite a harsh tone when ms yee said that bio was not juz abt memorising and i retaliated by saying that I din memorise... think both she and Xin Hui were shocked by my reaction and ms yee was like saying sorry.. oops.. sorry =X think it was juz my natural inborn mechanism.. hehe
So... went for lunch to satisfy the growling stomachs.. den look for mr lim.. haha chatted wif him for awhile lor.. den he said that based on what I asked him.. my vectors was ok.. umx.. in fact.. I was not even aware that I knew so much abt vectors subconciously coz I kept thinking that I dunno lar... Umx.. Maybe.. like what don said.. I really need to pass a test to boost the self confidence.. not even a single digit that is.. then i'll be very happy =)
K.. line-up for 2mr.. look for Ms Lim at 8 am, maths tuition at 10 am... den finally.. bio again at 1.30 pm.. goodness.. I'm hafing 3 subs everyday.. haha...
One paper down... 4 more to go.. jiayou pepes!! I SHALL CONQUER THIS CONFIDENTLY!!
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9:05 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
And I was juz reading Eunice's blog.. sound very familiar huh? Actually.. Yes I do admit that I cry coz I was stressed up but please bear in mind that I can't control my tears and emotions sometimes... And even if I do cry.. I will try to hold back the lump present in my throat until it gets too big to be held...
Nth much.. juz wanna clear the air.. Although I do admit she is right.. I do feel abit... erm.. targeted at by the way she uses her words... *no offence gal!!**
K alr.. 2molo 1st paper for promos... Good luck peeps
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1:47 PM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Am super exhausted today.. din accomplish much in the mornings though haha... Dunno why suddenly all teachers like to offer chocolate.. haha... maybe coz today is childrens' day?? hahaha.. anyway.. ate another bar.. as in real bar of chocolate from Miss Gn today along wif the others hahaha.. how nice ;) I luv praline.. haha..
Yeap.. den did abit on genetics.. maths doing 2mr... gonna do EoM now.. which I believe is gonna be disastrous.. coz I dunno how to evaluate a dummy article that I was not even interested in.. and the best part was that it constitutes to 10% of the entry criteria.. wth.. and speaking of that.. I haben copied my script onto the cue cards!! Gosh.. and my script is super longggggggggg and draggggggggggy... haha...
Umx.. Like waht Xuan Yun said.. Monday shall be the Lims' day.. looking for Mr Lim for maths... haben confirm yet.. den Miss Lim for organic chem.. confirm le but dunno how long the consultation will last...
Well.. I dunno why things keep happening around me at a time when they should not.. Things such problems that my parents think I dun like to interfere *which isn't really true.. I do care for the business at heart...* And how my mum is being worried really bags me down alot.. I know I should really learn to let go like what Ms Yee said.. but.. I dunno.. I juz can't? Am so tired out by these stuffs.. Jia Jia you ben nan nian jing... but why is this getting harder den expecteD? I really long to find a confidante... one like Yah Yah whom I can tok to.. but Yah is always busy... I dunno... I juz dunno.. am at a loss...
Yeah.. anyway.. good luck to all TJcians having promos!! And also.. HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!!
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11:19 PM