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Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Umx finally I can be up and jumping abt though I muz admit... I do feel drowsy after eating the cough medicine but the best thing is... I dun have to suffer from vomitting anymore~! Haha... ok... bad way to start an entry...
Anyway went out to rent Kenix's Shine on You or qing chu yu lan and oh my.... I understand now why the show was so popular coz it really is cute!!! Haha... Enjoyed it so much... but its a real pity that i could not get the TVB calendar =( Wanted it so badly so that I can put it on my table and admire Kenix daily... ok not that I dun have her newspaper articles or magazine reports to gloat over =P No one seems to be online these few days... so sian ... Actually wanted to go out wif dang dang they all one but on 2nd thought better dun coz I still haben completely recover... Besides I can watch my VCDs too haha....
Yup wanna officially welcome back Katie from Kenix's forum!!! Haha... so long nbr see her le wonder how she is?? Ums... she didn't leave behind her blog too so dun really noe how to contact her hehe... Yup and muz thanks Jess for her concern too =)
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10:11 PM
Monday, November 29, 2004
Feeling so darn weak now... vomitted the whole day yest even medicine oso vomitted out... woah... looks like i am gona lose some weight this week... anyway... jess i changed the link le can u go see if its correct? and dang dang nbr update blog le haa... so sad nth much to read le... ok.. gg le bbuai
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12:23 PM
Sunday, November 28, 2004
First of all I muz say... happy belated bday kenix~!! So sorry that i could not come online yest... high fever and throat infection.... sucks haha... but anyway can't even walk properly yest was juz lying in bed whole day den dad took me to see doc... and now my whole mouth smells like medicine... argh... horrible.... i dun even dare to take the INH haha... scary mans...
Ok.... on fri went wif dang and jas to TJ and took jap lunch den go NY... Ny not that bad lar haha... coz the library very big but only haf one building kinda cramped up lar... den dunno if can go for the job or not coz it seems quite tiring and the working hours are long... den i dunno when my throat infection gonna get well too... sucks... haha... okie... nth much to update... later gg to listen to zui xin long hu bang den go and watch my chuang shi ji 2 haha...
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11:25 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Heylo I'm back from the chalet.... in reply to ppl who tagged, jess-- I have got over wif it, toopid kor-- I am not that old lar~!! toopid i dun even haf wrinkles okie?? Haha....
Ok... back to the chalet... wanted to stay wif ali but changed my mind whne i saw so many ppl staying so haha... yeah... den went blading wif ali, hui xin, gui hao and ppl haha... had a great but tiring time there den coz except for hui xin, I think the rest of us dunno how to blade den we had a hard time coz we were on a slope??!! hahas... but after quite awhile of struggling... other then ali I think we could get along haha... an I so have cheng jiu gan coz I can blade!~!! But haha... have to stop only after a few attempted moves =P Den after that went back to help out wif the BBQ but nth to do so after drinkig some sort of solidified coke went to the arcade to play haha... for the first time I got 1st among my frens!~!! Weee.... haha... fan bai wei sheng wor haha... den the 2nd time got 3rd haha... suan le ba I am soooo games de bai chi haha..... Den go play the marvel com or whatever de fighting game... gosh nbr play until so jialat b4... dunno haf to haf how many ppl keep on taking over haha... but we sure had fun there ;) Den go play the chi version of the slammy thingy haha... of coz i duno how to play... so went for the eng version instead haha...
Play finish le den we went back chalet haha... played uno... ate pizza *yums* play heart attack... den play dai dee.... haha... think ren yuan got shocked by my sudden shouting of asking him to shut up coz he was super irritating wif his crap la haha... haha den i kept wining *only for a while* wif my pairs and everyone groaning haha... dang was like saying i dun throw five cards de haha... okok... crap... den went home wif ali b4 getting a drink for myself... was sooooo thirsty haha... Haix... zhe yang yi zou jiu bu zhi neng zai ji shi xiang yu le =( Anyway... no teachers turned up... so disappointing =P
Ok den in the morning went back to sch to colect testi... Lame lar only go for half an hour den waste my 3 hr transport time... haha.... but anyway duno who write my testi one... haha... since when did I show an analytical mind for difficult concepts and sci and humans??? Haha... but anyway... testi haha... whatever lar... its abt the same for the others isn't it?? Den go penguin office slack... asked her some questions on LEP den she ask me muz be prepared for hard work if I really want to take... crushed my confidence.... den tok to gh nearly wanted to cry... was holing back... did not want to cry in front of penguin... haix.... why did I do badly for my prelims? Now everyone oso can go TJ but I cannot... ok maybe u guys will think that I shld be able to fit into NY *if i ever do get in* but... i'm feeling very very insecure rite now coz we are all sepearting... I dunno how to put the feeling across properly in words... all I can say is... haix...
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2:15 PM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Feel so darn bored now... bored to tears hehe.... nth to do and I really have been hugging the TV again for the whole day... haha I am starting to become a potato couch again... hehe but then agan... EP chalet is coming~!! And I realy can stay overnight le soooooo happy hehe... But that means hafta bring sch u there hehe.... spoiler lar...
Umx... was reading thru dang's blog de past entries... realised that I really cried alot and kept on breaking her promise *oops* haha... anyway my precious diary... ums... I went thru my past entries and suddenly had the urge to write in chinese today coz i was simply toooooo bored... and I am trying to complete my letter to Jess too hehe...
Ok think thats all for today... hope can go out wif dang they all tomolo to kill boredom... or not I can really rot and stone in front of the TV and com hehe./.. Btw I have gotten a new email --->
kenix_cravings@jessicahsuan.com please email me here if it has big attachments ok? Thanks
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10:26 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
&*%&^$%^$^ type so long in the afternoon then they tell me got internal prob... so actualli the internal prob is becoz they trying to redo their services?? Sian bo... they upgrade their services oso no use always have prob one....
Anyway.... yest was a happy and great day hehe coz... the Os are finally finally finally over~!!! Haha... outside the hall everyone was screaming, hugging and crying together coz the agony is finally completed... But now... haha life is worse becoz... I cannot find anythig to do~!!! Just realised that studying actualy can be a le qu haha... okok I noe u guys think I am mad le... Yeap But then again.... yest symbolises a new beginning.... coz all of us are really seperating... =( Feel so sad to think of seperation even though I noe that tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi....
Ok then it was much of a mixture of feelings yest after the whole thing and my mobile kept ringing~! Haha.... first it was coz my junior aka lao gong say got job lobang for me... its not taht bad lar actualli six dollars per hours five days a week... but the bad ting is that have to work for 3 mths so... no choice but to reject it... Den after that called mrs kee coz she asked me how was the paper... Ali and I nearly half murdered her when she said that the paper was easy... Haha... I mean... to her everything shld be easy isn't it?? And ya muz thank dang dang for buying the extra long dangling earrings for me and oso the big big big lollipop~! Haha...
Ok so after that went out to Orchard wif dang and ppl lar... the bus trip was so darn long coz of the major traffic jam... And not only that... we only managed to settle our stomachs down at 8.30 coz everywhere we go it was literally all packed~! Haha... not much of a surprise lar since on our way there we saw quite a no of ppl in uniform le... Initially wanted to eat jap food but eventually settled for Hans lar haha... no choice... And OMG if I had known that the roast chicken would be juz a drumstick that I had so much difficulty in cutting it... I wouldn't even have bothered to order it.... all thanks to Xin rou's recommendation... haha... But luckily thanks to Gui Hao... she helped me cut the meat out =P Didn't managed to finish the nice cake though coz they were toking abt toilets there... haha... but the good thing out of it is that at least I dun haf to gain so much calories haha....
Yeap den we went to walk walk around lor haha... Couldn't find a wallet that suited me so hehe... wasted alot of time over there... so we went to the Orchard fun fair and took the roundabout ride haha... ok it was juz the four of us... And I was the only one shouting haha... Yeah thast why they call me the faint hearted one haha... coz when I came out of the ride my legs were like jelly... hehe... But hey... I was afraid of the speed and the height there mar... Still can't imagine how I can enjoy these kind of rides when I was younger mans... Haha nv da zhen de shi shi ba bian wor... hur hur....
So on our way home while looking at the cool and nice lightings... saw this christmas tree that was like shaking its bon bon??? Haha... kinda cute lar... besides it has lights that will change colour every now and then hehe... Yeap its cool... hehe... Then after that dang they all go watch midnight show while I went home... just in time to catch my Kenix de show (su shi qing zhen) hehe... even though the show's ratings were not that good lar but it was nice to see her winning an award last year for her character in the show... Haha... further more... there are kids in the show and I love children hehe... Thats why I wanna do volunteer work in a children's home... anyone interested??
Ok lar... as for today... which was soooooooo super boring.... I was practically hugging the com for the whole day as well as the tv... Hehe.... watching the repeat for the TVB anniversary mar... Shirley *yang si qi* was kinda cute.. .could see tahts he was totally shocked when she received her award coz she was crying haha... Then it was so grand man haha... the opening I mean coz have alot of performances... hehe... Next year.. hope its kenix who get the award... but many congrats to Bowie Lam and Gigi Lai hehe... her canto name sounded like lychee =P
Ok... enuff crap for today... see u guys around... can't wait for EP chalet~!!!
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9:11 PM
TVB 2004 Anniversary Award Winners
My Favourite Television Characters:
Jessica Hsuan (Fan Lei Fa - Lady Fan)
Kenix Kwok (Miss Wong - Shine on You)
Roger Kwok (Morning Sir - To Get Unstuck in Time)
Bobby Au Yeung (Headmaster - Shine on You)
Raymond Lam (Kau Chung - Twin of Brothers)
Bowie Lam (Suen Pak Yeung - War and Beauty)
Moses Chan (Hung Mo - War and Beauty)
Charmaine Sheh (Yee Shun - War and Beauty)
Ada Choi (Vivi Lee - To Catch the Uncatchable)
Gigi Lai (Yuk Ying - War and Beauty)
Dayo Wong (Inspector Mok - To Catch the Uncatchable)
Sheren Tang (Yu Yuet - War and Beauty)
My Favourite Male Lead: Bowie Lam (War and Beauty)
My Favourite Female Lead: Gigi Lai (War and Beauty)
My Favourite Ensemble (drama): Dayo Wong & Ada Choi (To Catch the Uncatchable)
My Favourite Ensemble (non-drama): Eric Tsang, Chin Ka Lok & Jerry Lamb (Super Trio Show Returns)
My Favourite Most Improved Male Artiste: Ron Ng (Twin of Brothers)
My Favourite Most Improved Female Artiste: Shirley Yeung (Angels of Mission)
My Favourite Extraordinary Male Artiste: Chan Hung Lit (War and Beauty)
My Favourite Extraordinary Female Artistes: Sheren Tang (War and Beauty)
Special award for Outstanding Achievement: Leung Shun Yin
Credits go to Em of tvbspacenews.blogspot.com~!
Haha... my Kenix got win award wors~! and den Ada oso~! Haha... a pity Flora didn't... hey I'm here to torture u guys on my TVB so if u r not interested... DO NOT read on... haha... jkjk....
Ok this is Kenix b4 the whole anniversary thingy... haha her jewellery set cost over $100 million HK dolars lehx~!! Thats like how many zeroes??!!!
and that is ada, sheren *deng cui wen* and my dear kenix~!!! Haha... Ada has a very nice tan mans... haha and my kenix looks sooooo wonderful in her fur clothing~!!! Wow....
that is kenix backstage....
Erm wow... Frankie looks like he is in some type of medieval age????
Thats kenix wif her award and oh my... Charlie Chaplin?? Haha... no lar that is Dayo wong who juz won his award lar haha...
And that is the big winner Gigi Lai *Li zI* Hehe... even though I really want Kenix to win but she dun have much representive series this year... =P Nvm... Next year... next year~!! Haa... she will have lotsa series...
Haha... Ok shall torture u guys wif more pics some time later... coz hafta update some others ;)
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10:59 AM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
Weeee... .2molo last paper chem le thats why slacking now... can't watch sg idol later =( Nvm.. I'll watch the repeat.. .die that means cannot watch chen hui shan's show too =( Haha... Suan le... 2molo 2molo 2molo!~ Well if I not gg out den most prob i'll be staying at home and becoming a potato couch by watching the TVB awards ceremony...
If u're wondering why I am slacking over here... I can jolly well tell you that I have completed my chem and am intending to reread everything becoz nth went in.... sucks... last paper le always slack until lidat des... Today de a maths paper was easier den I expected... So hope I can at least get a B4?? Hopefulli bas... coz I think my paper one was a disaster... so.... why am I here ar??? *blur blur*
Haha.... can't wait for da EP chalet on the 23rd but now Ali and I dunno whethere going on the first day or not coz Hui Xin they all dun wan =( Then lidat v sian les... Haha... Butanyway I'm sure if really only left the two of us there'll be something for us to do rights?? Hehe... anyway the bbq will be on the 2nd night... cools... Hehe... sian now... nt much to do haha... dun feel like doing chem.... *groans* MCQ.... reminds me of how I piaed that day the whole book... wah really dea mans... May Lady Luck be wif me tomolo becoz I dun think i can rely on my Physics... *prays hard*
Oh ya... forgot to say a big thank you to Yin Rong and m,y Calcy mei for wishing me good luck today~! Haha... maybe its coz of them that the paper was easy =P I tokin crap..... Gosd... studying really can make u go up to dee extremes... EP rocks to the core anyway =)
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5:48 PM
Monday, November 15, 2004
Haha... I finally got the cantonese channel~! Haha... Then can learn my canto le... hehehe.... and then can torture my frens wif my toking of kenix hehe.... jkjk... Nth much to update lar.. cya guys!~
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1:29 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Lalala... having fun joining ada choi (cai shao fen) fan club... hey she had a chat session wif her fans lehx~! How cool and nice... wish i had joined the fan club earlier hehes... finally completed my geog mans... 2molo have to start chem le... he ask me whether i free 2molo... haha cannot lar my chem haben really started lehx... ok i hear protests from dang dang....
Zzzz.... hope to get an email wif ada's name inside hee... very de grand nehx even though dun have kenix de but have ada one oso not bad... her acting is quite nice mar hehe... she's kinda petite wor hehe... anyway... nth much today juz that I kept on studyign while listening to 93.3 again hehe... and i am listening to it online now too... yeap yeap.... afternn got ling zhi's voice den I got soooo darn shocked wors haha... yeap and she is gonna host for five st hours 2molo~! Wee.... but hope she wun fall sick wor *choy* no wonder lar coz pei fen hosting xian ge ji yi now...
Umx... Still cannot find ling zhi's website and she nbr tell me haha... okok... I'm toking crap lars... but what to do? So sian so updating abt my fav djx and actresses ba? Hehe... EP chalet~! Haha... can't wait for that mans... counting down now I noe alot of ppl sure will do what we did during prelims de... that is.... to get crazy~!! Ok... I dunno why I am in the holidaying mood now but... I shldn't... whateva... haha... And thanks to Agatha for linking me~! Haha... like I real despo lidat wan ppl to read my blog... lalala... jkjk...
Can't wait to send Jess my letter which I haben written after the O levels... hehe... she's my penpal *winks* So jess.... hehe... start writing~! =P
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9:19 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
I'm juz trying out...
Thats me Kai lin yi shan and ali...
And that is a super lousy sylvester pose hehes...
Mrs kee + mei jie...
And this was taken during teachers day... Looks like I am super shi bai to noe how to host pics only now when the pics were taken so darn log ago... haha
And that was taken during Zz's chalet
And that is our dear class genius wif her first in class plaque~!
Finally... the whole clique on graduation day
Another one of us....
That is our xiao cao....
That is me, Mrs Kee and Kai Lin....
Thats us and that toopid yue....
OMG.... My complexion is soo.... duhx
Ok.. I think that is enuff to feed ur eyes for today haha... tatas~!
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10:39 PM

LOVE is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You? -- Updated (7/21/03) brought to you by
Wow... how nice... I am actuali something called love????
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10:16 PM
Well... I am not in the mood to study geog obviously coz nth is going inside my head... even though its supposed to be only two chapters?? Haix... Juz managed to glance thru the whole of my physics guide book once yest and as for the last few chapters I didn't go thru coz those I think during the last few hours can browse thru....
As for chem... if u consider doing the whole TYS de MCQ as revision... I didn't really start on it lar coz some of the topics liek water and pollution are so super dry that I can't even bring myself to look thru them and besides... I like the subject as a whole not the content!!! Haha... surprised? Nehx coz I hate energy changes u noe exo and endo but the reast shld be quite ok lar juz that I'm pure lazy... and yeah... mole calculations sucks too... hehe...
Sian.... nth to do now lehx... I'm already counting down to the remaining papers and my freedom... hehe.... and I think my parents will let me stay overnight at the chalet this time round~! Weeee.... hehe den we can go as a class to get our testis... umx... wonder what will the teachers or mrs kee or penguin say abt me? Hope they didn't extract all from what I wrote lar... but anyway that was quite stupid lar coz I didn't write much oso... dunno what to write abt myself... I'm too negative abt myself I noe...
And ya... do I look that angmoh to u guys?? Oh my that day when I went out wif Jillian's fren he was like saying I dun look as if I listen to 93.3 one and I look as if I came from an English background~!! Haha... no lor maybe coz I speak to my mum in chi den speak to my dad in english... but I chat more wif my mum lar... So I'm more of the chee-nah pai and I really shocked that guy *I think his name is Gary* when I said that I wanted to take up LEP in NYJC *if I can get in lar.. if not then no choice have to go CJC le =( * Haha... how fun...
Btw... can someone confirm exactly wif me when is the class chalet?? Coz the first time I received the sms I was being told it was on the 22nd.. .den i think mrs kee said that it was on the 23rd... so when exactly izziT?? But anyway either ways we will still go as a class to obtain the first three months de admission forms and our testimonials ba.. that'll be fun =) It will even be better if someone brings a mahjong set then we can da tong xiao... the best mans haha...
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9:46 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
Hey guys... nice new layout right? Hehe... Umx... basically today juz went to compass library to stone wif jillian... Haha no lar I go teach gui hao the chem stuff that she literally made use of me to ask mrs kee haha... jkjk.... no offence... and yeaps then study physics.... Later go captain's cook to study wif jill and her fren and we had a hell of a time suaning her haha.... jkjk... But... I still dun feel happy... why? Ppl may ask.... well... i suppose that or anyone else shld noe le lar....
Well... he sms me to say he can't make it... umx... heck lar now O levels more impt.... Sian can anyone teach me how to post my own pics??? Umum...nth much to say lar.... not many ppl online oso so maybe i'll juz go offline and hit the books again... wonderful life i've got haven't I??
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10:34 PM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
wo zhi neng shuo... wo zheng de kan le ta de dian zi ri ji wo hen shang xin... wo de xin you ru ta de yi yang ne me sui yin wei.... wo zhi dao wo de wen ti bu neng he ta xiang bi dan shi kan le guo hou wo zhen de hen xiang ku... huo xu wo ying gai shuo wo yi jing ku le... yin wei zuo tian wo gang gang yu mrs kee shuo wo yi jin jing liang zai bang ta le rang ta fen xin ke shi... wo shi bai le.... wo shi bu shi hen mei yong? wo she me dou bu xing... jiu lian zhe ci... wo ye bu xing...
wo hen xiang bang ta.. ke shi ta si hu bu xiang tou lu chu ta de xing qing... biao mian shang ta yu ping chang mei you she me liang yang dan shi.. wo zhi dao... wo zhen de zhi dao ta hen nan guo... ke shi ru guo ta bu shuo chu lai, wo ye wu neng wei li... ke shi... wo zhen de zhen de hen xiang bang ta... wo bu zhi gai zen me ban....
wo gang gang liu gei ta yi ju ji yu... dan dao di ta neng fou ming bai wo de xin yi wo zhen de bu zhi dao... wo zhi neng shuo... wo hen mei yong... wo zuo bu dao wo ying gai zuo de fen liang... wo zhe ci zhen de luo lei le... zhen de luo lei le.... bu guo zhe ci bu shi wei wo de ai er ku... shi wei le wo, wei le ta er ku....
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10:29 PM
OMG OMG OMG~!!!! Dahpne and Sylvester's perfromance totally rocked!!!! haha... I can't find another source of music for my blog mans... hehes... and I changed to this sweet layout hehe... pink and blue... both my fav colours... ok lar.. I wasn't that crazy oer pink as jasmin is =P Haha... But the thing is that I have too many blue stuff le and its well... erm... making me feel blue? Haha.... so I need some pink for a change... Oops... I was singing along wif daph's ni yao de ai.... Haha... Yup I lurve singing too =P
And Oh my!~!!! Ken Lim actually said she sounded better than dick lee singing cantonese~!! Haha... interesting... and I'm proud to say that I can catch their words of cantonese wor hehe.... I can understand lehx!!! Haha...a major sense of satisfaction.... uh huh... was chatting wif dang dang yest online and wow... I actualli came up wif a 'chi poem' haha... ok lar.. not exactly poem lar but it juz u noe... have the rhythm there....
And today is Li Min's bday so i juz wanna say... HAPPY BDAY AH MIN!!!! MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY~!!! Haha..... I noe her for four years le so... yeah... hehe...
Umx... sian diao hehe... later have to go and hit da books again... sehx *hehe... luckily dang dang nbr say its copyrighted =P* Okok.. I noe I going crazy le... *ok... since when have I not been crazy??* Haha... she best go swim alone.... I nearly forgot that today was deepavali until I heard my mum's voice at 10.30 am haha... How nice... its as if a holiday doesn't make much of a difference to me =) And I still have the same to say to everyone.... good luck for the remaining papers and jiayou~!!! Last few papers le... must cheng zhu~!!! I'll try to sms in to Ling Zhi again ks? Haha... Ok... she'll see the return of the sam again....
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9:15 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Umx... today very very tiring.... haha coz woke up at abt eight plus by my dear loud alarm clock den ate maggi mee cooked by my bro *which had an uncooked egg oer there =P* den it was back to doing chem and i'm proud to announce that.... I have completed my chem TYS.... de mcq =P yeas.... den listened to yin yue ri ji agains *juz adore ling zhi's voice =P* den go bathe and prepare to go MP library entarance les... Haha.... waited for Kai Lin and Mrs Kee's car den go her house.... She asked abt dang dang..... so dang dang if u read this.... u shld noe that alot of ppl care for you des ok?
Mrs Kee de house very big mans... haha... juz the koi pond alone is enuff for me to wow le =P Hahas... so there we stayed for four hours... gosh... time sure flies man coz we actualli stayed there doing nth except for chem =P Chatted alot of stuff there.... Mrs Kee complained that i drank too lil water but haha... think dang dang esp shld noe that in half a day, i normally drink less than one sip out of 500 ml de lehx.... hehe.... she practically had to "force" me to drink water coz its she specially pour one... haha.... So.... tireds.... Her son very cute ar!!!! Haha....
Umx then after that both our mums started calling lar haha... coz quite late le mar nearly 6.15 liaos.... mum thanked mrs kee.... so haha.. den mrs kee drived us out to bus stop... so nice of her haha.... umx.... been quite a fun and tiring day... Good luck to the O levels ppl~!
PS: Thanks to all the ppl who keep showing me concern... esp those who tagged me.... esp dangs, ducky and toopid kor... I'll prob be fine soon... dun worry I wun let it affect me too much but all I can say is that if u ever see me cry again... it mite or mite not be because of him... But I will be fine... i juz need some time....
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9:56 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Letting go will prob be the last thing in my mind now.... I have finished writing my yin yue ri ji le.... Nights peeps.. have fun studying... and all da best... yea ling zhi read out my sms again.... night
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12:22 AM
Monday, November 08, 2004
"Ai shi hua er de fen fang, shi hu die de chi pang, shi shang xin de pu gong yin mi shi ta de fang xiang" ---- Wang Xin Lin's song... Its very meaningful the lyrics I mean... Because... that is what I am feeling right now...
U noe.... my heart is breakin.... breaking into a thousand pieces... I noe I miss him.... Today's E maths paper sucked...to the core... On the bus today, when it was juz me and gh I couldn't hold it anymore.... I poured out all to her... I noe I told dang and Jill before... but the pain is worse.... esp when she came looking for me today... I wish I didn't read my jie's blog that day... and neither do I wanna face reality anymore... I can't help it...
Was listening to yin yue ri ji juz now... I felt that that person is sooooo lucky... having a realationship for 8 years... 8 long years... I feel so tong ku... Before I took my nap I was crying my eyes out... literally crying it all out.... "Wo de ai... ming ming hai zai"--- Sun yan zi's song... I noe my love for him will nvr diminish... And I noe we are still jie and mei... and I cannot juz stand by and do nth.... I noe its not my fault that they broke up.... But why izzit that my heart is stil broken? Why izzit that I have to endure this kind of pain looking at them from afar? Why me?
You noe... the great thing is that ppl who noe me shld noe that I try to comfort ppl and help them solve their problems... But This time round... its different... I dun dare to tell her that there is still the slight tinge of hate over there... but what can I do??? She is my mei... and I have always been the one that she always look for when she has r/s problems.... Its not the first time but only this time round... it is very very different... I have forgiven her... haven't I? I mean... I just have to try and help her.. .I dun wan her to suffer.... Alll I can say is that Love Hurts...
To that person: U shld noe that I have forgiven you and u shld noe what I mean... And well... let time heal all things... I dunno if I shld agree to him or not...
I'm currently working on 2 pieces of yin yue ri ji.... gonna send it in during this period of time...
~*~* kEnIx^rOx *~*~
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4:39 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
I dunno why feeling so blo**y emotional today.... I juz can't stand it.... was doing e maths paper till i cried... oh mans I cannot belive that... But anyway I hope I wun screw up that paper or else I'll really peng.... I wan my A1 des.... Dad's putting stress on me... say what he predict I'll get 10... 10 pointer??? OMG... in his and my dreams.... If I ever get that I can go jump mans... If so then maybe I'll try for my dream college... ok think da 4EPers noe what college i toking abt.... Its real hard to part wif ur frens...
"To forgive is divine" Wells... it certainly was hard to do it... took me alot of courage to tell her that over national radio... and I called in summore... gosh.... Yeahs.... But anyway... even though there is a crack that I reckon will be quite hard to mend again... lets hope that after the Os I can still get over wif it totally... he offered to give me help... shld I turn him down? I dunno... I'm afraid to even see him now.... and I noe I do need help in maths and physics....
~*~* kEnIx^rOx *~*~
keeping them in my heart @
5:56 PM
I miss 4 Empathy I miss 4 Empathy I miss 4 Empathy.... *sniffs*
Ok... Anyways 2molo--- E maths paper 2... all the best to all the pplo out there still have the big Os and the big As... esp to ppl I noe.... yea u noe who u are lar.... Hehes.... lazy to type all out... Be it ppl who read this blog or not... best of luck....
Can't wait for the 4EP chalet.... Ok I noe I'll most likely be playing mahjong hehe.... Hope my mum allows me to stay overnight if I tell her in advance..... I dun wanna miss out the fun hehe.... Yeahs besides.... we might be gg as a class to sch to get our testis and oso option forms *noooooooooooooo* Yeah.... no choice...
Okies.... Think I'll be able to make it for the guides camp wif Yah Yah they all... but hehe I'll most likely bring along the discman to listen to my Liang Jing Ru and Ling Zhi's prog hehe...
~*~* kEnIx^rOx *~*~
keeping them in my heart @
5:30 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004
Ello guys I'm back =) Haha... hey peeps, go check out Jess's blog~!!! Its soooooooo cool with the colours and of coz.... my Kenix =P Btw, she came to Singapore yest~!!! Haix... stupid Lit paper lar... hai me cannot go see her.... =( Lol.... Jess.... muz gimme ur add!!!!! Haha....
Today's a maths paper was still ok.... but I still am not that v confident.... Umx... well juzs see how it goes le ba... Sian... actualli I have nth much to blog abt lar coz of the big Os... sucks... But all I can say is that the school's paper is of coz much worse... and guess what? Today dun have i and j vectors~!!! YES~!! Haha... but that means the paper 2 will be a damn killer... sighs...
Haix... juz read both xiao von and jenny's blog.... noe how it feels for them... I mean many ppl out there will feel that its cool to go overseas and study.... but when its forced... =( Juz wanna tell them that they can still keep in contact des.... kinda depressed now after reading it coz.... after all she was once my junior whats.....
Well... I wasn't realli that depressed until he asked me abt my a maths again but thanks for his offer of help anyways.... sigh.... why izzit that i can always tell ppl to cheer up while successfulli adding to so much troubles of my own?? U noe whats the best thing? This year de sec 2s have chem and bio combi... I noe that i will fare better definitely in bio... but haix... no point toking abt it anyways... No mood..... hate Os.... hate depressing lives.... the only thing that I look forward to today is that i can finally listen to the radio at night.... dang dang ar... dun worry le ks?
~*~* kEnIx^rOx *~*~
keeping them in my heart @
1:55 PM