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Saturday, February 28, 2004
Ok... first two papers of the common tests are down, six more to go... *sighs* yesterday was the release of the results and our sch improved quite significantly.... which means that mr yue would like to officially put all the stress on us again and say that if they can do it, we can oso.... dun beleive? wait till monday and hear his speech most likely during assembly... Even though I got A1 in chinese... .this is just the beginning.... well, at least it guranteed me a place in the LEP programmes.... that is if i want to join... i haben decided yet....
Haix.... got home at abt 2++ then was so darn tired.... my bro ask me not pester ppl 2 much... but me being weak in maths is my fault ar? i stink in maths my fault? i may have to drop it my fault? i work so hard but no results my fault? Haix.... sometimes i must admit i do let my emotions get the better of me but i am already trying my best.... no one seems to understand~! Mye eyebags are getting bigger... they're hidden under my specs.... nobody seems to notice it.... I really am at a loss sometimes..... I noe maths need practise but its not as if this can be acheived overnight right>?? I'm feeling really tired..... really very tired.... .I wish i was the one who was taking the results yesterdy.... instead of waiting for one painful year..... instead of my family.... seemingly pinning all of their hopes on me....
Sometimes, i half wish i have something to vent my anger at.... I'm realy very tired.... very very tired..... its not fun to face failure evrytime you noe you tried ur best, esp when you burn alot of midnight oil to get and understand ur work.... Its not easy... and its much more horrible when you really tried but still get ranked at the bottom few of the class.... esp when ur teacher arranges the test papers in accordance to marks... you think I like it? I'm telling you no...a firm NO.... I'm also a human being who has her own limits..... who is not perfect... who needs help... desperate help...... I dun think i shld even exist in the world now..... I really wonder if there is still any meanign in life.... is there? The feeling of ur frens getting better results then you is not fun and enjoyable ok? Haix....
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Thursday, February 26, 2004
Hey hey.... 2molo O level results coming out le... hope its a good one haha.... budden, on the other hand, if it is too good, den we'll get more of the stress factor by that freaking mr yue.... because our batch is suppsoed to be the batch with teh highest average t-scores in PSLE... haha.... budden, come to think of it, PSLE is just a play play factor lar because its kinda easy that time.... or maybe coz we were not that mature as now... whatever.... Anyway, tomorrow, i'm getting my results back too... took the O level chinese last year.... haha.... abit nervous now so i'm here to destress coz on sat i'm having my chi and eng papers (which is so damn lame because on friday we get results and if we do badly, we wun even have the mood to study right? )
Ok.... speaking of the exams, i wun be online for most of this week coz i need to study and all that..... yeash guess i'm stressing myself out too much.... .whatever lar... hafta register for O levels le but i still dunno if i shld drop subject or not... but dun think will lar coz i have pia so hard for it esp a maths since last year le....
Oh well, all the best to the ppl taking O level results and dun think too much abt it ok? the results will just prove that you have done you best and teh marks would be what you deserved =)
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Friday, February 20, 2004
Chemistry test cancelled today~! Yeah.... Mrs Kee is so nice.... anyway,today we celebrated thinking day so had to wear full u to school and report at 6.45 am.... Yeah.. so tired still.. .did not even feel like waking up 2day sia... and i did not do any homework yesterday oso.... haha.... go home only first thing i do is bathe den come online den zzzz.....Luckily Mrs Kee cancelled the test =) I only have this to say to her... *Mrs Kee..... you rock~!!! 4 EP'04 rules 4eva~!!!* haha... whatever....
Anyway, in the morning during flag raising, we (the seniors* were standing in front of the sch and beside the scouts so we basically followed the scout's commands and we did not noe the commands so.... sia shuay in front of the whole sch lor... like what yah yah said.... den we had to stand still in front of the sch beside the prize table.... while the whole sch is sitting down.... da*n nice treatment but nvm... uniform group is lidat de =) But our legs are still sore from yesterday's cross country... but..... 4 EP girls got overall champion~!!! YAY~!!! hehe.... even though i was not one of the first six (yeah... due to some specific reasons)... Our class still got the trophy~!! For the second running year~!!! yes~! Haha.... but after we were being falled *is there such a word? =)* out, we were all so tired that some of us bent on the ground....
Well.... my day was quite spoilt whne i had to see Mr Yue on my A maths.... den when I asked Mdm Tan why we got a big fat zero on our progress report then she said it was coz of our grp marks... me and Priscilla were like arguing saying that its not fair lor that our grp dunno how to do and dun understand.... its just so unfair lor!~ Den yar I cried again.... waste my tears on such an unreasonable fellow and then give evryone so low marks summore.... one wrong question jiu zero.... WEnt to see Mr Yue lor... no choice... .did not attend flag lowering..... he asked me to observe my common test results.... which means that i have to work super hard.... i dun wanna fail.....
KKx... nth else to write le.... bbuaix~!
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Thursday, February 19, 2004
Today is cross country day... den had 3ple SS lessons and 3ple english pro-noun-ci-ation classes... den coz in btw got break so I went with Alina and Kailin to Bedok to have lunch and went to the library haha..... actually wanted to go to Marine Parade one budden we saw too many ppl le so went to Bedok instead... .Haiya.... they go do duty den pang seh me so i went to MAcritchie alone while they take bus back to sch and take transport there.... I had to run coz i was one of the 1st 6 runners in the class last year.... *shuay =P* But it was the first medal i ever evr got for running lar =P
Anyway, reached at abt the same time as them even though i left abt 5 to 10 minutes later sia haha.... den waited for very very long before I had my turn coz sec 4 girls were the last to run sia... .but before that, did abit of warm up with the class.... Started running very soon.... den saw YAh Yah keep on overtaking me.... i kept stopping.... den got stitch.... saw gui hao at the end so bia coz she said left abit more.....but it turns out that the abit more was quite alot to a person who has a stitch.... den by the time i finish le... Noriko (i think) was like asking me if i was alright but i was too tired and weak (i must admit that) to reply her... probably my face was realli very very pale ba? Coz nbr realli see her ask other ppl? Den i nearly collasped into i think Noriko's hands coz i could not see a thing le..... she and another girl helped me to the SJAB counter sia... really very bad coz my legs were like crumbling even with support.... sat down at the seat den ppl fanning me... after that have quite a few teachers ask me what happen... i was too weak to reply them oso.... so they told me to lean back den i think it was jean vyinn who applied feng you for me... could nto see a thing so i dun really noe who it was.... i was in a super bad state sia.... move from one seat to another (coz it was too glaring) also needed help.... *sighs*
Then I think I heard Mrs Kee... could see pink in front of me when i was trying to recover..... she was saying something that sounded really distant... (yes... the feeling of going faint) then i could only remmeber her wiping my sweat off or something and was asking wad happened..... After that legs were still wobbly but managed to go back to my class ppl there and continued sitting... went home later....
KK... gtg le bbuaix!~
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9:09 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Tired tired tired.... yesterday most of the guides seniors were away at the cheering stuff thing.... den end up i had to take the pathetic few sec 3s... only left 7 of them.... took PT with them and ran one round around the sch.... betcha guys that if any of the ex seniors come back and sees this sight, they will be super surprised sia... .coz in the past i could not even complete the round one hehe....
Ok.... then very very tired... got home only first thing is to sleep sleep and sleep.... wanted to wake up at 3 in the morning to complete my zuo wen but in the end fell back asleep w/o noeing it and woke up at 6+++ so had to take a taxi down to school to reach at 7.30, only to know that actualli i could reach at eight.... .but anyway, reached sch early, so went up my classroom to sweep the floor.... friday was early vday celebration so as a class we received lotsa sweets from each other.... den the whole floor was full of sweet wrappers and i only managed to clean half of the classroom.... Took sec 3s in drilling and felt the cramps in my stomach.... grr.... Feel as if I'm getting more and more distant away from my guides frens sia.... anyway, hui xin so sweet sia.... send me the sweet msg haha.... thankx alot gal~!
K lar.... think i'l go and rest now... very tired le... buais!~ By the way, lao gong *shi pei* happy belated vday~!! hahaha
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8:54 PM
Friday, February 13, 2004
So sia shuay today sia~! Today was talent time auditions and i have been practising quite alot..... in between the waiting time, which was abt 2 and a 1/2 hrs, I could do it steadily.... Until when I went into the music room and sang my first sentence, i stopped and said sorry.... then if that's not all, the subsequent times were oso lidar lro, den judy ng said i could start when i am ready and tan king ming ask if i wanna continue or not... .so chao sia shuay~! den when i sang wrongly, i just made up some silly lyrics and i was totally off sia....... argh~!!!!!!!!
Ok nvm abt that..... I'm too tired to say anything le.... ya... 2day is friday the 13th.... so thats why so unlucky.... bbuiaix~!
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Saturday, February 07, 2004

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10:25 PM
Yes.... and I am still very tired as usual.... In the morning had a flag day for the NKF...... woke up at 5 den i realised that i could actually wake up at 6 coz i got a 15 min bus trip to pasir ris and transfer train.... wasted one hour of my sleep sia.... and then all thanks to Shi Pei *my lao gong =P* who said that she wants to International Plaza unintentionally and really coincidentally, we got that place.... haha.... But anyway, I lead my team of 5 ppl and we split into two grps and went arnd asking for donationx and we went to shi pei's relatives there hehe.... Int'l plaza the ppl all very gnerous..... donate alto of money one =P
Anyway..... after that still went to SP and NP open house sia haha..... at the bus stop Yin Rong that grp, who got assigned to Bugis said they met Geraldine and each got 2 bucks... so good.... We saw Stephanie but she did nto donate lar... NP very very big~!! did not regret going there to see sia.... got free ice cream oso haha.... den got guided tour oso and alto alot of freebies~ The ppl there oso very friendly... not like SP the people so stingy... have files dun wanna give only wait for ppl 2 ask and also must be either O level graduate or something lidaty.... The goodie bag oso not bad.... I tried the obstacle course... quite fun lar... something just like OAC budden its very low and has no harness.... I did not dare to go up the ladder lar... so shaky and then very hard for me to reach oso.... me abit scared of heights =P
Ok... SHall end here today coz i'm realli very tired.... buaix!~!
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Friday, February 06, 2004
Zzz.... still very tired today.... anyway, I just got to know that my guides team did not get into the finals.... I must admit that some of them did put in effort but overall it was still quite disoragnised..... but I know they did their best, esp Yi Ying and Yin Rong ( my great grand daughters =) ) and Calcy etc.... but some in particular.... shall not mention their names here but they noe who they are.... did not put in their utmost effort lor.... what class tee lar etc.... guides not important lar hor?? Then even though I was quite harsh wif them initially and softened down later.... I stayed back practically everyday to help them out with their actions lor.... Haix.... Whatever... budden. still must congratulate the other group for gettin in.....
Oh wells.... today went SP de open house.... SP very big sia..... but I think if I really go to that poly I will most prob go to the CLS or whateva lar to take medical chem..... Umx.... but think I shall go to JC for the first 3 months to see if I can cope or not.... Just found out that Mrs Kee's L1R5 is 13.... so good.... I have to try and acheive below that in order to get into TJC.... but even so, I think so far from what Cynthia told me, NJC can choose any subject you want whether you took it in sec sch or not..... prob go there..... but that sch quite hard to get in lar.... and very very far away from my hse.....
Ok.... think I shall end here today..... cya~
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10:52 PM
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Ok... I'm online now only coz I'm waiting for my frens to send me the info for the social studies thingy coz i'm supposed to compile and edit it.... Been so tired and worn out nowadays coz I was helping out the guides with their cheer thingy... .staying back almost everyday to help out with thinking of the actions etc.... but I know that the guides have put in quite alot of effort le esp ppl likke Yin Rong, Yi Ying and Calcy.... but some of them still like slackers lor.... *no Offence*.... Thats why I was quite harsh with them on the first day coz I was fed up that they are taking it so lightly.... But now at least better le lar.... after a bit of scolding *grins*
Yesterday had health check.... nurse or whoever it is said I had low blood pressure.... thought it should be the other way round coz we are under alot of stress yar? Haha..... but anyway, quite a number of ppl in my class all got the same comment lar... .say dun burn too much midnight oil, must rest well..... but izzit our fault that sometimes we have to complete that much hw? =P
Ok.... I'm too tired to continue.... got to concentrate on Social Studies and the rest of my hw.... ( I just got home at 8-- guides practise ended at 6++) So looks like the midnight oil is going to be on again tonight.... *yawns* gOod luck 2molo ppl and jia you on the pyramid~
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10:27 PM
Monday, February 02, 2004
Ok..... yesterday was guides orientation day so I think it was quite fun but oso sian and tiring at the same time... She Yah counted 42 new guides in which we were not surprised because last year we had the exact sam number but along the way alot of them quit so... oh wells =)
Anyway we had to play games with them but we did not realli get involved lar though most of us did get wet in the shoes and also my clique of fwens played around with the water gun till all of us were screaming sia haha.... Mildred (Sok Han's cousin) so cute sia.... haha ask for sok han den call her sok han jie jie.... K lar I do call my cousins kor kor and jie jie oso.... Ok anyway, she bumped her face and started crying..... Haha.... *no offence* After the whole guides activity, I waited for the sec 3 guides to come and do the cheer thing agian.... they certainly took quite long sia but luckily I was reading chinese and had zhiyang to talk to me... If not I would really be so bored to death sia....
After that I left at three plus den went to Kenny Rogers to meet Yanting they all.... As we were walking out and I was talking to Xiaoqi on the SP open house then have one girl give me the pamphlet on the TP open house.... haha what a great big joke~ Anyway.... today pastor Kong's preaching was a very strong message sia.... I just realised that I am lacking in self condfidence..... alot and I keep telling myself that I find it hard to pass... Have to try and change from now on haha....
And yes.... I have changed cell group.... was quite surprised when Deora told me that.... Speaking of Deora... I realli hope she is fine and is not down with anything~ She may be warded in hospital.... I hope its not that serious even though I would really want to try staying in a hospital someday~ (but I noe shld not think of that lar... .esp this year~!!) Hope she will be fine...
Ok that all for today.... cya guys~!
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